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I'm feeling damn freaking nervous as i type this post. Do you believe it,my hands are actually shivering a little. Okay, i've got to find ways to calm my nerves down.

I'm still way behind revision. Last year,at this time...I would have finished going through what i needed to go through but now i'm not even there. There's no discipline and motivation in me to sit down and do pure studying for hours.Not mentioning,the courage to face one of my greatest fear.

Anyway,go go go people! The best of luck to everyone taking their EOYs (^,^)


Tag replies:(earliest to latest)

Fiona: Shigeng....hmm...lol!

Jez: psycho what?

Alison: o.O for what?! haha

Shigeng: I shan't comment,ahah.

Alsing: He can be,now you know.

Cheryl(c2): *insert screams* yes yes yes!!Hey aren't you supposed to be C1 or is my memory failing me at this point of time...

Yingtai: Hey! You mus add oil too!Good luck yea?

ARGH!!

I think i might be going crazy soon enough.

Let's see,i have like 4 e/a maths papers to complete, i have SS test tomorrow which means i would have to study for it later,i need to do my own revision.I'm so lagging behind...and i have no confidence in any subjects yet.YES,no confidence in any subjects...omg.

And i think it's quite impossible to study at home because there's so many distractions. Firstly,there's the computer and next,my pillow.Hence,i have decided that the school library shall be my second best friend for the next 2 weeks =)

Note to myself:I must NOT sleep earlier than 12 am today,I will not,I shall not,I CANNOT!!!


Whereas, over at school today...i don't think much happened. CE was quite =,='' today. Well,she was showing us some clip from the internet about a couple's message to their child and it think it's really really touching.It was accompanied with the song 'you raise me up' and i think it kinda tugged at my heartstrings.The remaining CE period was basically a free one for us,they tried to play some songs on the computer but mostly didn't succeed. And after recess, I literally jumped out of my seat after being scared by jeremy ZzzZZzZ

Fire drill was LOL. 'fire location,fire location" Well and the next time,don't stroll people,must jog down =D

Hmm,i better get going. Endure folks for the EOY exams!

I think having to memorise 30 chinese idioms is just plain crazy,what more 60 of them? Yikes, all the best to me tomorrow !=p

I'm afraid of...

failing again.

Today was a relatively so-so day.

I think english lessons kept me most awake because today,shigeng sat behind me since his partner sherwin was not there.Omg...the few of us were laughing away all the time while doing the stupid grammer vocab worksheet.Shigeng gave stupid replacement of words for the vocab part. There was this part whereby Shigeng and Clarence took Fiona's school shoe,haha...i guess i was kinda involved too.One word:hilarious.

The other lessons were blah~Social studies i slept.Of course,not throughout the whole thing.Just here and there when i close my eyes to rest...uhh,then i drift off for a few minutes and then i wake up and then drift off again...

Bused home with DiKu and Bao today. Giggled over some matters happening on the bus and i don't know,i think it's interesting to bus home at around 6pm,because you see all sorts of people and their different behaviours.

Argh crap,i don't feel like missing my last concert this year!Hope i don't.


If i went without expecting anything,would it happen again?If time could repeat itself, i would like to go back in time to repeat that cycle again.I'm missing it,badly.

The day in school was great.

I was like super high and laughing away like a retard at times.I think 9 hours of sleep do work wonders! Yea,i slept at like 9.30pm yesterday(one of the earliest timing ever)because i wasn't feeling well and slept all the way till 6am!Damn,i was supposed to like wake up at 4am but snoozed my clock all the way to 6am.Lalaland is the best place to be on =)

Eh...Miss wong didn't come again today.So,we had two periods of doing nothing in the beginning of the day. Blah~ all the way till recess. Add maths after recess,a free period again =) This time, shermane and tried to fool fiona into believing there was social studies test after school and i think she believed =p Assembly period was educational and hilarious at the same time.Ben soon was as usual,putting on his best behaviour-to be spastic ^^ When the speaker was telling us something somewhat serious stuff and when the whole audi was silent,he blurted out,"Oh my goodness" in this weird accent after listening to what the speaker had said. Of course, the people on our side burst into a series of laughter.Ha,fun fun!But,damn spastic =D


Anyway,TATA!

The dreaded days are getting nearer and nearer and nearer.On the other hand,my fear is increasing...and increasing...still increasing...

Like OMG!

I'm freaking out badly now. Teachers are still giving us tests this week for god knows what reason. Today's maths test was pyscho. It's plain crazy having to find ways to prove the complex diagrams for congruency and similarity, simply too sophisticated for me! Everyone was probably stunned at the questions and the teacher told us the test was a hint on the type of questions coming out for EOYs.


I'm so dead.


I just kept thinking about it this morning,
& I've figured that ...
some things are just so hard to let go.
All it took was 4 days.

You know,it's extremely SICKENING to be scolded over some minor stuffs after a long day.Yeah,plain sickening.Like everything I do is always wrong.I do it this way,i get lectured.I don't do it another way, guess what?I get lectured too.Wtf.Like wow,simply great...though i seriously can do without such stupid stuff when i'm already like damn freaking tired and stressed up.


Anyway...nothing great at school happened. Presented talking point today,finally. Initially,i was pretty nervous...but crapped my way through and many peeps kept making me laugh. Haha,i think my presentation was short and screwed. After school,i went to support my dearest sister cause she had to do her talking point presentation.Hers went well=)


Okay, i've got 2 SS essays to complete by tomorrow and to study for physics quiz on kinematics.ZzzzZzZz...hopefully i can last through all these before i doze off.Wth is kinematics!!??omg...

A myriad of colours! Just like how the sky looked when i was on the way home today...pretty !=)


It's been a long long long day.


The first 2 days of school were so-so, i still feel really lethargic. I guess, I'm still not used to it. Some of our teachers were not around for lessons,like ms wong and my chinese teacher,so we had a couple of free periods yesterday which i enjoyed! Used them to like study for add maths test but in the end, my efforts still gone down the drain.


Today,barely into the 2nd day of school and i felt so drained out. Thank god,somehow i managed to pull through physics>.< Bla bla bla...English was just plain crap,Fiona and I were just crapping and laughing throughout the whole lesson.Why does he never fail to forget about talking point!?

Band. Eh, it went okay just that i was feeling hungry and really sleepy.Yep,Belinda and I skipped lunch...it's more like a weekly routine for me to skip lunch on thursdays and tuesdays because there's extra lessons and then band,or when there's tests after school...i'll skip lunch too.BLAH~ Xiaojia took the section for sectionals since both the SLs were not there...and well,there was like 7 of us there today only?Being the only second clt there,i desperately needed sarah's help,haha...or else ZzzZzzZz Nevertheless,sectionals still went great,enjoyed it loads somehow.

Today's the 11th.Aunt Fe's Birthday.Hmm,i kinda miss her a lot...and her cooking. She came over today to especially cook a couple of dishes for me! Sadly,i didn't see her...cause i was in school when she came.Damn.

Should i sleep now?Ha,maybe i should.I can't take it anymore.ZzzZz

Throw it away,forget yesterday.

You know, i'm like so afraid of being retained this year. Like crap...I feel so stupid,though it's utterly stupid to think that you're stupid but yea,if you get my point.& I guess i'm not the only one feeling this way too

Tomorrow's the re-opening of school,AGAIN. Damn it, it really doesn't feel good at all. Like you see,there's add maths test tomorrow and i'm really sick of screwing up every single maths test when i did try not to. Trying is difficult and overcoming this fear is even more difficult and of course,let's not even think about regaining my confidence shall we?

So I've got to mug hard for add maths now,wish me luck? Maybe when i get too desperate of wanting to know how to do those damned questions, i'll finally see the freaking light again.Simply sickening,why do i always have to be so stressed up before i gain enlightenment to do those questions. Oh and great,there's unfinished physics homework which is due tomorrow.

Yea,talk about the holidays,it was simply GREAT...

as if.

Okay,currently I'm pretty stressed up.

I've got uncompleted homework left waiting for me to finish it up and like,oh crap~there's addmaths level test on monday.God bless me.

Band today went okay la. During lunch got psycho-ed a lot by friends and well, I kept my promise (= Hooray~ Honestly,i wasn't looking forward to the drills session after i saw the blisters on sarah's and kangwei's thumbs from doing spinning with instruments but, after going through it today...i think it was okay la,though tiring. I think we've been through far more rigorous drills sessions in the past. Looking back, i think it's really amazing that we actually did so many stuffs since at the end of 2005,from the initial preparations which included drills drills drills!! to the real thing on the field last year...formations rocked =)


Uhh,okay...i guess i've got other things to do.Tata!

This is my 500th post =) I think my current style of writing is way way different from two and half years ago whereby i first started blogging when i was primary six!

There's nothing much to write actually. Not really in the mood to do so, i feel so much like swearing right here,right now. But i shan't do that.

Like it would help if it already happened...

Chemistry Remedial today...i think my brain cells almost died. I seriously just don't get it. After the 2 and half hours of lessons, we went all the way to Expo to visit someone...CHIOBU!! We went there to like disturb him but left soon after since i had only 15 minutes left to rush home for tuition. I waited for 10 freaking minutes for the bus to come and plus the trip on the bus home,i reached home at exactly 3.30pm. And as expected,my tuition teacher was late...ZzzZzZz,i shouldn't have rushed =,='

Damn,three days of the week gone...just like that. I'm getting even more worried. My biggest challenge now is to face up to my greatest fear...may god help me to cope with it.

Make it or break it-

I hope you know...

I think it's time to study but where's my motivation?



The past few days has been really good. Daddy's back home and he brought the family out for shopping,my favourite! I don't think many fathers will actually accompany his daughter around to shop,not many would have that patience to. So, in the morning he drove me and my mum out to first buy our stuffs and then to buy groceries =)


Came home,waited for my brother's tuition to end and there we go again,this time with my brother and we headed to tampines mall. 2nd time in 2 days. Didn't get everything i wanted though...because they didn't have the right size and colour i wanted,damn! All those walking caused my feet to hurt from blisters.That footwear of mine gave me problems,so my dad had to buy a box of plasters for me and i had to like stick 5 onto my feet =,= My mum was gloating on another hand for not wearing hers =,=''

Today...didn't do anything productive like oh crap~! Anyway, stocked up for "war" today. There'll be plenty of junk food in the refrigerator for my brother and i to munch on while studying=)

Okay...today's almost over & that isn't good.

It's been a great day i guess.

Went out early in the morning to watch catch a movie which was at 10+am.Gawd,my mum actually let me out and oh my,I've never catch a movie at the cinemas so early in the morning! Anyway,met Rachel and headed towards Tampines Mall.Who knew,Tiffany was also in the same train we took and tadah! She found us in one of the cabins and so there were three of us =,=''

The guys were punctual,mainly only Edmund and yingcong. They were the first to reach. Went to buy the tickets while waiting for the rest to arrive. Only 8 of us watched the movie. We went to watch Ratatouille(sp?).At first i thought it was gonna be a really lame show but it turned out pretty nice actually.Woa,I've watched 2 movies in 2 days. After movie,we met Jeremy...he came late i think,thus he missed the show. Next up was the arcade,i reckon there's no need for much elaboration =)


After everything at TM,we headed to Edmund's house.Russell and Jeremy left half way so it was Edmund with 5 other girls ^^ Caught another movie at his house and in between,a few of us went out to digress,like to play soccer,volleyball and badminton -,-We realised how different Edmund's twin brother looked when compared to Edmund.Fraternal twins! Edmund's sister and mum on the other hand were friendly people,the sister was really really friendly =)

Adeline and Ryan came later on. We then proceeded on to play mahjong...i mean they did,i didn't.I didn't know how to =p So Rachel,wan yin and i played the game 'cheat'.They said i was lousy at cheating but hey, i still gamed first! Sadly, had to leave quite early...so bus-ed home with Rachel and wan yin. Well,Tiffany and Wynne on the other hand are currently camping over at Edmund's house and i think yingcong and Russell's joining in either later or who knows,they might be there already.



If eveyday could be like this...