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The know it all person.Telling us all the logic and theory,oh whatever!! You think you know a lot, but no you dont. Oh please...stop it...


Today we had nice weather.Freeeezing cold, but i got my jacket with me!PE kind slack.We were in the gym while my dear friends r.p and w,y were singing for me this song which had to do with flowers and a season in chinese.OOPS,he saw and asked what r.p was telling me,lol i cant possibly tell him they were singing a chinese song involving some season and some nice-pretty smelling flowers right?heehs.

Ok...so i was rushing to do my art.Stylize shadings are a waste of time.Firstly, I see no use of it ,Secondly it doesnt teach us anything at all, we waste ink, we waste tracing paper and time! If she fails to see what i was doing with my stylize drawings,its not my fault for SHE FAILED to look it at an artistic way=p.


The weather's so nice to tug yourself in your comfy bed and take a nap...so

Off to dreamland i shall go...tata!


-stop giving that attitude,you're not that great

Well. Band today was pretty okay...we focused mainly on one song. Its nice! yansiang loves it,so do i !! Its one of those oldies.And im still trying to get the hang of it, i mean...like how to play the running notes.yeah=p.

After band, went to pp to grab a bite with yansiang.OMG.i've been going to pp like practically almost everyday.Im SO in LOVE with that handbag and jacket,should i get them?=)

Gosh, art.A pile of homework waiting for me to do something. BOO!!!

-& you're making me smile with the things you do=)

Gahs.I feel like asking this person to stop doing things that pisses me off.seriously,pain in the neck!

what did i do for the past few days?oh let's talk about thursday....nothing's interesting.Got back our history paper,i was kinda shocked to be honest.Firstly,i didnt exactly study. I was studying in-between lessons on the day of the test.Anyway i should be thankful=).It's kinda wierd these few days or rather recently.I feel so lethargic during lessons,are the teachers' lessons simply too boring or is it just me?i think its me,lol.Went for band...lol...yansiang and i were kinda lame.LOL.i was supposed to do something for her=p.diao.

Today.nothing much either.Just that...err went out with chinling and jessica after school.We had fun at the departmental stall.Swimwear section was fun!gosh.Lol.yeah enjoyed myself lah.i've nothing much left to say.


something nice had happen...=) but Im torn between choices.=(.

Unknowingly....

gahs.IM SO TIRED.physically and mentally.


So many tests. At least i did relatively okay...for both maths and geography.Yeah.Projects had been crazy.I didnt go for band yesterday=x.Feel so guilty.I was freaking pissed yesterday with someone who didnt have the least initiative to at least give me a call.


Oh,i got caught for studying for Lit today during IT lesson.At least i think that freaking woman was referring to me,=x.oops,i still continued to read after she warned us not read our books..and she was"and you're still reading as i'm saying.."oh whatever!Like i can be bothered with you.Anyway there was nothing much to do...and Oh please!The test is more important!


Yadidda.See what i mean when i say im getting rebellious.=p.Im getting the motivation to study!!whee!GOGOGO!!A1s!A2s!

gah.gosh today's got to be the day whereby i wrote my most horrible chinese zuowen.haha.i'll tell later in the post.


well.we ran our 2.4km today.freak i was dead beat by the end of the freaking 6 rounds.My timing deproved since last year!gah!!!!!!nevermind.went back to class and had our spelling,which afterwhich jgoh seeing us all tired she sorta let us rest.Afterwhich was recess.


Bla Bla bla...music....followed by art and ce.I got caught for my freaking short nails.Wow.Together with tiff,adel,ed,yg+somemore....yeah we had to cut our nails before coming into the art room.Lol...in the end she asked us all in but because i was not done yet...she told me to stand at the side,i was like"huh...stand and the side and cut nails?wow...ok lor.."lol...yeah so i happily leaned against the basin and started cutting slowly while wanyin looked at me because the nail cutter was making too much noise,i laughed.Yeah...after i done i went back to my seat...i feel so rebellious nowadays.Blahs....bore bore bore!continuous 4 periods of tm2 is no fun.but today,we got to skip a lesson of Ce to do this survey in the computer lab.yeah.proceeded to chinese lessons afterwhich.haha.so strolled back towards 1J when yg,ys and i saw wynne,rach,wy rushing down again from 1J.so we thought...why were they coming down again...?Oh got zuowen!need to take dictionary....diao =/ ....ran back to class to take our dictionaries.FAST FORWARD.


The topic for the day?write on a place where you went to,supposedly a tourist attraction.Gah!i Stoned there thinking what should i write,in the end chose the same place as rachel,sentosa.Lol.i was just there on saturday!Following on...i wrote my zuo wen,all was crap.Really...everything was about everything being pretty.....the scenery being nice and stuff.& oh,as i was embarassed of my zuowen,so each time LAB comes by my side and starts reading my compo,i cant help but stop writing,look at rachel and start giggling.She sents shivers down my spine.Lol....she's a nice funny teacher,really.


Hmm....blahs.what else.okay gtg...

wohoo!yesterday was fun fun fun!!Tk band beach party rocked!


Ok.i was practically out the whole freaking day.First in the morning was Tk golden run at bedok reservoir.i woke up late,like 6.45 am?haha.It was more like a walk than a run to me.Cause yansiang rachel and wanyin,we were all walking throughout the whole thing.Lol...at the beginning when we saw the mini sign at the side of the tracks stating it was only 0.5km...i was like HUH! walk so much and only 0.5km,lol 4.5km more to go!whee!i walked till practically my toes went numb and my right leg hurt.bleahs,actually nothing much to say about golden run so FAST FORWARD.


In the afternoon,it was time for the band peeps to go to sentosa!Yeah...we got into groups and my group was named"hello kitty"haha.So we had 7 games to play at the beach.Gah!our group was the first to get into the water first....so we were wet for the next 6 games as well.First up was super heroes.Lol...kinda cute in a way its another way how to play scissors paper stone.Ha.The following games were On the beach,Top it up,buried alive,Dog and bone and...i cant remember already=x.Buried alive was interesting.We were all buried under sand,very hard to breathe and i kept giggling.On the beach...its ok.We basically had to form numbers with ourself.Oh then theres another,we had to form our formations.So my group had to form the darth vader.It was pretty nice and interesting=x.Yeah fast forward.We played till 6 plus in the evening,took group photos and headed off to bathe.gosh,the toilets were more or less pretty crowded,long queue!we got one woman pretty pissed i guess,she asked if we were queuing up for our friends,if so we should re-queue and stuff again.Fast forward.The dinner was at the beach.The decorations were simple yet nice.We had our personal Dj...but i think he's our alumni.The food was great,they got some people to BBQ some food for us.After dinner they had some competitions for the most well dressed,tittled ms beachy and mr beachy.LOL.We had the cutting cake session too where we all popped our poppers.Then came dance session after dinner.WOOHOO.all time favourite I will Survive was played and we all danced at the beach.Yeah...we partied there for some time after which we had to head back to school.It was already like 10 pm by then?

Oh and the new comittee members were announced too.Our new section leaders...Jiajun and Melissa.Hmmm...well...


Anyway....i had fun yesterday!But i was really tired.Actually i felt tired already when golden run finished.Lol.Tk band Beach party Rocked!

today's oral is ....i guess okay.my chinese reading was horrible.gosh.my topic to talk on was CIP.GREAT!hell....i was stoning there for a second or so after hearing the topic.i had to get the teacher to like repeat the question to me.gosh.HOD somemore!but she seems nice...i hope.blahs.i crapped basically for the whole conversation.hees.


what's the freaking problem.like you said,you were not the only one who was tired.I AM TOO.hello,i noticed a freaking trend in them.THEY simply LOVE talking about something i least want to hear WHEN IM FREAKING tired like after school or some night tuition.have they ever spared a thought,i need a rest after tuition of school and not being constantly reminded of some idiotic stuffs.& when i get quiet all when they are talking,it seems like im angry so that get angry,wth.I wouldnt be unhappy if you at least gave me some rest!!Its not that i dont want to improve...WHO doesnt.How do you expect me to like confide all my problems with you when you dont even understand me!Firstly,you dont know how im experiencing now,how i feel.You dont know that i'm also worried.How freaking TIRED I AM with the workload in school.

i'm no longer that happy-go-lucky girl anymore. As i've said,i may seem im happy but deep inside its way opposite.you think you understand me but actually you dont.

i feel so dumb and useless.i cry over things so minor, probably some might want to ask"whats her problem?!".i feel so sorry,apologetic for how i behaved this late afternoon...how sucky i was-apologetic to my sect mates.I have like totally no confidence in myself playing alone...to begin with im like a pessimistic always looking on the bad side.I know someone else in a worst off state than me,she's more alone than me,although she's also not willing...but well i guess she's more confident.thumbs up for her,i should learn from her in fact.Well,i cant play many many many notes yet...but i think soon i would be able to.i wont be so pessimistic anymore.im such a total letdown,i know and i'm sorry.


tomorrow's chinese oral.HOD testing us.gosh...im like so dead.wish me luck.

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ok. Yesterday was crazy.Well....we had out Maths test....fairly okay i guess.Then we had band....fairly okay too...only at the end i was feeling really tired...i rested with my eyes close when it was not our turn to play.lols.yah.gah!!new instrument allocation.hmms...what should i say...gahs!!i dont know what to do.*sigh*though i should be thankful.wow,it was a crazy project rush at home with fellow group members consisting of ALL band members,yiguan tiffany mardhiah indah and myself.

Whoa. We went home and started doing our project work like gosh,i had do some discovery, then had to write a letter and i did my reflections....it was really insane..but i was more of the better off one...as i finished earlier then everyone else, mardhiah the group leader had to sleep at like 1 am?trying to collate everything together?poor thing!and we had history test the next day,which is like today?

I think im getting bolder and bolder as i grow older.i can go without revising for a test that was due the following day!!??oh,and i couldnt be bothered to wake up at 4am when my hp alarm went off?was suppose to study but i guess i couldnt be bothered as i was really really tired.it has been very stressful recently with all these projects we have.So,i went to school and studied in-between lessons.cramped some information in....but obviously last minute revision was not much of a use...so im either flunking the test or i'l get a measly passing mark.gahs!oh ya!i forgot to highlight mrs goh's lesson?it was fun!!first she gave us a short napping session for around 10 mintues,oh then came compo error analysis?the whole class laughed and giggled at some ridiculous mistakes.i laughed at errors in some compos until i cried,especially the first one=).not cry,but more like my eyes were watery?After school went to yiguan's house to do "project"...LOL.

Its proven that,i think having male grpmembers,we are able to finish our project faster...we dont digress as much.LOL.Take geography as an example...work was done so much faster as the boys....i was surprised.they dont sign into Msn,go blog hopping and whatsoever.At least this was for my group's case.Today,Yansiang also came along,we went to read ghost stories...diao...and watched tv...and the 4 of us,tiff,yg,ys and myself were talking about "things".gahs....and guess what...i waited a freaking 45 minutes at the bus stop just to wait for my mum to come and fetch me...why am i so patient...NAH JUST kidding.im not the least patient,but at least the songs in my phone kept me occupied.BLEAHS.good no test tomorrow,finally proper rest...but there's tingxie!oh and kaocha...diao..

today was fun.had PFT 5 stations.it was okay...have not completed all stations.whoa!!CE was fun!!mrs tan you rock!Lol.well M2 didnt come so...she took over.she's hilarious.made the class laugh a lot.i hope she relieves more often but phew!!thank god i've already cut my super long nails yesterday night....so i wasnt caught by her before entering the class.hehs.WHOO!!LAB also didnt come today...so didnt have tingxie and kaocha.haha.slacked.whee.



dang.im acually feeling afraid of tomorrow's test.well...its natural when you're freaking demoralised by the subject.ha i think i can see the difference in me these few days.im using the computer less often and that's good!keep up the good job=).self motivation.i need to work harder.....yes i need to!!sigh.the journey with my fellow classmates is coming to an end in three months...that's real fast...i think i might cry for whatever outcome that comes at the end of these three months.2B,a wonderful experience,an exuberant class!!i hope the plannings for the chalet carries on smoothly....imlooking forward to it=) .May god help me pull through these 3 months=).

i need my confidence back.how am i going to get it?im determined to.

omg.i dont know what to say.haha ciao!

erm.right okay....today was fine.i went for tuition...gahs!yah....so....?ok cut the crap.well yesterday i was "hardworking" enough to finish up my art colouring...and its like...crap.Lol.omg.i've got jianbao to complete!!3 weeks of jian bao!gahs...i'll probably skip some here and there?blahs.and omg!there's chinese oral like next friday?gahs!!im like do dead.last year i crapped my way through with many hesitations and pauses,with the teacher helping me to say the words i didnt know how to say =x...i thought i was gone case but god knows how,i got 11/15 last year.kinda incredible i know,let's just say the ex hod of MT was nice=).infact....the teacher was nice to everybody,none of us got below 10/15...and to think i was some hmt student but i speak horribly....well chinese isnt my forte=),it has never been.the theory part is kinda okay...the oral...gahs!dread it most of the time!**cross fingers*i hope this year,it wouldnt be my ex teacher testing,or else trust me...i think i would fail for i would definitely be lost for words while she stares at me.


chinese oral?BLEAH!!

blahs.i slept for 12 hours.haven slept this long for quite awhile now.feels so good.ok some might think im crazy.so there's no band practise today....hrms kinda feels wierd.And im still adjusting to indoor style...im always lost in the world of musical notes....sheesh.

i have no plans for today.but let's see...i've got maths test,history test,chinese spelling... oh and tuition tomorrow.that sucks.sectwo life isnt pleasant at all.projects everywhere!irritants.lets see theres DnT project,there's PW...there's geography project.3 projects on hand=making me go mad,also,projects=lost of sleep.

blahs!!!stressed!! ok i think i should...go revise and do some tuition homework.gahs....

sectwo's life is a horror.

hmm.didnt do much today apparently.kinda had our "half-day".no rather,we had half a half day off....am i making sense?so i accompanied wynne and waited for my three dear friends to finish their ccas.while...me and wynne stayed at the third level and waited for SOME people.yah...for an hour or so..

afterwhich we went to parkway to have our lunch at burger king...had bubble tea...and we went back to school but we got chased out.we slacked at the bus stop while i closed my eyes and took some rest.really tired.while those good friends of mine were talking about me..i know!LOL.and we left wynne all alone while the three of us headed home in a taxi...well...thats what friends are for!right?

i think...im feeling better.i think so.im brightening up...i guess.Tuesday i was...very moody and down...in the morning i didnt have the mood to even talk or smile.no one knows the exact reason except for maybe one of them....yeah.what more can i say....im trying my best not to think about it...for i know i would be tearing again.

everything's so quiet now.im feeling down...im scared...


the emptiness i feel in me.

ok.i have had enough.sheesh leave me alone.thanks for making me MORE demoralised.i know i AM STUPID.you dont have to rub more salt into my already-torn-huge wound.I know where i stand...I KNOW.you dont have to tell me.


I know where i'll be going.I KNOW.im actually fearful of THAT....stupid right?I KNOW.If i had a choice....i want nothing to do with it.I am TOTALLy demoralised...just that you made me FEEL WORST.compare me now to last time....who's quieter....who doesnt want to talk at all now?its the NOW-me.compare me now and last time,who was more cheerful and carefree instead of being totally uninterested and scared/fearful,ITS The current me.right.I did not want anything of this sort to happen to me...but i cant seem to get it right.This problem is the current root to all unhappiness im experiencing.No one exactly knows.They try to comfort me,but im sorry ITS OF NO USE.



im scared.im unable to overcome this fear.im sorry.i still want to reach my target...but my phobia's obstructing it.NO ONE knows how DEMORALISED i am now...no one exactly knows how SCARED i am....NO ONE knows anything.


-totally demoralised and sad.No one can help me.

hrm.i stayed home the whole day.i love staying home.i dont like going out unecessarily...unless i want to buy something or go out with friends.the weather....has been rather nice.cooling...nice weather to take a long nap in...but i didnt=x.

i think i slacked the whole day,but for once i did something useful.i studied for my geography...i think its time for me to wake up now....its time..it should have been like this since god knows when.with the motivation i think i can achieve what im suppose to....you think so?oh sure some of you out there may think i am not making any sense...nevermind then.

someone asked me today,what would i do when im feeling all stressed out,tired and down....i replied,listen to soothing music and talking to close friends to pour my feelings out.well,i've done that a couple of times...or maybe if you want another choice,i suggest crying's the best.i do cry when im feeling stressed out and when i dont feel like telling anyone...it really makes you feel much better,at least that's for me.


the weather and everything's making me so emo again...aww.currently:moody cheryl+stressed cheryl=very down cheryl.tomorrow?happy cheryl?we'll see...looks can be deceiving.


-cry...if you need to.

whee.kinda lathargic in the morning...dragged myself out of bed...had to meet chinling jessica xiaojia and belinda at 8am for breakfast=).and i proudly announce that,i was first to reach.diao~its sort of an accomplishment kay....reaching early is not easy for me...haha because i tend to take my time...sheesh.



today had banD!whee at last.you know its like...last time we wanted band practises to end earlier and stuff...now people are like..."talk more!!talk more...its wierd we can go back early"yeah,that.so we cleaned our instruments...check our uniform parts and watcher more videos.lol....memories of outdoor rocks!it was in the field where many things happened,bitter-sweet memories...i took a picture of it!WHEE!


SIGH...lots of blog posts controversy going on...some people are obviously still SORE about losing...i dont get it.....cool it dudes..its OVER...hello??!life still has to go on....c'mon...


and im still feeling moody.all those teasing and stuff...argh.whatever...my words are going to be so blunt and straightforward these few days...please dont take it to heart everybody!not that i was always beating around the bush last time...just that i'll be ..probably like be harsher with my words when i get pissed...sheesh.



-stop it.

i dont know what's wrong with me,seriously.It seems like,im in no mood to fool around these days.im easily pissed,i few times i almost wanted to tick people off and leave me alone.i tried to keep the anger within me.im feeling moody,why?i dont know...moodswing!ha.i've not felt this in a long long long time.really...this feeling's horrible.but well...i'll try to keep my anger within me still,and hopefully...i wouldnt flare up at my oh-so innocent friends..**laughs**.



Maybe im feeling moody because somethings has ended and i cant exactly 'let go'...well...everything has an ending...what more this one ended beautifully.oh and stress is getting me...all so worked up..projects..tests....argh.


For now...friends of mine,dont get in my way i beg all of you....i really dont want to flare up infront of you people...how could i bring myself to do that...you people bring laughter into my life =)



omg!and im so falling in love with that character....ciao!

hrm.i puzzled at some peoples' blog entries actually.well,i've been blog hopping.i've seen some personal conflicts and stuff...laughed at some cause they're ridiculous.yeah,im sure lots of other people are unhappy with us winning and stuff....but c'mon...its over.i actually wonder how some of them managed to get their facts,they're like so way-off?but nevermind,shant comment so much.i didnt tag at any of the blogs to avoid unecessary problems =).


So,im still missing outdoor life.Why?well,tiffany asked me recently,what about outdoor did i miss...Actually i miss everything. I miss doing the runthroughs.i miss the gimmicks,i miss the feeling of doing the runthroughs,gimmicks,life on the field.I had fun,lots of it despite,yeah...some unpleasant ones here and there but there's always ups and downs ya?outdoor times totally rocks,dont you just miss it too?


Well,i know i've not been blogging these few days.so what had happened over this stretch of time?well...sunday went for sectional BBQ at ECP.gosh,firestarters without a lighter,or even a matchstick.LOL.it was fun actually....its was more like an ALL-GIRLS BBQ,excepy for KW.but he was not the one who started the fire,the sec4s did.HOORAY.success.haha...the ending part was sad,well...sec4s talked to us saying this would probably be their last sectional outing with us,it was sort of...sad...a few of us broke down and cried,we hugged each other too=).Looking back,yeah....though there were sad,unhappy times together,we also shared memorable times together.we'll miss them.


Back to school.well.i've been trying hard to keep myself awake during english lessons and literacture.i dont know why.Had to use wanyin's water to freshen up...hey!at least i made an effort to stay awake.LOL.excuses!Chinese lessons today were fun.gosh laughed A LOT.she's a fun teacher...always contradicting her words.SHe said she wouldnt make us copy compositions as punishments anymore cause she's had enough of our nonsense and she said would just minus off marks from our CA or something,but she still makes people copy anyway.and GOSH,she gives LONG PASSAGES to write.pity them.


okay....im still feeling wierd that there's no band practise.I guess many of us are feeling that way....lol,guess we're not used to it....cause school dismissal seems so early all of a sudden...no longer 6.30pm,its 2pm now.LOL.=)

HOW TO LOSE???!!! Indeed...we've won.we won the BEST DISPLAY BAND TITTLE for FIVE CONSECUTIVE TIMES. We,are truly the defending champions-tk band.


we went down to the our battle field feeling confident,we did what we were supposed to do.there was a huge audience in the stadium,felt a little nervous but later when we started to perform...the nervousness was gone.the feeling was good actually."can we win!!??""yes we can!!!",we already did.tears of joy were shed,all of us feeling excited and happy.hugged many people....jumped for joy.

well,this past six...seven months were truly wonderful.We really have to thank the alumni for really sacrificing so much for us.late nights...lost of sleep....etc..etc....they helped us A LOT.Thank you!

Im already starting to miss days with us practising on the field with the scorching sun,plotting formations,run-throughs,in the hall...doing gimmicks.Yeah,no doubt most of the times we complain its hot,all the sunburns we got,how tired we were...come to think of it,they were all worth it.practising on the field with mud was most interesting.All these are just beautiful memories now,all had pass in the twinkling of an eye.


i cant imagine the switch in mode that's coming.it will be"take your files and stands and go to the studio" for every practise.how less exciting it is compared to days in the field ya?

OUTDOOR 2006 ROCKS!

I believe it will always be in my mind and probably everyone else's mind forever.It was great experience that i would never want to ever forget.