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CSE papers never fail to make me smile. Most of the time at least.

It goes something like that each time,

1) Cross our fingers and pray for an essay on the theme that we've studied to come out before paper starts.
2)Flip paper anxiously over to scan the questions.
3)Flip the paper back to front page.
4)Observe friends around you, right about now we're all shaking our heads and grinning at one another.
5)During the paper- you look to the sides for a brief moment and you're next door neighbour looks back at you, still grinning and shaking their heads.

This is when you know, you're not alone.
HAHA!

Blessed.


Okay I got to say something before I go to sleep.
I've got some pretty awesome friends. They kinda just texted and tweeted words of encouragements for my upcoming exams. Yesterday was like hell but I feel better after whatsapping one good friend for quite sometime talking about serious stuffs and some not-so-serious-nonsensical stuffs.That person reads my blog so I think that person knows who I'm referring to, right? Heh.

I feel blessed and I think I can go to sleep now with more courage to face tomorrow and perhaps, the upcoming week. Goodnight people.

Sometimes.

Sometimes it's kinda hard not having the closest people in school to battle tough times with you. Not because you're not strong enough to do it alone but the fact that, their presence gives you the extra strength and courage to last through it. I miss S12 and homies being in school. I remember that very time I screwed up but I still had one more to go, was sitting outside the benches outside the lecture theatre feeling super faithless and coincidently s12 walked out from their geography lecture, their encouragements and pats on the shoulder kinda cheered me up a lot and also made me brace myself up again for the final round.

Another rainy Saturday.
Did I mention how I hate rainy days?
Hate the doom gloom.

"LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOMGWTFBBQ"

& this epic photo, ha! I remember, it was in sec 3 and well... we had band practice that day, it was a saturday. Once in awhile, you get a little 'tired' after lunch and so we kinda sneakily ponned the afternoon band practice and went to the MP library to do some work instead,hoping no one knew, especially band related people. God, how 'lucky' we actually were, guess who we saw at the library too! Of all people, our band teacher in charge! Mdm N! We had to hide or else, seriously we're darn screwed so yea, trying our level best in the picture as you can see to disguise ourselves in our hoody so she wouldn't spot us. Btw, she didn't see us in the end, thank god (:

Alright, back to books.

"It's a mind game, you taught me that.'


This could be my new theme song.

I think I'm suffering from a mild case of insomnia. I don't know what you even call it actually. Well, I do sleep but each morning I wake up I feel as if I haven't really slept, you know?I'm still dead tired, lethargic and things like that? It's like, my body's not rested enough and yet my mind's up and running 24/7. I feel frustrated with myself, it's like I'm tired and I can't get the rest I really need, what's wrong with me?

It's all in the bloody mind I swear.
Sometimes I ask myself whether it''ll be worth it but i know if I don't try then I'm definitely headed for a cliff.

Screw this shit seriously.


Well, I can see behind the curtain(I can see it now)
The wheels are cranking, turning
It's all wrong, the way we're working
Towards a goal that's non-existent
It's not existent, but we just keep believing

The little things that still make sense

Won't exchange for anyone else.

This is someone whom I love so much and won't exchange for anyone else in the world. After he sat down and had a talk with me, all my anger for the past few days have seemingly subsided. Could even laugh and joke as we talked. 7 days worth of anger and pent up frustration gone within 15 minutes. Only he can manage that. Maybe because we share the same temper and character, so he understands better. (:

Couldn't ask for anyone better when I've got the best already right?

Fury. Rage.

Been in one heck of a bad mood in the past few days. I swear I haven't been so angry in a damn freaking long while, all the anger and rage is stuck in me I don't know how to let all of it out. It's been almost a week, record breaking for me cause I've never been so angry ( angry is a freaking understatement) for a continuous 7 days in my life. So much pent-up frustration seriously, just feel like screaming at so many people right now. Okay, maybe just two people.

Don't give me all the bullshit seriously. All the nonsense talk , cut it out. I'm not the one who needs it and get your bloody facts right before you try to give the talk at least. Because when you don't, you're just gonna get me more agitated and more upset and leave me raging mad even more than I was before. What do you expect when I'm being maligned, smile and laugh?

Oh please give me a freaking break.

Who died and made you King of Anything ?

If there's one thing some people should do, that'll be to gtfo out of my life.
I don't need a bunch of arrogant fucktards interfering with my life or trying to judge me just because they have the ' upper hand' , FOR NOW.

Friends or anyone for that matter, close ones, related or not, once the line's crossed, idgaf who you are, I just can't bring myself to trust these people again. Natural instinct isn't it? NO amount of advice can make me change my perception of such people again because, I'm truly disgusted already.

Swear today's got to be the day I used the most vulgarities in my life, EVER. New side of me some have seen. Don't usually spout them, but thanks to some asshole that got me mad, and i mean FUMING MAD, CRAZY MAD, EFFING MAD, yeah. Just FO seriously. One day, you'll get to eat your own humble pie.

just wait and see, arrogant assholes.