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E learning is pointless and retarded.

Sprung out of bed at 7.40 am cause I had to meet homies online at 7.50am. I'm punctual (: Yeah, they know I'm always late. Oooops.

Helped each other out, ahahaha. =X

Finished pretty early cause of all the help given, plus I chiong-ed plus the stupid math quiz decided to hang on me so I closed it and couldn't continue with it anymore. Oh well. Not my fault.

Sigh.
More stressful days coming up.




No matter what I do, you're always mad
& I can't change your mind

You know what! Tomorrow's E-learning day, so we don't have to go to school. Sounds good yeah? Read on.

"On e-learning day,

1. Students are reminded not to come to college.
2. Students are to log in their temperature before 8am.
3. Please download the E-Learning instructions ppt to know what you need to do in E-Learning day...."

Taken from school portal.

Give us a break -.- Log in before 8 am to key in our temperature?! ZZZZZZZZZZ. And then, we would have to follow some timetable to do all the crap uploaded online. To think, initially all of us were all so happy there wouldn't be school tomorrow...until we found out about this.

I think, some of us would rather go to school,seriously. Firstly, on normal wednesdays, we could all even wake up at about 8am or even later because school starts at a later timing. Not 8am! And lessons certainly do not end at 3pm !! And, I'd rather go to school cause I would only have Econs, GP and Chem lecture on normal wednesdays. Tomorrow...there'll be GP, Econs,Math,Chem and Geog.That's practically everything!ZZZ.

Feel so cheated,haha.





It's like trying to turn around on a one way street.
In the night, I hear him talk, coldest story ever told.

Outdoor 2006.
Was browsing through my files when I stumbled across this.
Every section has a different pose, cool huh.
I can see myself,ha.

Of all things that I still remember,
Summer's never looked the same
The years go by and time just seems to fly
But the memories remain.

It's sad, when people and things you know become people and things you knew.

I promise, one day I'll blog about how I felt, all these while.

It cuts so deep

Screw school life.
Things can't get any worser.


ARGH!FISHHH.


It's like one step forward and two steps back.

It's a wake up call I guess.
There's not much time left, and I don't have the motivation as well.

FML.

Woke up on many days, feeling like not going to school. Sigh. Yesterday, was quite a long day for everyone, thanks to GP star I had to go home 4 freaking hours later. And what was the whole cohort doing in the auditorium? Watching some General knowledge challenge between 6 classes for one hour. Actually, it wasn't that bad la. During the break, a bunch of us sat around crapping. LISA xD I have a feeling one of these days, Pascalle will eventually kill me.

There was supposed to be an eclipse today right? Couldn't see it! There was no sun in the first place, because it was raining in the morning. Now we've got to wait till next year.


Brilliant.
Tomorrow, I go to school just for maths lecture (:






I try to put on a face,
And cover my heart,
But I'm needing it now,so bad.

Almost died today.
It was a friggin' long day. ZZZ I hate mondays!

Everyone's like falling sick? Bangs, PW group mate plus another classmate didn't go to school today, the super high chatty may ern was on MC for PE today due to flu,fever and everything...and as it is, the guys in class seem to be falling ill too.

Take care people.

Anyway, haha. Today our PE teacher made a hell lot of noise cause a bulk of us were either on long term MC, Short-termed MC...or either that, some were absent from school. =X and we were supposed to run 2.4 today. Well, not that we did it on purpose.

Spent like half the time in PW laughing my ass off. LISA!=X And oh my, I didn't know watching people doze off during lectures can be so amusing. I was about to doze off myself until I saw the one infront of me doze off,and the way how she did it...was simply,interesting. =X

Sigh.& my ankle has been hurting throughout the day. I don't like the sharp pains.



Stay close, don't go. :(

Tired, but there's still a long way to go.
Sigh.

I don't wanna go to school tomorrow.


Iwywhrh,rn.

I made a vow.

Sigh, just a had a looooooong talk with my dad. I'm so sad, I think I let him down. He said a couple of things, that struck me.


" Never be too trusting ''

:(

Just when you think the road is going nowhere,

Monday blues.

Shucks, I don't wanna go to school tomorrow. Skills PE on basketball with commando Lee...is simply -.- Well, at least my twin said it was boring for the past few months with him. I'd rather have soccer with Ms Siti, she's so nice!However, she has been posted to another school =( Oh god, and not to mention having to do Qi Gong as warm ups for Aces Day. -.- It's damn funny la learning the steps last thursday -.-'


It's gonna be a long long day tomorrow.


Time does wonders. In the initial stage, you don't get to see things and understand things you should. It's like you're blinded no matter what people tell you . Then over time, you slowly get to see why. Sometimes, I really wished things didn't turn out this way, sometimes I really don't want to believe it as well, but it is what it is...and because it happened, I guess...it forces me to believe and see things in a different perspective,something...I wish I hadn't seen or got to know of. If I didn't have to go through this stage,at least then...everything that has been left behind....would have been nothing but a set of good old memories.

You know, it's been really hard trying to believe something you wish you didn't have to...


Thank you for standing by me, through the tears and through everything.

I just realised.

I have not touched any form of chinese text in 9 months,much less speak the language. I am definitely not rubbing in, for those who have to take their chinese A level oral soon. SUMPAH!(: And anyway, every time I attempt to speak chinese, most people would be like " Eh,can don't speak in Chinese, you sound damn weird..." Hmmppft, hurt my morale. AHAA.

Just last week( exam week ), my CT was telling the class to come back at about noon for a second round of temperature taking, but my paper ends at about 10am? ( Since I have no Chinese paper to take in the afternoon =x) So I was super puzzled, like...what? I'm supposed to stay back for 2.5 hours just to take another temperature taking before I could go home?Ridiculous right? So I attempted to clarify with my CT. Oh did I ever mention, my CT's a chinese teacher? YEAH...

So I went,

"Lao shi, wo de....* short interval of silence*.... "
Ahaha, I needed time to think how to phrase my sentence properly.

Now guess what, my PW project's directly related to chinese stuffs. I have no idea how we're ever gonna carry out our interview with chinese performing troupes with only one member being able to speak the language fluently. Oh that member's obviously not me (:

So far, my results have been...

Well put it this way, each time when I receive my papers back...I'll be like " what the shit..." So what do you think?

Loads of people are depressed. Don't be,okay? There's always promos and CAs still. To think this is coming from me. Ahaha. To think I was the one telling some of my closer friends in class to chillax. I think I should be comforting myself. But...since I expected everything, so it's okay.

GP today was kinda funny. Russ, who was sitting behind me...kept making me laugh while his darling was presenting her reading log. He kept singing 'Waking Up In Vegas'. Oh correction, he kept singing only the first two lines of the song rather. " You gotta help me out, It's all a blur last night~" I think these two lines are the only lines he know?Also with all his comments about his darling....what the shit!?Super distracting.


Blah,so tired...


So it's gotta be right, right?

Yawn.

First two days back at school...and nothing new cropped up basically. No papers received back YET. I wonder if it's a good thing or a bad thing but I'll probably get back Chemistry and Math later in the day.

Oh, due to the flu thing going on...we have to practice social distancing. Ahaha like wth. Now, they've allocated specific block of seats in the auditorium and lecture theatres for each class. And in tutorials, we have to sit in single rows. Actually, I don't see much of how this will help us from distancing ourselves away from each other,really. Cause eventually, everyone's pretty much still stuck together in the same place, same confined area? Oh well.

And for the first time, during math lesson...we actually listened to her and sit according to index numbers or at least, according to what she wanted. She's seriously...on par with Ms Wong in terms of controlling the class. Sigh.

Skills PE tomorrow...argh.Last term it was soccer,wonder what's on this term. Why do they always want to follow Monday's timetable! I'd just die later. PE. GP. Math Lect. Geog Lect. Chem. PW.



It's like a bad dream where you can't wake up.

Damn, I don't wanna go back to school tomorrow!

For the past few days, it's been like a dream come true. It still felt like the holidays where I would be still be in bed at about ten...and then I'm free to do whatever I want in the afternoon...and just basically enjoy my life, without freaking school.

And guess what, the teachers just basically spammed us with all the to-do tutorials for the following days' lessons on the portal...and, I kinda just got to know about it. There's 3 econs essay and 2 geog tutorials to complete by tomorrow.FML.


Sigh the feeling's back again. :(


Playing tennis is like a stress reliever. Ahaa,playing with the three of them is the <3.


Pray that it won't fade away.

I've got a craving for KOI now. Now I finally realise why my Econs teacher goes so crazy over it and even uses it as an example for her slides during lectures and tutorials. For those milk tea lovers, you guys should really go try it! (:


Retail Therapy was goooooooooood! But it can get irritating at times when you find something you kinda like, and then you try it on and you realise it's too loose for you... so you try hunting for the same design but of a smaller size, and you then find out...they ran out of smaller sizes! :( I really liked that top. Oh well! Ahaha, so many shops were selling the similar things...then I was telling them how this was like some monopolistic competition (ahah!time to put econs knowledge to good use) then I got this expression from them ---->(-.-) I still feel like killing myself, how could I have written in my essay that in monopolistic competition,firms sell both differentiated and homogenous products?!I think my Econs teacher would just shoot me when she gives back the papers.

RAR!!

Okay!So generally,I had loads of fun yesterday and plus all that accompany that I had with me, made it so awesome! AHAHA (:


Now I feel so tempted to go play tennis.


L-O-V-E
I love you and you love me~~
Zomg. -.-

A strangled smile fell from your face

I'm done done done!
Done with MYEs! (:

This MYEs wouldn't be good.I can sense it. For the first time, I felt so confident for everything. Yeah, so damn confident. So damn confident of failing for sure.

Geog was like, what the shit?! The last two questions were essay questions, on weathering of rocks (granite and limestone). And so yea, just like a rock, after seeing the essay questions, I stoned there for a good 45 minutes or so.

Sigh.

So yea, exams end today. Good, just as well. My brain's like fried already. I'm so darn tired. One big burden off my shoulders for now, till the results are released at least.


Know the feeling of being numbed? Like... you're tired, tired of all the crap but you're also so used to it already. You used to frequently wonder all the "Whys" but now, you just...stop wondering too much...you just, kinda accept it although at times it's still unbelievable and hard to, and at times,it still...hmm... It's just like this,after so long,you're just too numbed already.Shan't elaborate. :(

I wanna go somewhere, somewhere where everything's nice and peaceful. Somewhere by a nice beach, clear blue waters...watching the sun set while leaving everything else behind. Any recommendations? Either that, or I don't mind going to an amusement park and ride roller coaster rides all day! Must drag some friends along to sit with too! Hmm, I wanna go to Australia.

But for now, I have one ideal place to go to.
LALALAND. Been tooooooo deprived of sleep for the past four days.

What that doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger.

Finally, it all ends tomorrow.





Numbed.