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A whole myriad of feelings felt today.

Angry in the morning.
High in the late morning.
Tired in the early afternoon.
Scared by mid afternoon.
Sad by late afternoon.
Very =( now.




還是害怕一個人時就很難忘記.

& so life is just like a ferris wheel, going in rounds,in the same cycle continuously. *Picture taken from net.



A new week is about to begin again and we'll be going through the same routine each day. I seriously need more time for myself.

& I seriously need .


Sigh, PI is such a pain in the neck.
PI=Perfectly inelastic irritating -.-


Isny.

Today was a super super tiring day.

We had to sing like practically, the whole day. 7 in the morning...all the way to like 5 in the evening,of course with breaks in between. We were excused from lessons. Was one of those being selected to go for the auditions. You know, I freaking have a phobia of one to one auditions...but who isn't right? Auditions were supposedly scheduled to be tomorrow but they pushed it forward to today.

Then after lunch I just ...hmm. Thankfully, twin was there. Sigh. Then came Beatrice,Rachel and Pascalle. Sigh.

1 till 5, singing.

After 5, the start of auditions. Was not the first to be tested,phew. The J1s that were going to be auditioned formed a circle and started singing our parts together.It helped a lot. I was probably the second or third to be tested. Sigh, and I kinda thank all the J1 mates for cheering me on when i went into the room and my seniors as well for the encouragement.

Sigh. I guess I have to get rid of my typical 'dao' look perhaps,ahahaa.



Cuz I gotta know

Don't hang up.
Can we talk?
So confused
It's like im lost.
What went wrong?
what made you go?
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me
Im unchangeable

When did we
Fall apart?
Or did you lie
From the start?
When you said
Its only you
I was blind
Such a fool
Thinking we
Were unbreakable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful.

Ive been told
Whats done is done
To let it go
And carry on
And deep inside
I know that's true
Im stuck in time
Im stuck on you
We were still untouchable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more.
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

Wake up, wake up, wake up
Cuz im only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now

Because we're much better
All together
Can't let go.

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

Make me unbeautiful


Lesley Roy-Unbeautiful


Hmm...great song.

Mondays to Saturdays are gonna be like so crappy in time to come.Sigh. Memories captured and kept.


I don't know, but I just had this urge to look back on everything we once did. I was looking at our SYF 2006 and 2008 outdoor videos. Woohoo,I'm darn proud to come from Tkband,like seriously!?Xiaojia went back to look at the videos too and like me, she's darn proud too. It's a kind of feeling you don't get to feel until you officially leave the school,leave the band and then you realise,whoa,you actually really do miss those times. I guess nothing's gonna ever be able to beat these times i had with this bunch of section mates

God, I miss MAMAs like a lot. We did so many crazy stuffs together. Jessica and her crap, Xiaojia and her retardedness, Bao the blur one with an infectious laughter,Tiffany and her highness at times and Kangwei with his total randomness and spasticness. If only we could go on a holiday together, i bet it'll be damn freaking fun!

It's so hard to like keep in contact with everyone,not just MAMAs.I hope all our friendships will last till forever man (: Don't ever wanna lose them.







And all I needed was this

I'm so bloooooody tired.


This week was super energy draining!With choir and all especially.With choir ending at eight yesterday, I almost died. Almost but didn't (:

The following week and the weeks to come will be even more tiring. Why?Because the STARS programme's ( some stupid structured remdial programme in my school) gonna start. Damn. Indeed, I'm so gonna see stars during the programme! Imagine having to drag your sleepy,tired self for another hour of extra lessons after a freaking long day and only get to go home at 6pm. Gee,life sucks!RAR!

Can't wait for June holidays to arrive. Like,another month or so?I need to catch up with loads of sleep!!... and my work too because Mid Year Exams come after the june holidays. Brilliant. -


when the going gets tough.

I'm having the day from hell,
It wasn't all going so well (before you came)


I'm supposed to like, do my second draft for my PI now but guess what! Instead,i'm laughing my ass off with the videos Fiona introduced to me =X Wth man.

If you're super stress, need something to chill and calm you down, watch this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G7oGx2dImE8&feature=related

Actually, I was super tired cause choir ended at like 7.40pm today! Sigh. I need my sleep luh.But no, PI is here to bug me once again. Today, we kinda learnt this chinese song.Oh gosh,it reminded me, it's been so long since i last had a proper conversation in chinese and read a whole long passage of chinese words =X


Blah!


I thought wrong.

Monday Blues? Hmm. Not exactly for today.


SPE, we had all the relay competition again. I have officially developed a phobia of running relays. I don't wanna trip/slip and fall ever again. So, today...no running for me!=X


Was super tired today. Fighting hard to stay awake during lectures was such a chore.So tough and agonising. Attempts to stay awake failed at times.During math lecture, YQ, Sandra and I were dozing off. YQ got caught by the teacher =X I kinda escaped. Then came Geog lecture. I was like a walking zombie already by then. The lecture was kinda boring, so...again, Sandra and I dozed off. We're not the only ones,many others were dozing off or have already dozed off.


Today's match! TJ against our school. Saw like,loads of familiar faces from TJ. (:


For appearing,at this time,ty.

Okay!Let's see.

It was like a super super long day yesterday. Choir took up like,most of the day. After choir, followed Fiona to Haji Lane to get her top. Silly girl, didn't want to get it on Friday when she was already so tempted to get it then.

Was supposed to go study with Tiff and CT, but I ended really late,so...we didn't meet up =( So sorry!

So after getting the top, Fiona's classmate came to meet us at Bugis. Waited for him for awhile at the MRT and then headed off to the airport. (: It was just the three of us, until BFF came to surprise Fiona and she got a shock and screamed -.-

Grrr. Told BFF something retarded when both of us went to the gallery to see aeroplanes and from then on, I got made fun of until we went home. Aha, I was standing on the railings at the gallery when he reminded me that I was in my school uniform and not to get STOMP-ed cause I was too old to act like a child and stand on railings.ZZZZ. Where's the logic but still,I got off =D It's been so long since I last came to the gallery. Hmm.

I think I'm super gay! Omg, not gay as in happy ...but...just gay!Sssssshhh. =X

Edited/

Was talking to Xiaojia on certain retarded stuffs and couldnt stop laughing! Here are some abstracts of our convo:


★Xiao Jia is fearless says:
lameee
hahaha
my eyes also small
why you nvr go gaga over me?!
haha

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
Your eyes small meh!
LOLLLL WTH~~~
damn funny lah
omg.


★Xiao Jia is fearless says:
dong zuo must be kuaiiiiii!
haix

★Xiao Jia is fearless says:
the early bird gets the bloody freaking worm you moron

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
LOL WHY SO AGITATED!?

★Xiao Jia is fearless says:
hahaha
i cannot take it!
hahahaha
go go go!
run baby run!
Don't ever look back!

Omg, I had a good time laughing behind my computer screen. That retarded girl! Even more agitated than me -.-Still, I love her loads <3! size="1">Should I?

cause baby everything is f-ed up straight from the heart
tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
gotta pick myself up where do i start
cuz i can't turn to you when it all falls apart
no

can it be easier?
can i just change my life?
cause it just seems to go bad everytime
will i be mending?
another one ending once again

Sheesh.
I'm so pissed off. With so many things.With so many people. With life.

" Cause baby everything is so f-ed up straight from the heart"

No you don't understand,neither do they.
& that's why,problems keep coming.

You know what, I feel like breaking down....okay,maybe not.

I just got home like, barely 45 minutes ago from school. I'm so darn bloody tired from staying in school for like 12 hours, standing and singing for like 5 hours and now, I've got to find the freaking motivation and energy to stay awake,force myself to complete two freaking econs essays that's due tomorrow? I know many others are in the same situation as well,some even worst. Poor dance people,they finish at 9pm.

But still...sheesh!


Argh!!! & stop letting me see things I don't wanna see and get to know things I don't wanna know.


& i can't breathe,without
But i have to.

How retarded can today get?


Okay,firstly...my body's like,breaking apart it seems?My everywhere is aching! My arms, my shoulders and my legs in particular. Just one fall yesterday and so many problems.I can't really lift my left leg. My right shoulder's giving some problems,my right arm is aching and I can feel the strain when I'm writing. Same goes for the left arm. To think, I thought Beatrice was the fragile brittle one. I'm not any different it turns out. ZzzZ, so I was trying to be super careful with myself today but I keep getting heavy pats on my shoulders and arms when 2 of my dear classmates got too agitated and excited. -.-

Secondly. Econs was supposedly the last lesson of the day. My teacher didn't turn up cause she was on MC,so... we thought we could all go home. Since I had no chinese lessons to attend to, I left with Rachel for home. My other classmates had to stay behind. So,happily I boarded the bus home,earlier than usual. Like at 2pm? Halfway through the journey, I saw another two classmates on the opposite side of the road,flagging for the bus. Was puzzled at first because, that bus they were flagging for was heading towards school direction. I didn't bother too much about it and so, I continued stoning in the bus =p I was like,one bus stop away from home?when I saw 4 messages, and 4 missed calls on my phone.

" Cheryl! Come back to school now! Haha. Econs in SR1"

Yea,so missed calls and messages, mostly from my classmates.My teacher somehow came back from her leave?-.- I panicked,obviously. Alighted and cabbed back to school. Lessons were supposedly from 2-3 but I only reached back at school at 2.50pm. I was like, wth-ing all the way. I was so looking forward to my afternoon nap actually!and the fact that I was one stop away from home and I had to cab all the way back to school again was like, RAR!!!??!Rachel waited for me at the foyer. Quite funny actually, we were thinking of an explaination to tell our teacher once we reached the seminar room. In the end, she didn't question us. Think she understands?


And we know that it's never simple never easy,
Never a clean break no one here to save me.

Surprisingly, not that much monday blues today.

Something embarassing happened today.

Today, during SPE they surprised with us by saying we're gonna have some relay run,12 x 100 for some sports day stuff.I'm not sure if it's just for practice or if this is the actual relay. So anyway,the girls formed a team,10 of us, I was the ninth runner. Sigh. Okay, so my heart was beating damn fast when my turn was nearing...then my turn came. I ran... then shortly after that, I fell at the bend. =.='' Wtf man. My left leg,from ankle to knee, practically scraped against the freaking track and I could hear the crowd at the back go " Oh..." So embarassing -.-'' Got up and ran again anyway.Sigh. Felt kinda bad, towards my classmates after that. Like obviously,by falling I caused some delay. =( I don't know how or why I fell,seriously-.- Think the tracks were a little slippery-.-or either that, I was plain clumsy -.- or both -.- Sigh!

Hmm. After the whole thing ended, my classmates were all really nice, they came to see if I was okay. My left leg, hmm...had this long, red stretch of abrasion mark. -.- It still hurts.My arm too.Argh.

Fast forward through this boring day.

Everyone's like falling ill. During maths lecture, Beatrice was getting frustrated cause she was super tired from all those dance trainings and she wanted to sleep. Rachel on the other hand,suddenly caught a flu and she was having some problems with her eyes. Sandra's on MC.

PW lesson, we were kinda free cause our teacher had some urgent matters to attend to. Ended crapping a little with Russell,David and Daphne.Russell and his stupid irritating accent made me tempted to stuff his pencil box into his mouth. =D


After school,stayed back to watch the soccer match again with homies (: Soon came to know about my fall -.-,started to imagine how the situation was like and starting laughing at me.RAR! Spastic.And Shigeng was one of those people during PE who went "Oh~..." until he realised it was me who fell.ZzzZz.


Okay! I'm super tired now cause I stayed up till 130am yesterday night just to complete my PI. All of a sudden, I feel so hardworking!


May god bless me tomorrow because I'll be having 3 periods of maths tutorial. Maths lessons now remind me of those secondary three days, whereby the class was never ever NOT chaotic and quiet. But that's not the point. The whole point is, I can't stand her voice.



Been here all along.

The weekend's passing too fast.

The above picture( which i got from the net) is exactly what I feel like doing now. Oh god. My eyes are closing,but I've got like, loads of homework due tomorrow so I can't go to sleep until I finish up most of them.

Zzz.

If I could burn all my tutorials now, if there wasn't any lessons tomorrow and if only there wasn't something called PI, then...


then...


then i can have my sleep luh. Wth.



Pfft.



Looking back,