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Everything went wrong.
I never imagined that i'll be ending the year this way.

2007 has been a bitter sweet year. But i would reckon that it was more of bitter.

2007...a year whereby my results were never good enough, my grandpa passed on, friendships that i thought would never break no matter what had problems.

The sweet? Wait,i can't even remember. The times i had with all family and friends? I don't know.

I think i shouldn't be a wet blanket at this point of time.


Well,so today's new year's eve! Time to make my new year resolution.

1) To be happy 24/7
2) Effort =results ( in another words,good results)
3) Hopefully.get the laziness out of me.It's time to mug.
4) World peace =.=

I can't really think of any to write.

So, here's wishing everyone HAPPY NEW YEAR!Have a nice day,ya?



I hate it when such things happen.

You know what i really really feel like doing right now? I feel like flying back to Valencia,CA to ride TATSU. It's a roller coaster ride. Random? Sitting a roller coaster ride is one of the best ways to scream your frustrations out...and i currently have many frustrations to deal with. TATSU was one of the scariest,craziest roller coaster rides i have ever sat before...and it rocks,totally.
TATSU
Ha,sort of circled out where my brother and I was sitting. You most probably can't see my face,because i had my hair covering it. You can't expect to have neat hair after you sit a roller coaster ride right? Yeah,and my head was hanging down because i think i saw a galaxy of stars after that crazy adventure.After the ride i couldn't walk straight for a couple of minutes =S

Before the ride i still felt pretty nervous because of how the ride was like.If you look at the photos,you'll be able to see actually we're all resting our entire body weight on the safety bar because you're like,facing down. So i asked my brother just before out turn came," hmm...do you think it's safe?" Well,what if the safety bar wasn't fastened tight enough,that will be the end of us...! He replied something along this line," Aiya, if that guy ( probably the size of us both combined,or maybe a little larger than that =X) can come back still in one whole,what do you think?" o.O Ok,i think i feel much more assured about my safety now =p




I think my brother's a little comical sometimes,lol. Then as we were brought higher and higher into the air during the ride,you know like in the beginning of any roller coaster rides...yea. I went " omg....omg...omg ...omg...omg...."Firstly because i was overwhelmed by the height we were at.Secondly, i was thinking if i would die of fright when the ride officially begins,because it was gonna be a steep drop. =S Then my brother was telling me something like,"I know i know, don't look down...close your eyes then you will not feel so afraid...this is the worst part of the any roller coaster ride" Then i was thinking,"huh,it is?o.O I was more afraid of the going down part la!" Haha, =.=''

Hmm...tomorrow's already new year's eve.Damn.Time passes so quickly.

It's one of the those times whereby i feel shitty inside again and whereby I'm fuming mad. No one knows what just happened, probably only the two of them .Why?Because we're going through the same effing things.

I've had it. Everyone has a limit to what they can tolerate and apparently you're going overboard.It doesn't mean when i don't say effing anything,you can just continue your freaking doings.Stop venting your effing anger on me each and every time. What the hell is wrong with you?! I think this entire post should be in caps lock but never mind.

I think if you've got some anger management problem.Damn, or either that you just PMS far too frequently.Like what?EVERY SINGLE FREAKING DAY? I'm not revealing names just because i have this really teeny tinge of respect that's left in me for you.


The person i am now isn't the person i wanted to be. You drove me into this. So don't freaking come and tell me off. It's called a tit for a tat,GET IT?


Call me immature,tell me that everything i typed was childish but it's none of your business anyway so i don't really give a damn. Deal with it.


Everyone deserves their due amount of respect.

This post is about ranting. So you don't really have to read it.

Damn,I was super pissed after band today. About a month ago,i sent in my handphone for repair because some of the keypads cracked,that was not my fault...because the lady said she received similar cases. Guess what,up till now my phone's not back yet. Downright ridiculous! That's the first. Secondly, my mum then told me when my dad called them up to ask about my phone and why they were taking so long to do the darn repairs they said my phone camera was also spoilt. Like WTH? My phone camera was perfectly fine when i sent it in for repair! My mum then questioned me if i dropped my phone again...ZZZZ,no i didn't!

Okay,that matter aside. After a tiring day of drills and music, obviously i would want to go home and get a good rest right? But no, i got dragged to parkway to get our (bro+myself) phone plans upgraded. Fine! I thought it would be quite fast but guess what, we had to queue,get a freaking number and wait for another darn 45 minutes! Fine! After 45 minutes...finally our turn came. So i thought,"finally,this will take probably another 10 minutes and then we can go home" Oh i was wrong. I think i stood there for like what?Another 30 minutes or more just to get the whole thing done?And then my mum kept asking which plan i wanted and I was like,"anything...whatever...." By now i was super frustrated,but she still couldn't make up her mind.Oh my gosh,i really felt like strangling someone there and then. Obviously she could tell i was frustrated from the way i looked but she thought i was unhappy with the plan she wanted to get for me.*Speechless* Yadayada...i reached home only at 9pm when we left school at 6.45pm. PPPPFFFFTTTT.


Anyway,whee! Today's the last band practice of the year! But, our next band practice is next thursday....so i don't think it really makes any difference does it?But better than none =p The school field really sucks. Parts whereby there's an absence of grass is the part whereby you dread standing most.Why?Simply because it's muddy.How muddy? The moment you step in,your feet would sink in...and it smells like crap.=.=


Tomorrow's phangphang's birthday....so...


HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL PHANG!=D

Seems like Boxing day is far more enjoyable compared to Christmas this year. Ha,i just found out what Boxing Day is all about,thanks to Kenneth =.= I never thought that they would actually put aside one day in the year for such a thing?

Today, we were supposed to chiong our homework at the airport. First it was just the two of us. Hmmm...yeah,talked,ate,drank while we were homeworking. Then another two more people came. After finishing my last SS essay,i lost most of my will to continue homeworking thus i was just slacking =S Later, we started to have more fun =x With what? Oh well, i shan't say but it was fun! (:


Came home at about 7+pm. Dad's home earlier than usual. Shortly,my brother came home too. So,it was time to play my brother's current craze=,= Well my dad bought this really miniature set of it and he offered to teach me the basics.Yea,i didn't know how to play the game until just now =S I think i got the gist of it? Gamed a couple of times,haha..they call it beginners luck! In the midst of the games,i sent my dad,mum and bro laughing a couple of times=.= Yeah, i did some things i shouldn't do in the game....gah,i'm that blur.Oh well,now that i've learnt the basics...i can play with my 2B buddies already! Previously i could only watch them play =( Haha, Rachel asked me to not learn too much,so she can thrash me in the game because she's a beginner as well =p


Blah~ Okay,I'm supposed to continue doing my homework.Keyword:Supposed. Been staying up till 2am the past few nights,also supposedly to do homework but...argh,i guess you know what happened.Again,the keyword here is:Supposedly.


Holiday assignments are such a P.I.T.A!!!!!!! (pain in the ass) If only the other departments could be as understanding as the English department,this holiday would be so much less frustrating,ya?

MERRY CHRISTMAS !

I think I feel better & i think i really must thank one person for talking to me throughout yesterday night when i really felt like shit inside . Thanks! I think you know who you are! And I really really hope you would cheer up too yea? =D

2 more hours till christmas is over,it's really fast.

Hmm,i guess that's about all i have to say? Enjoy the very last 2 hours of christmas people!


A past to be forgotten.

Warning: This post would be quite mood dampening to read it on christmas.My suggestion,don't read it...i just needed a place to write things down.




One word to decribe how I feel now : Horrible


So much for it being Christmas Eve. I think i've lost all the festive mood,I feel nothing but sadness...yea,nothing but sadness.

Anyway,don't worry about me.I'll be fine.


It's tough forgetting,it's tough.

Whee~ Great day!

Good morning people! It's the 24th and christmas is tomorrow! Oh my god,i can't believe it. Time passes so quickly. School's reopening,homework all not done.Brilliant. I hope i won't be spending new year's eve doing SS homework or something,like what i was doing last year -.-

This year,we didn't set up the christmas tree.How sad,i wouldn't be able to hang up the christmas present fiona gave me. Somehow i feel like it's christmas but then again it doesn't feel like it at the same time -,-

Anyway, Happy advanced christmas people!

If i could rewind time,it would be the best christmas present ever...

I really miss the weather back in the States. No doubt it might be too cold sometimes and yea,sometimes i might shiver and sometimes i could hear my teeth chatter but at least i would not look like a boiled lobster -.- Yes,currently i look like one...thanks to the sun. I have no idea why, but its always scorching hot in TJ....it was last year,its still the same this year...today. Urgh. Everyone's getting tanner too! Barely back in band for a week and i'm already seeing an obvious change of colour in my skin tone. You know,i would love to bask in the sun in the states willingly but here,no thanks!


It's been a really tiring day.

Clarinets,jiayou!I'm sure we can do it! (:

It's 11.45 pm in the night now.All of a sudden I feel so moody.Urgh~ Yea,whatever.





Went out with to celebrate jess and bao's birthday today. Finally, we're reunited as a group.It's been such a long time whereby all of us are around. Watched our first ever movie together-Alvin and the chipmunks. Ha,the chipmunks are super cute... Okay, and just yesterday I finished watching Golden Compass. Are there any other nice movies to watch?





I seriously need the motivation la,oh my gawd.I feel so frustrated with myself and with all the homework waiting to be done and i so hate it that the the year's coming to a closure soon and then the brand new one starts.





Christmas is coming,i'm in the mood already but it dampens the moment i think of homework and the coming year. Christmas christmas christmas...so many things to think about,to recall about...
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Side track

Facebook.I have not much of an idea how to like,meddle with it? As it is i have 200+ requests to join different kinds of applications...yea,i don't know what to do with all of them -,- great,why did i even sign up for it.

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Back to ranting.

The holidays suck,they're passing too quickly. There's so many things i want to do,so many things i would love to accomplish but ...

I feel so bothered.By what?I don't know...seems like everything's bothering me! Brilliant,eh?

Went out with the 3E peeps today to catch a movie. Waa,i hate movies/shows with endings that don't end and whereby they leave you hanging at your seat in suspense.

Woohoo~the few of us kinda vowed to study harder next year,to be more serious next year. Hopefully we'll honour our words. Currently i'm already panicking,shit. I regret for fooling around so much this year...i think i've wasted a year away.


I'm shall start to complete my homework by this week.Sounds too ambitious?Urgh...i'll try.

Going back to band one day after arriving back in singapore is like,lol. Having being absent for like 3 weeks, felt quite lost. Block position was already fixed, steps were too...had to rely on kw and my juniors who where standing around me for awhile,haha! Also, the field was downright disgusting...mud everywhere.Imagine stepping right into a pile with your bare feet.We did just that!Gross....but it's not like we've never done it before so there's nothing much to fuss about.

Woa,feels good to see most of us being back together and finally having a proper lunch together!Weehee (: We're just short of one more person T.T


Worked with my new counterparts. Something i realised yesterday,jermaine's actually quite strict and fierce 0.o
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I shall post the pictures of my trip (: but not all at once.


The day I left + on board the plane


They came to send me off,awww....

Xiaojia's the excess baggage.
Them plus mdmrozy.She gave me a shock when she appeared and started waving at me =p
Above the clouds,wonderful sight!






I was SS essay-ing! Glad to say i finished one onboard (:I love to see those gradient of colours up in the sky! When i was on the way home back to singapore,i opened the window and saw so many stars dazzling! Damn nice la....especially when they're so much nearer and when there were like,at least a hundred of them?Had this 'galaxy' atmosphere,ha!


The day i arrived in america
The car we rented while in LA. The rental company actually rented us a brand new car.Cool (:Knotts Berry Farm

It's something like the viking ship,just in another version.

It went much higher than this,it went like...to the height whereby we were parellel to the ground.


Up we went...




the wooden roller coaster....


Another roller coaster ride...




Wet ride~ We didnt want to sit in the front but...that guy just had to force us to.GRR...and we got all wet,all thanks to him!

Yet another roller coaster ride we rode...

The other pictures,i'll post some other time perhaps!

*long post*

Weehee,i just got back from America...the day fiona has been waiting for(i think),haha!

The days spent there were awesome! I'll upload the pictures soon,currently they're in my dad's computer.

Okay, so i left on the 3rd...Xiaojia,Tiffany,Jessica came to send me off,so sweet huh?Uhuh uhuh! You know,Tiffany was actually supposed to come with me to the US,together with my family but it's a pity her mum didn't allow...or else,there would be so much more fun with her around. Oh, it was such a coincidence that we met MdmRozy at the airport!Maybe that was the reason why i had the motivation to complete one SS essay in the aeroplane,haha!Well,i was supposed to complete some homework in the aeroplane but guess what, i brought the wrong homework file to the aeroplane...i forgot i transferred all my homework into another file,like....oh simply great.=,= My younger "brother" and "sister" were sweet enough to call me just before i left,we had a conference ....which was quite crappy actually but it was still very nice of them nevertheless!

In the 16 hours flight, i didn't really manage to sleep since it was so uncomfortable. So, i watched a couple of movies and time seemed to pass really fast,thank god! After we reached Los Angeles, my dad went to rent a car.He knew certain places pretty well,yea so he drove us around the whole time we were there...but with the help of a navigator machine(something like a computerised map).The navigator was like our life saviour,we depended heavily on it.

We spent only a day in Torrance before we headed to Anaheim,California for 4 days. There, we spent a day in Knotts Berry Farm.It's actually a Theme park...but i have no idea why they named it "Knotts Berry Farm" Anyway! The theme park has many roller coaster rides...which i got "dragged" by my brother to take most of them. After the first one, i came down seeing stars when we were still in broad daylight,haha! I didn't dare to sit two roller coaster rides they had there though,didn't have the guts to. One of which my parents took when they were much younger...(yea,after so many years the ride still exists) My brother didn't have much choice but to sit the ride all by himself,bleah =p There was another one,whereby the roller coaster ride had this really steep plunge and which went up really really high up...i didn't dare to take it either no matter how my brother tried to persuade me to. Sadly,my parents couldn't really take the rides with us...but my dad wanted to take at least one ride with us so we went to try out this ride which we thought it was a tame roller coaster ride.Sure,it was REALLY TAME and REALLY LAME TOO,it wasn't even a roller coaster ride! The three of us came out laughing our asses off.

The following day we headed to DisneyLand...there were actually two theme parks there... so went to the California Adventure first. Uhm, had a pretty fun time there too...sitting roller coasters and other thrilling rides which would be easier to explain when the pictures up being uploaded up here( hopefully ,i'll upload them...)

The third day, we went to the other theme park (out of the 2)which i mentioned earlier. The rides there were more for younger kids. Hence,i've got nothing much to elaborate here. Gah...i remembered loads of stuffs when i was there...T.T Anyway,the good thing about being in America's Disneyland would be...there was no problem understanding the language there,unlike in Japan last year whereby i didn't understand a thing at all.However,i still enjoyed the time spent in Japan(:

On the 4th day,we were supposed to drive to Valencia( i think it's another state in the US...but still in California?Urgh,i don't know!It's super confusing) Guess what,our life line died on us(the navigator which we depended heavily on) right in the very beginning of the trip.Brilliant timing! We had no choice but to depend on paper maps instead.Thankfully we arrived safely but way behind schedule though. Dumped out bags at the hotel and headed to Sixflags(another theme park,mainly consisting of roller coaster rides) When we arrived i was like,"shit,do i have to take all those rides" I think i've got a little phobia of roller coaster rides,heh. The weather was extremely cold in Valencia and what more,the theme park was situated like on a mountain? Yeah,i sat one roller coaster ride whereby i held the hand bar throughout the whole ride.When the ride ended, my fingers were like,frozen! There were difficulties letting go of the hand bars,i felt pain...seriously!

We spent only a day in Valencia, after which we headed back to Torrance for another day before we caught a flight to Las Vegas. Omg, there were casinos everywhere! Even in the airport! Usually,the ground level of most hotels would be where the casinos were situated...there was one at my hotel....when you walk along the streets,you'll see more!We wanted to try playing some of the machines but damn, my brother and I were underaged.I hated the smell in the casinos however...the smell of cigar puts me off badly. The 2nd day there, we made a trip to the Grand Canyon.My second time being there...this time,there wasn't any snow.Such a pity!The last time,my cousins,brother and i could still snow fight there!Though there was no snow,it was really cold. You're gone cased if you're without any jacket.Imagine, i was wearing long sleeves plus 2 jackets and i was still shivering occasionally. And when you breathe out through your mouth, there would be "smoke" (as what fiona would like to call it,haha!)Scenery seen there was majestic.

That was pretty much our last day in the US. We had a pleasant surprise on the trip home,it was like getting a jackpot though we weren't playing at the casinos =p

Being back home feels okay...but it's so warm.I prefer the weather over in the US. I missed my dogs so much...i think they actually went on hunger strike. Both of them lost so much weight.One lost like,6 kg? Probably they were just scared being in the new environment for the last week or so.Poor things...good thing they're back (:

Okay, Tiffany's currently on the way to my house....to collect her stuffs . That's fast isn't it,i'm seeing her on the day of my arrival.Ha.

Overall,i guess i really enjoyed my days there...my dad was quite spastic at times. For example, the temperature there drops really fast at night and as we were walking to the car after dinner...

Me(shivering a little): Faster unlock the car!
Dad( As he was approaching the car,still taking his own sweet time): Oh,you're feeling cold? *gives cheeky look and breaks out into laughter*Obviously he knew i was feeling cold!
Me: ... ...

Oh well.

Lastly, band stuffs. I've heard about the re-shuffling of positions in the committee. I shan't say too much about it since i think it's a pretty sensitive topic to comment on. But to me, i think there was a major change made. Guess what,one of my new counterparts is Jermaine. A really nice one....the first Male uniform master in how many years....???? I don't even know,haha! But somehow i think it's gonna be somewhat fun. However, in the past few months....i really enjoyed myself spending time with my previous two counterparts...it was when i got to know the two of them better(:


Long post yea? I warned you from the beginning!

Argh! I have not finish packing my bags...yeah,I'm that pro.

Okay ...and i'm like so tired now.My eyelids were already closing on the way back home from the outing and when i got home, my parents decided that we should go visit my grandmother and have dinner together.Oh great...xD okay okay...Haha!My brother's legs are aching,like what i expected.Good luck to him tomorrow^^


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Erm let me reply to all tags here.(earliest to latest)

Shigeng:Who is retarded?

Fiona:Your wish has been fulfilled today.Erm,zoo attachment is tiring la...but quite enriching at the same time.I miss the animals now xDHow to get the non previewed versions?Search la! Miss Jenny?Which jenny?Do i know a jenny?Lol.

Alison: Well i don't mind,I love dogs!

Wy: yeah Christmas is coming,i want a present.Remember that.

Alsing: If you read my previous post, i'm not exactly glad about it coming to an end.

Fiona:Seems like you know peacocks pretty well.haha

Shigeng: No i didn't pair up with a dog because you weren't there to pair up with me,HAHA! xD Kidding.

Tiffy:Yeah,cute umbrellas they have there.Lol,oh oh! The three of us took loads of photos.

Meryl:Ended already.

Kwara: We were not there for valid reasons! Haha,you came back at the wrong time...as for where i'm going,i've told you already.

Meryl: I only get the "where are you going part" As for the back part, i didn't understand what you were trying to convey.Don't bother explaining to me either xD,i don't want to know.

Fiona: When i come back then send you la okay...yeah,i will pack my bags ltr.HAHA!

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Advanced birthday wishes...

Happy Advanced Birthday Michelle Ann Kwara!!

Happy Advanced Birthday Jessica TingHui Diku!!

Enjoy yourselves!

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Hmm...so i'm leaving tomorrow. Oh my gosh, 16 hours flight,i'll probably just rot in my seat.Haahaa...and you know what,i'm going to bring my homework to chiong on the plane.What a spoiler but i don't have much choice xD Okay,so i guess i'll see you guys soon,bye everyone!!

Sealion show <3

Meal coupon.Haha,surprisingly today's lunch was not bad...the other days were like,bleah~

Happy Feet (:

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Okay,so enough of my work attachment.

You know, I have not pack my luggage and i'm leaving on monday (: Lol.I think i'm as pro as my xiaodi. Gah,bet my mum would come nagging at me soon,real soon. At first i wasn't really excited about going for the trip especially when i'm going with my family only.Which means all rides i'm going to take would be with my brother,only.Urgh,it's okay...my dad's so gonna entertain us with his crappy lame stuffs just like last year's trip.Omg,at times it gets quite embarassing,haha!

The last time i was there, which was like...7 years ago...yea i went with my cousins,aunties and uncles...17 of us,consisting of 6 other cousins+ 1 other friend which are all guys apparently =,= so that made me the only girl there...it was damn fun! I remember those days...my youngest cousin justin went missing one night after dinner and got us all panicky.He was lucky to be found again. Then, as i was like only primary two then...all my other cousins were older and obviously taller,so my dad accompanied jared(another cousin whose age is the same as me) and i to a ride for 10 over times i still remember!haha,poor dad. Well,we had no choice because our height didn't meet the requirement of the roller coaster ride my cousins and bro took.Damn.Then there was that friend of ours,wilson...he's one funny person....(: Yeah remember most of the stuffs we did there...was so fun la!xD

Well & there's my brother who's going for his marathon tomorrow.Of all things...the day before he leaves. I'm so gonna laugh if his legs ache badly after the marathon and which he then goes for the 16 hours flight we're gonna catch on monday.Lalalalla~~~

I love my dog,he's one of the most important thing in my life~~~~this is so random.Yeah,so gonna miss him when i'm away.As usual,i hope he doesn't think i'm gonna abandon it and i hope it eats well when i'm away and not like go on hunger strike T.T