Sunday, October 31, 2010
Last KissI still remember the look on your face
Lit through the darkness at 1:58
The words that you whispered
For just us to know
You told me you loved me
So why did you go
Away
Away?
I do recall now
The smell of the rain
Fresh on the pavement I ran off the plane
That July 9th
The beat of your heart
It jumps through your shirt I can still feel your arms
And I'll go sit on the floor
Wearing your clothes
All that I know is
I don't know how to be something you miss
Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips
I do remember
The swing in your step
The life of the party, you're showing off again
And I roll my eyes and then
You pull me in I'm not much for dancing
But for you I did
Because I love your handshake
Meetin' my father
I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets
How you kissed me when I was in the middle of saying something
There's not a day when I don't miss those rude interruptions
But I'll go sit on the floor
Wearing your clothes
All that I know is
I don't know how to be something you miss
Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips
So I watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep
And I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe
And I keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are
Hope it's nice where you are
And I hope the sun shines
And it's a beautiful day
And something reminds you
You wish you had stayed
You can plan for a change in the weather and time
But I never planned on you changing your mind
So I'll go sit on the floor
Wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know how to be something you miss
Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips
Just like our last kiss Forever the name on my lips
Forever the name on my lips
Just like our last
It was me and you against the world @ 11:52 PM
Saturday, October 30, 2010
& i'm dying to know
Kinda awesome that Taylor Swift's new album's out now. Her songs are somehow easy to relate to and they're really nice.
Life's been pretty simple in the last couple of days. Recently accumulated some good karma (hopefully) by giving back to the community & kinda realised how lucky many of us are. Simple things like being able to walk on your own, eat on your own and even talk, so many of us are actually taking it for granted. There are so many people out there who don't even have that privilege.
Was helping to pack tons of chinese new year cards with a couple of others about a week ago. Let's see, there were about 7 of us at that particular station and we spent like the whole morning packing but only managed to fill up a box full of ready-packed cards. It was a relatively easy task to us, the some of us put 5 different designed cards together before passing it to the guys to pack them into clear folders. I don't know how many times I blundered, resulting in my name called many times by the person next to me who was packing... oh well but imagine those people with disabilities packing, it must have been worse and so much harder for them, yet doing such things is like a form of earning them income. Yeah, so I guess all of us were glad that we could at least help them in a way. Seeing such a sight, it really makes one feel more humble, more contented with life. I wouldn't mind going back to help again honestly!
I think I've been really lucky this week. I was praying and hoping that...monday and tuesday wouldn't be that bad for me and all the things that i've specifically wished for, came true! Really awesome. Now i'm just hoping for the best!
I don't know what to say since a twist of fate, when it all broke down
It was me and you against the world @ 12:03 PM
Monday, October 25, 2010
As we go on
Heart attack Day 1.
Well, at least it's over.
Just saw jermy's comment and felt a little sad all of a sudden! Didn't manage to include everyone in the previous, previous post. Had more but those were the more immediate ones. So many ,so many people I'm gonna miss :( So gonna miss jermaine too, my pretty pretty dear soprano 1 section mate (: She's the one I'm closest to and who would brighten up choir practices, for me, together with the playful and bubbly Year One Sops.
Paired up together during concert, for the musical and we had to act like total bimbos infront of the whole audience. My heart almost dropped out, I swear. To add on to that anxiety I remember, I sounded almost like a guy that night yet I had to try to sound as girly as possible.
C:Omg omg, where's my mascara, i can't find it i can't it!
J: Don't worry! It's here!"
Will probably never forget that! (: Come to think of, how did we ever manage to pull through that? Each time I look back, I kinda want to find a hole to hide! Where's my mascara where's my mascara...so not me LOL. Oh well, but wont deny we all enjoyed ourselves very much that night! (:
It was me and you against the world @ 10:40 PM
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Like a house of cards
This year, can I see my rainbow, the one after the rain?
I really hope so.
It was me and you against the world @ 9:25 PM
Friday, October 22, 2010
Memories captured and kept, I just had to take them for remembrance (;I really wanted to do something meaningful for each and everyone of my close friends, I couldn't think of anything besides writing a card to each of them. (: Spent like, really a lot of time and effort designing the cards and thinking of what to write. I really wished I could have made the cards nicer and really apologetic to those that didn't turn out exactly nice, but oh well.... I'm not exactly good at art. :( Heh, but i'm quite proud of myself though, I lined all of their names out using strings and oh god...it was hard thinking how to exactly join their names together! Really hope they'll keep the cards well! (:
The hard work was really worth it! I was so happy when I passed them the cards personally!
Seeing their facial expressions and all when they received the cards was kind of a happy thing for me (;
I totally like letters!
4E Homies
I soooo like this photo! Everyone's smiling, even Soon! HAHA! & I have no idea why somehow we're lined up according to height. Well,don't know what to say exactly either, but...I really really am very thankful to have this group of people following me to the same school. They've been my pillars of strength, my confidante and everything I needed them to be (: Without them, honestly...I wouldn't know what life would have been for me in the past two years or so. I'm so glad that we didn't drift too far away from one another.
I love you guys (: & I'll miss you guys very very very very very very very very much.
Gahh, I'm tearing already. :(
Soon, my funny friend. I wanted him to pose with the card I gave him but he die also don't want to! But i'm still happy nevertheless. Firstly, at least he's making the effort to smile in the photo. LOL. Secondly, when I passed him the card I told him, ' Soon! You must keep the card properly okay! I spent loads of time doing it!' In which he replied,' Yeah, i can tell! I will keep it well, thanks a lot!' (; I'mma happy girl!
Haha. Arguing with Geng. He couldn't recall I wrote each of the 4E homies a letter back in sec 4. So angry!!
HUIHOON! Hahhaa, what more can I say? I love her ttm! (:
Last but not least, my twinnnnnieeeeeeee (: Love her though she likes to trick me from time to time and I would be gullible enough to believe her. RAR.
Sadly, couldn't take more photos with all of them! Really wished we could. Oh well, but there's always next time right? (:
S12 mini photoshoot
Russ and David! My two TK buddies I had with me when we first stepped into our new class!One, my friend for 6 years. The other, known him for 12 years now. Was so thankful cause at least there was some form of familiarity to the totallly new environment!
Two of my bestest girlfriends (; I'm so glad, despite everything in the past year or so, we haven't exactly drifted. (:
Hello, this is my one and probably only friend in the school that can make me laugh till my stomache would literally hurt almost everytime by doing a minimal amount of actions. Imagine, she could send me laughing my ass off just by merely walking towards me with that epic smile and facial expression and even the way she smses tickles me a hell lot. Can't help but love her!
Heh, love these two as well (:
We wanted to do a little mini photoshoot, well...so that I can keep it for remembrance sake and something I hope everyone can look back in time and smile when they recall such moments!
Heh, I like this photo!
All smiles!
Did a series of jumpshots and I think it's really very nice! All of them should just change it to their profile pictures or something! I predict Russell will! Right, Russ? Talking about Russ, after coming to this school, in the past two years or so, I really have changed my impression of him. It's a good change. Thank you for letting me see a totally different side of you Russ! I am honestly, totally impressed. (: Can you believe it, in the beginning of last year, practically the whole class' girls were afraid of him besides me. -.- I was the only one who dared to argue with him while my girlfriends practically looked at me in awe. ' Omg, you dare to talk to Russell like that?!"... I still clearly remember. Sigh, dao russell. Very very dao russell.
Beat looks nice!
So does Rach.
So does Bangs.
Abi too.
The class of S12 wasn't what I expected it to be like but it really did allow me to meet a bunch of awesome, awesome people who has made my life in school much more meaningful. Congrats on graduating, I will miss you guys a lot. I really can't imagine life without them, they've been such great emotional support to me. Really, a lot.
Push on guys, just a little bit more!
Don't give up now.
On the other hand, I can't believe my girlfriends are so brave. Omg! They dared to and I didn't dare :( I wanted but was too scared to. ARGHHHH! It was like that in Secondary School and now in JC. Fml! I keep telling them when they were hesitating ,' you will regret more for the things you didn't do rather than the things you did years down the road.' and yet, i can't do it myself. HAHAHAHAHHA. damn it.
The minute we left, I regretted. :(
cause baby you're like a firework
It was me and you against the world @ 10:52 PM
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Cute much( the picture) .
Thanks to E , now everyone's calling me a bear instead of duck. Why bear? Inside joke. & anyway he said I looked like one as well. Asshole. I was so annoyed, so I went around asking people if i really looked like one. & I just realised, many of friends are such an ass. After coming to JC, I have all sorts of variations of comments on how I looked like. Some of which are super puzzling, I still can't figure out why.
E: Eh bear, why your face so red?
Me: Really meh?
E: Yah.
Me: cause i'm a radiant bear! ( rEdiant)
E: Radiant ......my ass!
R: Bye duck.
Me: you know all my friends call me bear now? :( Do I really look like one? Okay, shut up don't say anything.
R: Hmm...actually come to think of it, you do look like one. HAHAHAHA. Bye bear!
Me: ... ...
Why do i have such asses as friends?HA! & Apparently a lot find it very fun to disturb me. I don't know why. Zzz.
Oh well, but life's good like that. All the joking with one another and stuff. I like!
Two more days...sigh.
I wonder how it's gonna be like. I hope I don't cry :(
Slow goodbye.
It was me and you against the world @ 12:01 AM
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Pressure
I can feel the pressure, it's getting closer now.
Past two days have been major ------_------ . Oh well, I have no idea what adjective to insert but more of less, that emoticon described my face during that whole span of time. Kwan said my facial expression looked epic when I came down from the stairs yesterday. Couldn't help it. To begin with the whole thing, I was feeling already very -.-. With all the things we had to do, it was double -.-. Seeing certain things was -.- x 3 and the ultimate came when someone stained my skirt with of all things in the world, marker ink. Not on purpose obviously, accidently. But I couldn't help but be cranky. By then, it was -.- x 100000.
It's been a pretty depressing two days.
3 days left.
in a sea of people,
It was me and you against the world @ 10:05 PM
Saturday, October 16, 2010
To let go and carry on
Been pretty upset in a way, seeing certain photos on FB. It's not the angry-upset kinda feeling, more like the sad-upet kinda feeling. It's a feeling most wont be able to comprehend anyway. Oh well. Suck it up Cheryl.
Was talking to a friend and this friend, I swear, he amazes me at times. I was literally laughing as I read the conversation from the screen.
'Just come la and stone, blend into the environment.'
'Or how about, eh you dress up as the cashier lah'
Stupid ideas being brought up but funny at the same time. My first time having a friend asking me to dress up as a cashier just because I'm bored. So nice to have crappy-funny friends (: Life's good at times like these.
It was me and you against the world @ 1:30 AM
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Back to December, all the time.
Was back at my all time favourite place. I don't know why but it's just so soothing to be there. Recalled last year, late November I just had to escape from all the chaos to take a breather. Guess where I went to? Some managed to guess I was there. Hopefully, there won't be any such reason to go there to unwind yet again. But if any case, this should be the place I go to when I'm very down (:
Sometimes, life can be so dramatic. I feel like I'm in a what? 20 episode Korean Drama sometimes and at times, I feel like I'm in a 3000 odd plus episode Taiwanese Drama (that freaking never ends -.- ) Standing here right now and looking back at the many episodes of my not-so-long-bittersweet life, I really don't know how to feel. Often, I really wish I could go back and rewind certain parts of my life and make them right yet, sometimes I just wanna hit the ' fastforward' button and forget the past. Yet, life itself doesn't have such cool functions. Someone invent a time machine please, it's about time already.
Then again, it's not the years in your life that count, it's the life in your years that's important. I hope mine's gonna be a fulfilling one.
These are not actually what I wanted to type. I just can't find the right way to type the thoughts in my mind out. Will blog again when I got it all sorted out (:
will go back in time time to change it, but i can't.
It was me and you against the world @ 11:03 PM
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Need a little more luck than a little bit
Funny how people like to read horroscopes, the slips of papers in fortune cookies and rely on little signs they deem to be signs of hope or luck. It's like, all these things are a form of affirmation everyone needs from time to time I guess? & sometimes, miraculously or perhaps, coincidently, these things we rely on to determine our days really work!
How about, ' Life's gonna be good for you this year, especially this October and November' ?I think really need it!(:
Been really moodless these days.
Actually not that much of moodless but a lot of fear within.
Well, enough said.
It was me and you against the world @ 7:26 PM
Saturday, October 09, 2010
Living in my own world(:
Something I realise recently; I'm really very oblivious to my surroundings. If I'm happy with all the current things and people that I have by my side, I really tend to stay super contented and I won't bother to go find out more about other people's lives or their gossips. Especially if I don't even know that person personally. So you could ask me,
" Eh, do you know this person..."
" Huh, who's that! Never heard before."
" You sure know one! There that one!You know...he/she in so and so CCA"
"Who?!"
" The very very tall one!"
" I still don't know which one luh"
" The person's class so near yours, you sure see before!"
* Coincidently, the person walks past*
" There that one!"
"Huh, I never see him before eh."
Agitated response 1: "Omg, Cheryl you suck!"
Agitated response 2: "Cheryl, you serious?!'
So yeah, next time if you want to try describe someone to me, best and fastest way is just to show me his or her picture. Don't tell me, the very tall or short one or whichever prominent physical trait the person may have because most likely, I still wouldn't know who you're talking about! Blur much but it's true and I really can't help it =X
Saw this phrase somewhere,
"I really hate it when people say I look miserable when I'm just sitting there. Do I need to paint a smile all the time?!"
Hahaha, I find it so funny cause it was so applicable to me like, a few years ago. I heard the " eh, don't emo" phrase probably a few hundred times a year. Sometimes, I really wasn't emo-ing! Sumpah. But...think after awhile I got used to this phrase, so...whatever!(:
Recently, many people told me that they've never been so stressed out by studies in their lives before, not until they arrived in JC. Well, that's simply because JC is an extremely important stage in our lives. In primary school, you knew that even if you didn't do well enough to go to a top-notched secondary school, you still had a chance to study in a secondary school. In secondary school, you knew that you could either choose the JC route or Poly route. Plenty of choices available for you out there. You still had a chance to path your future carefully. But then it became different after you chose your path. So, you chose the JC path. & in JC, it's either you make it or break it. It's important because it determines your life and you don't have that many chances to play around with anymore. So when I study while listening to the radio and I hear primary and secondary school kids song dedicating, telling the DJs how it sucks to be them because they have so much homework to do and so much to study for, I really don't know whether to laugh or cry, wait till they freaking try the JC route...HAHA!
It was me and you against the world @ 1:01 PM
Thursday, October 07, 2010
Who Will I Run To 
You just got to know that I'm so tired currently. Totally exhausted. Been one hell of a ride. But have been really touched by a certain few groups of people. Today, I was on the brink of giving up, until came a gang that really cheered me up by what they said and how they said it.
There are indeed certain people in your life that you know who are there to stay when you need them. &....really am thankful for them. I'm sorry if I missed out some pictures,there should be more, really, but because my eyes are already on the verge of closing and I'm too lazy to search through the folders to find more photos =/
It was me and you against the world @ 10:19 PM
Tuesday, October 05, 2010
Catch your wave (:
I'm barely surviving.
I almost died today.
Please allow me to have the strength to the face the next two days of my life.
I swear when I'm super stressed, I do crappy stuffs.
Was so stressed when my Ipod changed to " I quit I quit I quit " so I started singing along with it unknowingly. Until...
"Cheryl!! Can you not sing such songs like, right now!?"
I heard this.
"Hahhaa...oh yeah huh."
I quit I quit I quit......nauuuuughhhht! (:
If.
It was me and you against the world @ 7:14 PM
