Friday, July 29, 2005
Graduation(friends forever)
haish..im feeling so sad now...im living in the memories of 6 charity now..im recalling how much fun i had when i was in primary school...3 faith 4 faith 5 charity 6 charity...i enjoyed these 4 yrs best..friends...teachers....all of them were great! especially the last 2 years...the last 2 years in gmps..why didnt i treaure them...recalling how me kaiying karmen beiying chloe kian han eugene aloysia used to crapp..how kian han hit me and sindhu to the rhythm of the "hi5"theme song..haha..memorable memories.how me and chloe used to call each other "positive" and "negative" how me and elenna chatted on the line like there's no tmr...how i confide my problems and crap and eveything to karmen..how me and elenna use to bully and tease eugene...how kaiying and bertram used to tease me and my so called high tech bathroom...memorable?yes!How a big grp of us practised hard for the captain ball tournament..how we practise on saturdaes...how we used to play badminton after school and during recess...how much fun laughter we had.how i used to hold parties on christmas and my birthdae ...how we played in the pool...how we played at the skating ring at my hse..how thomas karmen kaiying aloysia chloe shuyi eugene me elenna yihui amanda abigail etc. used to climb up the skating ring slope at my hse's playground..how karmen and a grp of us went into the pool with no proper attire and had to hide from the security guards.haha!!splashing water here and there.fun.fun.i really miss those moments...but all of em seem to have disappeared in such a short time...*Pop*it vanishes.nvr to return again.wy..why does life have to be like that..does eternity friendship exists?will the whole lot of us be friends forever?will we?currently..everyone's like so busy..busy with school life...we're not in contact anymore...i miss you all...in the beginning of the year i used to shed tears ...when i listened to the song"graduation".the lyrics were beautiful,meaningful...it made me think of my friends...the times we shared.now that all of us have graduated...we no longer share the happy times we used to..thats sad...really sad..well...just want to tell the the ex 6 charitysians out there.I LOVE YOU ALL..GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU..oh this is making me cry..."Graduation(friends forever)"vitamin cAnd so we talked all night about the rest of our livesWhere we're gonna be when we turn 25I keep thinking times will never changeKeep on thinking things will always be the sameBut when we leave this year we won't be coming backNo more hanging out cause we're on a different trackAnd if you got something that you need to sayYou better say it right now cause you don't have another dayCause we're moving on and we can't slow downThese memories are playing like a film without soundAnd I keep thinking of that night in June I didn't know much of loveBut it came too soonAnd there was me and youAnd then we got real blueStay at home talking on the telephoneWe'd get so excited, we'd get so scaredLaughing at ourselves thinking life's not fairAnd this is how it feels[1] - As we go onWe rememberAll the times weHad togetherAnd as our lives changeCome WhateverWe will still beFriends Forever...I miss 6 charity 2004,i really do.
It was me and you against the world @ 8:30 PM
argh...might not be able to use the comp for the next few daes..ouch im in pain!!!my goshh...why does this have to happen like every other day?argh..frustrated.Todae.hmm kinda okay.sat with tiffany in class .haha...crazy us..we are like talking to each other as if nothing ever happened..haha...well maybe this is the outcome of forgive and forget.let sleeping dogs lie.omg..have not memorise that music score..im so dead...hmm..haha...recently i came up with an evil plan...quite cruel...i think?haha...i wont tell you what is it for..aniwae..hhaha...i have something up my sleeves...lala....argh..this is getting more and more xciting...people taking revenges time and time again..but...haha..i shall just bear with it...i wonder when will this "game" end?when we're sec 2?haha... this might train me to be more alert ya?Hwa hwa hwa.Evil me...lalala.....ok got to do my tuition homework now..
It was me and you against the world @ 3:07 PM
Thursday, July 28, 2005
sheesh i was pranked by someone again todae.haha a bit funny though but just played along with that person,since i knew he was up to no good..haha in the end i revenged but the revenge wasnt sweet.i must go figure something else .muahaha beware! hmm i think my group is dead .our geog project.done not done?i dont noe.i think i failed as a group leader.sheesh.why make me a group leader.haish..
It was me and you against the world @ 11:33 PM
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
sometimes..i find myself so ...weird?haha...my mood changes real fast.if i feel like talking..i'll talk...i dont feel like it then i dont.haha to those ppl who get what i mean.haha.haish...another mundane dae..about to pass...todae...yiguan accidently dropped my handphone..i dont noe how..but it dropped.well i freaked out.and i was a little angry.sorry yiguan..if i was over reacting..i was afraid my handphone would.."die"haha..sincerely sorry...welltodae...i feel so guilty...i feel i sinned..so many times..well our class made mrs tay angry todae...we talked too much...sorry mrs tay!!!hope she comes for lessons tomorrow.well well well...hmm...went to yiguan's hse todae.wow!!!we ate maggi noodles.everyone.haha...i helped to cook i helped to cook!haha yipee...praise me!praise me!!haha.but i think i made a mess.haha.lol.hmms...well...i hate acting..definitely.drama infusion.todae.so-so.i simply dont like to act and become some other thing..i just cant think of any ideas.i cant.haha..so i hate it when its my turn.haha.dont blame me if im avoiding the teacher,haha i really at my wits end?haha...hmms.tralala.falala.tatatatatitititidadadada.not interested anymore.haha.well...simply..normal..so very normal..everythings normal to me now..not something to go"wow!"haha..and get excited about..hehe...ok u wont noe what im talking about here...except for someone.haha..yepp someone.haha.secret code.wadeva.argh.. .. ..yeah i think im going back to gm.well..eugene asked me...he said proabably the whole lot of 6 charitysians from dunman high are going back..including himself..well..of cause im going!dont ever count me out!haha..i want to see mrs lee's big big tummy.well..hopefully she doesnt give birth until..after 1st september...haha..so we can all see her tummy!!!crappo me.but if the babe wants to come out ...then haha too bad!!!just leave it to fate.haha.am i crappy?oh wadeva.hmms,i lose my k organiser.damn.my memory is so ...bad.i simply forget things so easily..like..where i put things and stuff.also..when there's band...great chance of me forgetting to bring my clarinet ...haha hence having to go back again and take.haha.forgetful me!!!!!arrrr..wad else.nothing else i think..hence..buh-bye!
It was me and you against the world @ 8:41 PM
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
woohoo..we've got our jackets!!yeah..so nice..haha...i thought i was not gonna be able to find my size..haha..lol who noes i got it..and it was medium!!haha!!wow!lala...so happy..i did't fail my band music practical test..woots!although ...my grade was'nt fantastic..but nevertheless..i didnt fail!woohoo!!!still need to buck up to get an A..hmms...todae..got back history...damn..grades dropped!bad!dropped!!!my gosh...haha todae..mood was fine..except was..a little..pissed..when i saw something ...shall not further explain ..or else..hmm more problems will...surface.todae...weather was so cold!!FREEZING COLD!i borrowed audy's jacket for quite long..but i still felt cold when wearing that jacket ..to think this kind of weather actually made me...a person who sleeps in 18 degree celcius air con room.. shivering cold?wad de..haha...weird.if it rains tomorrow,im gonna bring my own!!!haha.hmm wad else...mundane life..mundane story...mundane blog..mundane blogksin!!haha...elenna's complaining...she says i should change blogskin..haha!!asked her to help me do it.haha ..i noe nuts about blogskins..dodododododododo
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*Bb scale!!*haha..ok ok..i'll stop my moonshine.haha..argh...its homework time.darn it..so i guess...i'll have to....have to.....have to......go..........awwww!!!haha...ok ok!!i'll stop my moonshine this instance!byes!
have a nice dae people!
It was me and you against the world @ 8:58 PM
Monday, July 25, 2005
yeah im back!haha..i just realise friendster's horoscope is getting so ...erm...accurate?or...how should i sae it..it just seems to know what kind of situation im in...the other dae it was just telling those who belong to the capricorn horoscope to do something which i think i was so much in that situation..while todae's:You need to have your say with regard to a pressing family matter -- and you're in exactly the right mood to do just that. Don't apologize, no matter what. You're right, and you know it. Stand your ground firmly.well although its family matter..but...kinda the same isnt it?well just that..i dont know if im right or wrong..aniwae..why am i mentioning this..i've already let the matter rest isnt it?dortx.. .. ..i feeling less hatred in me now-towards my hmt tuition.though its a fact that its falls on a sunday and i hate it to the core as my only entire full dae rest of the entire week is taken up just like that...i've learnt to take things easy...well..probably it has made me a happier person..i dont noe...but i do still feel lots of anger in me on sundaes when its...TUITION TIME ! yah i would be like..cursing the damn tuition haha..oops.dont you think im becoming more and more like an optimistic person??yeah yeah!!cheers.ok ...so late now and yet im using the computer?wad de?!my eye lids..feels so heavy now..guess what time it is ...haha..BEAUTY SLEEP TIME!!!yah yah ..u must be thinking im lame..oh wadeva...im like that...haha live with it!bear with me!Nites people!~~~==**- -__RaWk On My FrIeNdS__--**==~~~
It was me and you against the world @ 11:00 PM
well well well...todae...another mundane and lethargic day for me..?felt bored for some lessons...yawned and stretched many times..haha.well...everythhing was going quite smoothly...mood improved over the days...thats for sure...not only until when it came to the end of the geog test..where by i got a little pissed by something.argh..why!!why dampen my mood...?!shucks.nvm nvm...haven't i said i've let the matter rest people?why..continue to ask me about that matter and spoil my entire mood..why?as i've said...although i've let the matter rest..i still dont feel comfortable talking to her ...ok?happy?good explanation?clear enough for you to understand?good..if yes...please do me a favour then..stop mentioning abt that matter..ok?if you stilll fine me petty...wadeva ok.i seriously i cant be bothered..now dont try to patch us up...bring us together or wadeva ok..i noe what im doing...and i dont want to be in the same grp as her for the time being to avoid clashes..wads the point when i'll be just pulling a long face and the other party is not happy too?so leave us alone.we'll settle it ourselves when the time is ripe ok?argh!i noe you ppl are kind souls trying to help..thanks,but no thanks.i will only feel frustrated.argh...lalala...chang subject.well...karmen cheered me up on saturdae night.we did dome lame things haha...read my tagboard...haha you'll see...i also tagged some lame lame things on her board..haha...fun!!i want to do it some other time again.haahaa...ok ..have to go do homework now.....BUAIX.
It was me and you against the world @ 7:46 PM
Saturday, July 23, 2005
back from band practise!!!haix...im dead beat...so tired..so very very tired...todae went to pp to eat lunch...there was actually ...6 of us then met 5 in pp...wow wad chaos we've made on the wae back...11 people split into 4 taxis!which was so not necessary...aniwae..in my cab..there was only 3 of us..kangwei sarah and me...ya...haha and im so kind!!i paid for the taxi fee!!haha...im such a kind soul..dont u think so...haha..yes..yes...do what i think is right...so...i strongly believe im doing the correct thing..yes..im staying optimistic about the whole damn thing...im ignoring..im not bothering im not doing anything...its like whats the point.im also staying cheerful...no point getting so bloody upset and brood about the whole damn thing..it would be just wasting my precious time..i'll just take things line upon line..in friendship these things are just some lions in the way...no one can avoid these problems..so ya...i wont try to move heaven and earth...its useless..some people think im crazy for being so optimistic and happy abt quarelling with a friend...but im not crazy...i dont wish to become some sad lethargic person just becoz of a matter which was made a mountain of a molehill...as the saying goes..no point crying over spilt milk...ya?so ...no use telling me "sae sorry lah..."wad for!?also not my fault!even if it is..i've said sorry...for the part which i was in the wrong..so...even if you pay me..you can perish the thought abt me saying sorry again..to begin with ,i was not even totally wrong.Life still continues.... along the way,you lose some,you gain some.yup..lalalala...darn it...i think im gonna fail my maths..history....hopefullt i wont fail my geog..haix...!!!betta go study .....bye guys..and gals...haha..wadeva!
It was me and you against the world @ 7:44 PM
Friday, July 22, 2005
haha yet another average school dae has passed...nothing interesting happened...average dae...average mood...average everything.someone asked me to sae sorry to that person again.yes again.wad for?im not even in the wrong anymore..so why should i do that?i will not sae sorry for things that i've not done wrong.so ..perish the thought.it will never ever happen.i've done my part already..so..you people..dont blame me for anything..cause..seriously..i wont try anything else ...i wont do anything else just to please that person...be a betta person?yeah..right..of coz i want to be a betta person...hello..i've done what im supposed to do..so..now what?do i have to kneel down and say sorry to that person for what she said about me?do i have to?do i have to tell her she's so right in doing that...i deserve it and stuff just to please her...?DO I !!!??heck!seriously i dont understand ...seems like everyone is taking me for the bad guy in this whole thing.SO BE IT THEN ! just dont ask me to say sorry for things which i wasnt in the wrong,ok.right..and good friends of mine are asking me to not sulk everydae?define the meaning of sulk for me.if you think im sulking becoz im unhappy and stuff..yeah could be..but most of the time it is just the sianxified look of mine...i was bored...real bored..hence i put on that look...ok?like todae history..i yawned like god noes how many times...my primary school best friends ask me to take things easy...sure im taking it real easy ..im coping with so much hmwk....so many things to do...im taking things easy trust me...i cant even be bothered to care about that dumb retarded matter..arent i taking things easy?sometimes...i really feel like crying..but then again wads the point...i have so much anger in me right now...i want to vent on something..but what?anyone?suggestions?argh..kaiying im wrong..so sorry..i am not at all cheerful now...im not happy...karmen...im so like you now...im such an unhappy person...really unhappy...where's the happy go lucky me...half of THAT me has vanished...i've been less talkative these daes...i dont feel like talking at times....karmen,do i sound like you?i do right..wow..sick of it ...i cant be bothered..i'll leave that matter a side ..let thigns be..let time heal all wounds...i'll let the matter rest...but.i wont sae sorry..coz..let me emphasise...i've said what im suppose to say already..so pls..if you want to advice me to sae sorry...let me tell you in advance..i'll just turn a deaf ear to your advice..
It was me and you against the world @ 1:58 PM
Thursday, July 21, 2005
why....must it be like that...there's no peace at all...everywhere i go ____ ___ ____ fill in the blanks if you are smart enough.i told the answer to a few people..so to those few ppl:do not reveal the answer!!!!even if you know it.its meant to be a secret btwn you all and me.seriously i feel its rather infuriating...im tired...im sick of it...everytime,everywhere__ __ __ __ __ __!!why?why me.and guys...seriously dont try to pull me and X back together,becoz it seriously wont help...it will actually add more fuel to the fire...i really dont like it.so stop doing that to piss me off.thank you.argh....irritating irritating....damn irritating!!!how i wish .....oh nvm shall not say it here...very inconvenient.todae,an average dae.didnt enjoy as much.tests.and some unpleasant things.i realise ,people tend to sacrifice other things to suit their personal needs dont they?well...thats rather sad...anywae todae was just a very very average dae whereby i have to put up with somethings..yup....and im so not grateful for that.i miss my primary school friends...some.my good o'pals...karmen kaiying chloe elenna aloysia..i was never ever treated like that..i need'nt had to put up with so many unbearable stuffs...i need'nt worry...i just had to do nothing...i just stayed happy...these friends comfort me..makes me laugh and stuff....when im down.not that my current friends cant..they're as good as my primary school friends...but...aniwae..i just want all of them to be by my side now..i need them.sighs.
It was me and you against the world @ 8:01 PM
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
oh man...wad a disgrace!...my cooking practical todae was like such a failure..oh man...wad a mess!!haha forget about it.wow todae's drama infusion was sure hell funny...haha whole group of us laughed alot when some people acted...hahaha...and azmi was kinda funny too..lol.well cant tell you more..wished too but running out of time...have to study!!!!well..todae....kinda ok...enjoyed myself quite alot...ryan and imran...tried tripping me like so many times...evil people!especially imran! crazy....he tried tripping me like more then 5 times...EVIL!!!all becoz of ryan!!!argh shall forgive this evil people..haha!!next time it would be my turn to do something bad to them..muahahaha!ok gtg bye!!!!!
It was me and you against the world @ 9:25 PM
Monday, July 18, 2005
argh....silence is golden.its all peaceful...so nice...finally i get to enjoy.haha.in the past few days,i've discovered some wonderful things.simply wonderful..i found so many caring ,supportive friends around me.wow...isnt that splendid..indeed it is..thank god for it.a message to all those friends who have showed care,concern and gave me moral support..thank you so much.i appreciate it.its feels so good to have some of these friends by your side...thanks to karmen kaiying and lydia..all my darlings,karmen:my darling..love ya!!!haha...although we're in different schools..i still feel you understand me best.you've alwaes never fail to brighten my day.thank you so much.you are my essential element!!.... this bunch of ....my primary school friends..argh...gifts from god.no not fit to be called friends..but VERY fit to be called MY world best friends.haha.also,thank you to toadstool for comforting me,yiguan mardhiah and many others who tried to help in THAT matter...thanks!appreciate it.but sorry to disappoint all of you..the matter is not solved yet.and i really have to make this clear.IM will not,has not,was not,is not,have never ever been angry becoz of the arguing matter,you got the wrong person.it is the other person who got angry about it.so please dont come to me and sae you dont understand why im being angry over such a small matter..becoz i was not even angry to begin with.its not that matter that im unhappy with..its becoz..go read my previous posts..it contains the answer.hope you all get this clear and not carry on having the misconception there.yup..i'm still my normal carefree crappy self.you all dont have to worry seriously.i still go mad at times,i still laugh, i still smile.Its not as if its the end of the world...life still goes on well for me...and pls people..i've been hearing people asking me to chill and cool it..hey whats there to chill when im not even angry?hello?you people..something wrong is it?anywae..im still enjoying myself in school...not much of a difference...yup..so thats about all for todae.bye people. ~ Rawk on my friends....~
It was me and you against the world @ 8:20 PM
Saturday, July 16, 2005
hey people!!hmm todae had band practise...was ok lah....so much drills....but the drills part was damn tiring!!haha...ok todae...had combine for like almost the whole dae.....second half of the dae sat next to alison..wow..she's...so...crazy..lol.no offence.she talks real fast when she's uhm...wad should i sae...excited?haha...she forgot to take her medication...haha just joking and mardhiah and yen an(is that how u spell the name)were like looking at alison...thinking she was abit..uhm..crazy..haha...but had fun sitting with her..alison brightened up my dae....sat next to yansiang too...we both went crazy too...was talking crap basically...haha...laughed and laughed...did some retarded things together..wow fun people..haha...yepp..mardhiah tried to pull me and that person back together...haha but i didnt want to..coz..u cant possibly ask me to just talk naturally and smile at that person after wad she said about me...accused me...theories about me...if you can do it..if you are in my shoes..then..wow..you are..simply...a great person...people get this straight..i have done what im suppoed to do..so pls..for goodness sake..dont come to me and ask me to something further...coz trust me..i wont bother...i've apologised..wad else do you want me to do?talk?yeah right...that will definitely have to take some time..i'm not ready to talk yet..i have to get over the things she wrote about me first...then only i might talk..now dont say im sensitive..dont say im making things major just stop saying anything about me..i dont need your opinions...GET THIS STRAIGHT.im not making things worst now..this is clearly MY OWN personal problem that i have to overcome...you seriously dont have to interfere..if you want to stand on her side..go ahead...tell her she's not at fault dont have to worry ..and its actually im the one making things worst...wadeva people!if you think that wae then fine!i have nothing to sae...just dont interfere in to my problem.MINE.not somebody else's problem.i will only talk if i can overcome and forget those unpleasant things that are currently still in my mind..so if im ignoring you..then sorry then...i cant help it...its you who wrote those things about me...you can ignore me too..just take it that you dont know me..you will feel betta...and pls...you dont have to get upset or feel sorry about anything...that is if you even do...cox..it will not help.im writing this post not to make you feel guilty...its just to make people understand why im ignoring you.....its not becoz im petty..its not becoz u didnt give in wadsoever....and these are just someadvices from me.you dont have to make things so obvious next time.you dont have to bottle up your opinions about me...just say it..it seriously wont kill you.you dont have to come to a point whereby we're quarelling and u decide to dig this matter out just to make me feel guilty.you dont have to change ur motive for writing your post,becoz you are only contradicting yourself...i noe u wrote your post obviously for me to read...now dont change your motive after reading my previous post..dont ask me not to read ur post when i see you're angry in school coz i wont like it.you are deceiving yourself..contradicting yourself,whats done is done..cannot be undone.i also noe you added some things on your friendster profile..i have no rights to interfere...but pls..you seriously do not have to make it so obvious ...i noe those sentences are directing at me....its only after we quarelled you decided to put those things...to do what?to make me feel guilty..to make me feel remorseful for what i've done..right?i noe you..you did that the other time becoz of someone also.seriously i hate those actions...but u still have the rights to do it...pls leave those things there.you dont have to change ti just becoz i said this.those theoris in your blog..were also unecessary..it only made things worst..becoz you yourself didnt practise wad your preached.you can ignore these advices...you have the rights to do so..these are just my opinions...dont take it to heart if you dont like it.....i have nothing else to sae...bye.
It was me and you against the world @ 8:13 PM
Friday, July 15, 2005
someone said she cant be bothered anymore...wow serious tone huh?haha..wow wow wow impressive...*claps hands*hahaha....hmm well..on the outside she says she cant be bothered...on the inside...haha god noes wad..haha..is the cant be bothered attitude just up for show..yeah cant be bothered..if you cant be bothered..you wouldnt have make things worst...anywae..you have that misunderstanding there...i didnt get anyone to come in btwn to help...why should i?its just some kind soul trying to help..so why jump to the conclusion?why accuse me?why pressurize yourself by bottling up your opinions about me?just say it...dont say it behind my back..dont beat around the bush..just shoot.say it.get over with it.you dont have to be a kind soul.you dont have to come to a point when the two of us is quarelling then you say you just kept your opinions about me to yourself just to make feel so guilty..wow so now fingers are pointing at me..i made things major?i said it in a serious tone..aww...wow..i did?how come i didnt noe?all my posts are based on your blog posts for goodness sake..now who made it major?me?wow..ok..i see..thanks for the enlightenment..now i noe..i gave the freaking face..wow..who was the one giving it to people on thurdae..if im not wrong i was still laughing away with rachel and smiling awae..oh im not supposed to do that?u thought the thing we were arguing about was saturdae?its our fault for not correcting you?wow i also can turn the tables around and say you didnt tell me and my partner you were mentioning about saturdae's matter...so now your blaming me for not giving you a chance to talk..did u get your facts right...i did give you..you chose not to take that chance...u just got pissed at turned arnd..my fault?i wasnt feeling at all angry ...not until you decided to blog..talking about tolerance..haven't i been tolerant enough?i tolerate your crap every dae...i just give u the stare ...did i give u a big dressing down for that everydae?u expect me to smile at you?wow..put yourself in my shoes..can u tolerate me when im like that..can u still smile?wow..if yes..then..haha..wow impressive.now dont put all the blame on me just becoz i cant tolerate you..go reflect on yourself too...go do a survey..see if everyone is able to tolerate you..if no..then obviously u have to do some serious reflecting...becoz its not my fault now.....obviously you think its all my fault...well dont sae no becoz u are deceiving yourself..your blog saes it all...you are putting all blames on me...and for your information..i am not at all pissed over the quarelling matter..thats was just some misunderstanding...you are the one pissed...not me..so dont sae its me ok...what im really pisses at is your posts...go see how self centred they are...the whole posts' conclusion is:cheryl you are the one at fault.go reflect.i said hurting words...oh sorry then sincerely...but then have you ever thought that what u said were hurting too?obviously not..you just think about me..the one ...causing all this crap...wasnt it becoz of me this wouldnt happen..yes most of people would ask me to sae sorry...becoz they think you are right...fine if sorry is what you want...SORRY then...sorry for quarelling with you..sorry for not correcting you...sorry to argue with you over such small things...ok i have gave in...happy now?now after reading..pls..dont go blog that you didnt noe and you are sorry....because im already hurt by you deeply about ur opinions of me written in your blog..how you just write things in anywae you like..how you try to write some sense or theory in your blog on wat friends should do and not do..how you feel what feeling is coming back and fading and i dont wish to talk about it ,no doubt i have hurt you many times too,sorry sorry sorry..but the thing i've done right was to sae my opinions in your face and not behind your back......i want to put this crap behind me...now i dont need any sorries from you that is if you even feel sorry for anything...probably no sorries would ever help..cause im disappointed...utterly disappointed...i just want to live a normal life again..with no quarels and stuff...so just let me live ok...i've done what im ought to do and i hope you accept it...becoz if you dont..i wont try to do any other things becoz its meaningless...there would be no ending to this crap if no one gives in right..?i've done wad i rightfully need to do....yiguan...i heeded your advice...hope you are please with this action of mine..bye everyone.
It was me and you against the world @ 7:27 PM
Thursday, July 14, 2005
right..someone saw my blog and OBVIOUSLY didnt agree with me..oh wadeva...and tat someone actually thinks im the one who's being childish here?wow...amazing..a childish person calling me childish..wow..who's the one pissing me off?was it my fault to get pissed?i have the rights to get pissed off..isnt it?i have my wae of living..u dont have to tell me how to.call me childish?for quarelling with you?hey if im not wrong...you also quarelled with me ok..who was the one putting on thepissed of look that even the boys could tell?u simply didnt blieve what me and my partner said..and did i say P told the sec1s the pactise would be on saturday?i didnt..i was talking about todae.i was saying P didnt tell the secs got practise todae..so get your facts right before you argue with me...this is retarded..hey im not other people and other people are not me.they can tolerate you but that doesnt me i can..fine..wadeva...say ur primary friends are betta...u think i care??so be it then...its like..wadeva..was it my fault u didnt get ur facts right and then u argued with me?was it?u think i want to make a big hoo haa out of this thing?if so,then think again..wad would i stand to gain from?oh you didnt noe what i was talking about so u argued..then how come my partner even noes?yeah right..fine!wadeva..its all my fault..im the one being childish...yeah right.....wow!oh im so sorry your highness...because im so foolish to even quarel with you when you dont even noe what we're quarelling about..so sorry your majesty..yeah right..its my fault for showing you the face...all my fault...its all my fault becoz i dont have the power or strength to tolerate your childishness and hence showing u the face..all my fault...yeah right....i should alwaes show u the smile right?no matter when no matter what..right?ok i've learnt my mistake..i shall not bother to quarel with you next time becoz u are alwaes right...i shall not show u the pissed of look when u show childishness..or rather innocence...i shall just give u the big wide smile..im suppose to be happy whenever your majesty pisses me off right?its an honour right?..yes...my level of tolerance shall have no limits only for your sake..oh i should also never ever raise my voice at your highness coz its an offence...your higness is alwaes right while im alwaes wrong ..yess....ha..just when i thought mine and elenna's quarels are the worst..i better think twice..thrice...just when i thought me and elenna's friendship was the worst..i better think again...karmen have you seen me getting pissed almost everydae before?do i get pissed at just nothing?how often do i flare up?how often do i raise my voice at someone...tell me?i want to reflect..really..i want to compare the old me and new me..seriously...karmen help me...!
It was me and you against the world @ 8:04 PM
Ok..so todae was actually quite fun..haha...and rather boring too...hahah sat beside rachel during class, she mad me laughed as if there was like no tmr..haha...i couldnt really concentrate on my composition because of that,but still pretty enjoyable though..boring because maths...had to do algebra..didnt noe how to do...was feeling sianxified...but just beared with it.yepp..sometimes i just wonder..wad are the essential elements for friendship.yes friendship.isit quarelling and arguing ?i dont think so but why does it seem to be this wae for me?2 friends.quarelling often.wad kind of friendship is this..u may ask.well,me myself..i cant give you an answer too,reason:i dont know either.perhaps..this friendship isnt fit to be called friendship.yepp..its like whats the point right..?ok some people just cant get along with each other...thats why their friendship dont work out..as for this friendship..i dont know..we can get along together..the only thing is..sometimes..just some small little childish acts from that person can put another person off,sometimes..they argue..resulting in both parties not being happy.yes..sometimes i may be too..lets say...domineering?ya?yes i think so.....i love things to be done in my wae..i admit...sometimes im wrong for being dominnering when arguing...i always think im correct..but the other party doesnt think so...hence this quarelling continues until someone gets pissed off..like todae..told this person something..she didnt blieve..argues with me over it..my partner also agreed with me..but she continued to argue with me..in the end ..she got pissed off..i felt neutral..so who's at the losing end?me?no....sometimes...yes i may be wrong...correct me..but sometimes..im not.so was this incident my fault?was it?for me i dont think so...for someone else..probably yes..it was my fault...i should have done this i shoud have done that i shouldnt sae this and that..WADEVA!its like who wants to argue and get yourself angry?who wants to get pissed of every single dae?who doesnt want to be happy?well...i bet everyone wants to be happy every single dae and not get pisses and wadeva..but as for me..im getting this kind of treatment everydae in school?tiring?yes of coz!i noe my temper is not very good..but for goodness sake...just ask any of my primary school mates,i've never gotten pissed off so many times..it was just occasionally...but now?everydae.every single dae.thats rather tiring...in friendship..both parties needs to be forgiving...yup...i understand...thats one major essential element....understanding....yup thats another..and many others...this friendship here...i dont know about it..do we have all the essential elements..well i doubt so...but hopefully...this friendship is strong enough to be maintained...i couldnt be cared less...if that other party is still angry at me or wadeva...its like..so be it then.go ahead and be angry...it wasnt really my fault..or maybe a little bit...that little bit for wasting time quarelling with you..maybe next time..when we are quarelling again..i shall just shut my mouth and let you sae wadeva you want..wadeva u think is right..that wae..u'll be happy...and no sparks would be set off..set!so next time i shall just shu my mouth and let the person sae wadeva they want...i dont care.because..they're alwaes right,right?well written enough ...got to go bye!
It was me and you against the world @ 4:29 PM
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Sickening...im so tired....of what?projects..dont noe...recently there's lots of projects..it just keeps flowing in...argh!!!!!!!sickening sickening....whoa had fun in band yesterdae..for once..i felt that drills was so so so so so so so fun!!!!!!haha really enjoyed myself yesterdae!!should have more of this kind of sessions..haha!!!but somehow i dont know why...in the beginning didnt feel right....i felt like throwing up...which once i almost did..haha..dunt noe why lah..somemore yesterdae my stomache hurts..from morning till evening?argh dont not why...maybe gastric?maybe not?dont know..but anywae..after a while i got better...yeppyeppyepp....hmm..i think my mood improved over these few days too...but i do get pissed still...anyone...just tell me how to get hold of my temper...but tiffany is NOT ALLOWED to do so...why tiffany u may ask?Because she's the one that makes me annnnngrrrryyy...the cause of me flaring up..yes her...i dont know why lah...i just find a lot of faults in her..why am i like this??is it because she is my good friend?wad wad wad wad?????sometimes i just find her uhm...irritating..no offence tiffany.She keeps yekking beside my ear everydae....its like...wad de!!!!not even an interval of 10 min break lor,very seldom..its like..i wonder how does she get so much energy to talk non stop without feeling tired...and most of the things she talk are-crap.yes crap..if its something sensible ..then i dont mind..then sometimes she do some childish acts infront of me..which i cant tolerate...most of the times...but i dont really say anything...i'll either give her a cold stare or pissed off look.....not my fault...tiffany u want to know what are the childish/dumb acts u do right.fine.i'll tell u here.sometimes she talks in a rather "retarded"wae which gives me the creeps.Most of the times she talks crap.She asks dumb obvious questions.Sometimes she would just put on this really childish look and talk in a childish wae...which once in a blue moon i can tolerate and maybe even laugh...haha but most of the time..i'll just tick her off or stare..yes give her the cold hard stare which she hates.still got lots more...but they dont fall under the childish/dumb category yepp..no offence tiffany.u are the one who wanted to noe right..so here they are...go reflect ok!!i have enough..gotta go bye!
It was me and you against the world @ 6:37 PM
Sunday, July 10, 2005
ok..ouch...my arm muscles hurt from those jerking movements of yesterday's instruments up and down practise...ouch ouch ouch...yesterday was the first time we did drills with our instruments...ouch...yst...not only did my leg muscles hurts..my arm one also!!my my leg cramp soon went away...kinda got used to it already from all those drills...in the beginning of the year ..it use to hurt for 2 to 3 days..hahah now..for a few minutes after drill session hurts..as from my arm..not use to yet..becoz...we dont do instrument up and down drills yet..yup so it HURTS!!NOW!!TODAE!!..haha..ok ltr ,going to the damn tuition which i longed to quit..i really dont noe myself..i cant make a decision..u may say im fickle minded...i noe that i really badly want to quit this tuition coz i dont like it..and sometimes..i feel that..i shouldnt quit becoz this tuition might help me improve my higher chinese..but its like..its not doing me any good now...everytime when in comes to sundays..i would dread to go for the damn tuition..i would sulk..i would feel angry...and when it ends..my mood fees so much happier..so much lighter...so what should i do?this year..i got a number of tuitions..let just say maybe 4 of them..but 2 of which is combine to become 1 lesson per week...so that makes 3...as for 2 pf those tuitions..i have nothing to complain abt..in fact i quite like my english tuition...my maths and science..well..nothing to complain abt...as for my higher chinese..needless to sae..i hate it to the core...well sometimes...tiffany sae why am i always having tuition on so many daes..haha..cant help it...its like sundays..normally a rest dae for everyone...no worries...care free..happy..relaxing..me?a day full of hatred...how long am i going to bear with this?well if im lucky enough to be able to improve on my chinese and remian studying higher chinese for the next 3 yrs..then guess wad?i'll probably have to continue having the damn tuition for the next 3 yrs..wow!its that good or bad..dortx......haix..so tired of it..sick of it...the teacher alwaes give quite a amount of hmwk..alwaes compre...compre compre compre..sick of it ok!!!enough abt that damn tuition...stay happy?well im trying to...darn it....im such a pessimist...when can i ever for once look on the bright side of life?when when when....im alwaes worrying over small little things...worry worry worry...just like on fridae night...ask yiguan wad happened if you want..yes ..even such small little things make me worry such that sometimes i lose sleep..dortx...haha...but not to worry...im like that since young...my parents noe me well..haha....i love worrying...i think worrying will soon drive me mad one dae....haha!ok gotta got for the damn tuition of mine....
It was me and you against the world @ 12:32 PM
Saturday, July 09, 2005
yo yo yo!!back from abnd practise...hey surprisingly i didnt stink much compared to last week..and we did more drills this week!!!wad de??haha todae's practise was rather okay...whole band kana punished becoz of some reasons...yepp..then after that got sectionals combines..yaya..haha luch time was rather interesting..we went for sectional sec 1 meal..not really sectional lah...we only had 8 people with us..tiffany sarah indah jason kangwei xiaojia belinda and me!!haah...we only had 1 hour to eat..thought of going to the student's hostel the foodcourt there to eat..but chanded our mind...so far!!lazy to walk..besides 1 hr was running out..so we decided to go caltex petrol station...eat what u may ask...CUP NOODLES!!!yeah ...sectional cup noodle meal..haha everyone ate cup noddles..sat on the floor and eat...and omg..u noe wad..this is the first time tiffany eating cup noodle..dortx...she ah..so ...princess-like!!!spoiltbrat!!haha no offence tiffany.aniwae took a video clip of her first reaction when she tasted the noodle..haha lame lame lame..haha i noe...lol...yep yep then went back...combines and sectional all the wae..then after band..stay back kana "punish"haha..ok lah counted as punish also...actually sabo SL...sec threes went to splash water at clarinet SL..haha...sec 1 dont dare to splash...haix...ltr sec 1 and 2s fall in kana sabo by sec three seniors..they splashed water at us...drenching most of us...dortx...but Sl was worst she was like so wet..haha..yeah they pour water on us then ask us do spinning marching hentak..haha actually quitefun lah...now i realised its a bad thing for band memebers to noe ur b'dae...high chance of getting sabo-ed..haha..so moral of the "story"..never ever let any band member like seniors know your birthdae date!!!HAHA..ok ok ...crapped enough that's all for now..
It was me and you against the world @ 8:09 PM
Friday, July 08, 2005
ok problem solved.project done.won some oreo cookies...yeah!haha didnt think our grp could win..lol..dortx...wadeva...haha...heh my designing didnt seem that bad afterall..haha!!ima genius!!!nah lah..kidding..hmm ok in a twinkling of an eye,more then 6 mths had passed..wow!reflecting time!seriously,im enjoying myself more this year then the past two years i think..laughed alot this year,crapped alot,done many things..made myself happier person!really..im very happy now..my friends are really great!how i wish all of us coul stay together in the same class for 4 straight years.1B rocks my world..i love 1B!!!!!haaha although 6 charity was also okay..haha...but i think i found my true self this year..tthanks to my crazzzzy classmates..haha!!a whole bunch of jokers....made my life more interesting...hmm ok gotta go...buaix!
It was me and you against the world @ 5:16 PM
Thursday, July 07, 2005
todae..sucked
what a dae!yes what a dae!our project sucked big time...it all started when me and indah took a long time to eat our lunch..so tiffany got upset,pulled a long black face when we came back..fine..nvm our fault wad..we continued to do the project and while she do god noes wad stuff..came back afterwards...still pulling the long face of hers..wadeva...i didnt quite care at first...then after hearing her sae some things...with THAT tone of hers..i got a little pissed..but i didnt sae anything..because its mine and indah's fault for taking so long to eat..but its like the canteen was crowded lah...have to wait for the crowd to clear first wad!we were'nt on talking terms..so after a while me and indah went out of the library to ask some classmates of ours about the project..came back to the library..there..tiffany sitting infront of the com viewing what me and indah have done..at this point of time..i got a little irritated already as there was still alot of parts to do ..so i went to her and just said"move move move"in a rather serious tone of mine..hmm guess she was even more pissed..well i cant help it..anywae in the end..i brought back the diskette to do the designing part the reflecting part...yup..and when i got back..i realised the stupid diskette thingy got problem!wow very well..what to do..then ltr on have to use my bro's com to do lor..argh....todae sucked big time k..i noe my temper is getting worst..i get pissed of over small things..well haha i noe its my fault lah..a teeny weeny bit..hey u cant blame me ok..i just cant stand those extreme childish acts that some people display..and im not pointing fingers at anybody k..either that..or that person who pisses me off just damn unlucky..at that point of time i may be sianxified..so i get more pissed off easily...oh-oh..danger zone!haha so the best i when u see me damn quiet all of a sudden and my face expression is sort of weird...dont come and do some dumb acts infront of me k..or else ltr u kana not my fault!haha...kk..gotta go now..buaix
It was me and you against the world @ 5:06 PM
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
ok...im so stressed up...this few daes....with so many projects all of a sudden .stressed!!!!!!!!!!!and im not getting enough sleep...i feel so lethargic....hence the more tiffany will see the pissed of me and sianxified me...and she's so not gonna like it..well...cant blame me k...have been rushing through homework every night...feel so tired...especially after band practises on school daes..yup....good the rumour finally dies down.THANK GOD.but one bad thingy has started...THE "hot"thingy....started again..gosh when will it finally die down...and never to be brought up again?im sick of it...oh and im posted to 3rd clarinet..now..hmm...good or bad?i dont noe..seriously i think 2nd clarinet is the best..they're playing basically their B flat scale..which is like so easy...never...i'll try to get use to it soon..i hope..well well well..whats wrong with mdm ng??she has not been in school for like a week?and i think this will continue to next fridae..wow..long break for her..this is the first time i see a teacher took such a long leave..WOW!found out something also..yes that mysterious thing..kinda not a shock to me...but feel kinda weird..and curious...but...well forget it...u cant satisfy everyone aniwae..so why bother..?do your own stuff and ur best..that will do..others doesnt matter..right?wadeva..not in the best of moods recently....sometimes will be quite quiet during discussion period..or if tiffany talks to me..i will give her the pissed of look of mine..or the sianxified look...as for the pissed off look i dont do it on purpose...its because tiffany really pisses me off...as for the sianxified look...i dont noe lah..maybe because my mood..then will become like that lor...not really my fault..haha...k gotta go ..
It was me and you against the world @ 4:45 PM
Sunday, July 03, 2005
ok...yesterdae's band practise was quite okay....almost the whole dae do combines...play instrument..frm 9-6pm..haha...fun?definitely!!!!!!we had so much fun!!haha with mr muz and azlan.haha they made us laughed so much in the auditorium.azlan thought us the monkey gorilla and chimpanzee song..haha got some people to do the actions..haha damn cute!then there was this "feeling"thingy...hah that every1 kept repeating after azlan said it.lol.but when it was coming to the end..i felt damn tired...i dont know why..so tired that when i went back..and when i went out with my parents for awhile..i yawned 10 over times...when i came back..i went straight to bed..the next dae whe i woke up ,i still very tired...why ?bough some cds...1 of em was black eyed peas monkey business..nice cd...DOnt phunk with my heart...nice song.....very nice...should go listen to it..ya?haha..shall stop here.
It was me and you against the world @ 6:16 PM
Friday, July 01, 2005
aloha..decided to rewrite my post..haha..since i have nothing betta to do..haha....so this is actually my second post of the dae.ok..so the dae was fine..the rumours about me and some people died down..phew..but that ridzwan still saes that nicholas zhang likes me..diaox.totally retarded.ridzwan went out of his mind ok..when i was walking with tiffany to the bus stop..i heard someone calling me..from afar..to my horror,it was ridzwan.he was on the other side of the road,on the other side's bus stop,pointing to nicholas which was sitting next to him.my gosh..i ignored him of cause..no matter how many times he called me..haha...well..todae rather boring..had history..boring!whoa..mrs wee seemed fierce todae..dont noe wad happen..then had geography then art then science ..put on a pissed off look todae..or rather u can call it the sianxified look..and well..tiffany definitely hates it..she said that i look fierce something like that..especially when i give her the COLD STARE..haha..she was like asking me not to be angry with her..dortx..i was not..haha she's thinking too much haha..i was just ..erm..sianxified..haha not angry.Anywae..after school went to parkway to buy my brother's present..bout for him some name-wood thingy...with his name on ..the gal who was helping do that thingy..haha definitely had a hard time..cause..my brother name was the longest she had ever done..haha..aww..so sorry..it was so long that there was no box that cood fit the thingy in..and when she tried to wrap it...she couldnt..haha..well..probably just gonna pass it to my brother as it is..haha..what to do..its not my fault..2 more months before taking out my braces...and im so ..neutral about it..haha..hmm moreand more people are putting on braces...cool...should form the Braces club..haha..yeah yeah i noe im lame..wadeva...tmr got band..Sigh..DRills...sigh...will stink..SIgh...will feel so bloody tired....Sigh...and the next dae will be having that freaking tuition!!!!!SIGH SIGH SIGH!!..i want to get out of that tuition...its giving so much workload...freak!the teacher wanted me to rewrite the damn compo..wads her problem man..it sucks man..cant even enjoy sundaes..wad da hell..when can i ever get out of that freaking tuition..my patience is running low..I HATE HIGHER CHINESE TUITION AND I WANT TO GET OUT OF IT!!!!!!!!HIGHER CHINESE TUITION TOTALLY SUCKS TO THE BLOODY CORE!SUNDAES SUCKS!!!!!SUNDAES 1.30-3.30pm SUCKS BIG TIME.BLOODY PISSED OFF.I WANT TO GET OUT OF IT!GRRRRRRRR!!!!FREAK FREAK!!!!!!!!I WANT TO VENT MY ANGER ON SOMETHING MAN!!!!!!!I WANT MY FREE AND EASY LIFE ON SUNDAES BACK.djgheoiusgteodljfegbfograbodeoafdwodfbkrywpi!freaK.OK U MAY THINK IM CRAZY..BUT THAT'S THE ONLYWAE I CUD VENT MY ANGER!ARGH!SUCKY TUITION..SUCKY HOMEWORK..SUCKY EVERYTHING!help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It was me and you against the world @ 9:34 PM
