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Breathe.
Finally, I can breathe a little more now.

Blahhh.... sometimes I wonder whether feeling this way is worth it. There's so many things I wish I could do but it ain't gonna happen for sure, at least not for now. But somehow I have this gut feeling it's just gonna happen, I just don't know when. I hope I'm right cause I could really use some of it right now.


I'm not making much sense to you right?
Yeah, awesome.

Open up make a brand new start, I don't care who's stayed before

Fairytales exist. Oh really?

Friendships are already so unpredictable, what more relationships ?Just saying. Heard so many horror tales from friends, their own experiences, experiences from their own friends. It's really getting scarier.

I think it's almost like a miracle finding someone who cares about you and who you care about too. It's like at that instant, your fates interwine and it's the most wonderful thing ever. But then, when it falls apart....

Relationships nowadays often come and go so easily, hardly seen many that actually lasted. & to those that do, really got to salute them, simply because everyone knows how hard it is for to keep something and someone so precious going.

So just like what the picture up there says, I really love seeing old couples... cause they kinda show you that somewhere out there, someone is actually capable of keeping it going for you. They're not going to abandon you when you need them most. Promises mean nothing if you aren't going to carry them out.

Inspired to write this post due to many reasons. Yeah, many many various reasons. Am currently hooked onto the song ' What Are Words' , it's really quite touching. Especially the story that comes with it.

Anywhere you are,
I am near
Anywhere you go,
I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words,
They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words,
They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

Sweet right! (:

' Don't take people for granted, no matter how much they love you, people get tired eventually'

Now I know why they say it's almost impossible. Simply because you already know you have your own expectations yet, it's not really up to you to expect any more.

Suck it up.

So anyway it's the holidays, right...

Another one of those mornings

It's Saturday, 8 am and I'm awake. Not because I have to, more because I'm up thinking of things yet again. I really don't like this feeling at all, you know it's like this huge nightmare being on replay again, it scares me. I really don't want to go through this all over again, it drained so much of my energy and smile once. I don't think I need a second time.

And this coming week, we're in for a ride.
Sigh.

Just A Dream

The release of the A level results was indeed an eye opener. I saw many people crying and these are the people that I know. It was really... I don't know how to say it but, it's just...sad cause I know the amount of effort these people have put in.

But I'm really proud of all of them as well! All of them. S12 and homies in particular.My idols! My inspiration! My Motivation!

I just really want to thank god for planting some people in my JC life. When I first came in, never really thought I could find so many pillars of support. I keep repeating the same old things in this blog, but just take it as i'm really proud and thankful to have all these people in my life in the most tortourous academic years of my life.

So, I just really want to say, THANK GOD for planting : Bangs, Beatrice, Mayern, Russell, David, Daphne, Abigail and Pascalle in my life. They gave me many advice today. Gonna take every single one of them seriously. & I am honestly a bit lost and scared without them by my side.
:( Was feeling pretty shitty and heavy-hearted today but things brightened up when with them. Fuuny friends I have! =D Also... not forgetting the TPJHomies- my extra strong pillars of support from Secondary School. Guess ...i'm just so lucky.

I've been ranting a lot in the past month or so in here because, let's just say it's been one of the worst months ever and ...the stress from everything was super overwhelming cause I let so many things affect me. So please God, there are still many things on-going and honestly, I'm still quite affected by all of it but there's also nothing I can do about it anymore...I tried my best, I just pray everyone will be more understanding :(

"you can't please everybody, so just do what you need to and don't regret"

It's sad, so sad.

How coincidental that I typed out the previous post in the morning and by night, something bad happens. No idea why I snapped and walked away either. Maybe I'm just tired of people in a way, misunderstanding things before clarifying. Maybe I just reached the maximum I could go. Though I know, yes...some did it for my own good but can't they see why I did it in the first place? I had my own reasons, of course.

Honestly, I don't think I have reacted this way ever before. I mean, the walking away part. I felt bad after that. I know it's wrong, I should have contained my frustration and anger better but i felt helpeless too.Thankfully, on the way home... P called. Just in time, I needed someone to talk to.

LMA cheered my day up on Sunday night. Those encouraging texts, really meant a lot. Really thankful, just needed that form of assurance to face the days to come. Sometimes I really wished I was still on par with my closest friends.


Oh well. Life goes on!