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What if, you're made to let go of something that means so much to you but it was for the better? What if, you were made to make one of the hardest decisions of your life and once decided, you can never turn things around? What if, you were about to lose someone you love so much?


Till then, I'd be treasuring whatever time that's left, to the fullest.
I know once it's gone, it'll be gone forever.
& by then, I'd be crying but it's too late.

Sometimes it's just so hard to let go of things and outcomes you can't seem to accept, even though it has happened. & it doesn't make it any better when you keep getting to know more things which adversely affects your process of accepting whatever's been done. You try hard to convince youself, ' yeah, it's for the better' but sometimes you look back and you miss so many things, so many people, you just don't wanna let go, you just can't let go. You probably won't understand what i'm driving at, well you don't have to. Cause it's a feeling you probably will never be able to comprehend.



I guess we never really moved on.

Oh ho ho. Today wasn't that bad.

1) Daddy's back!
2) No more being late for school cause my dad drives 10x faster than my mum.
2) Dad came to fetch after school and bought lots of yummy stuffs for me to munch on =X
3) Orrccchhharrrddddd =X
4) Slack lessons (: But very boring though. 2 hours of GP, her voice was like a lullaby.
5) Hearing my brother's experiences from first day of work, my parents and I couldn't help but laugh.

On the other hand,there are some things to sigh about...

1) Spotty
2) School related stuffs

:(


Sigh.


Now you're feeling more and more frustrated,

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today
and make a new ending."
-Maria Robinson

Maybe, it's gonna be a roller coaster ride in the following weeks to come.

Today, I was like bleah :( Freaking sian ttm. Firstly, was booked late for school just because we reached our venue like, when they just played the national anthem. Wtshit. One more time this term till suspension. Wtf. & it's only the freaking second week of school.

PE. Freaking heard things I didn't want to hear. Not that I was affected by it greatly, it just made me even moodier. After PE , it freaking rained and made everything even gloomier than it already is. Break was like, bleah.

Everyone's like complaining about the auditorium's aircon, like it's freezing cold. The LT wasn't any better. Everyone I think almost froze too during that 2 hours.

But thankfully, left school being happy. Firstly there wasn't any choir practice for the girls today, so could leave school early. Everyone's been so busy with their own hectic schedules recently, that I hardly meet the homies in school that often anymore but today, finally caught up with them. All of them had more or less something on after school today, be it CCA or consultations so they walked me out to the side gate turnstile at 2pm . Somehow, we ended up sitting somewhere near the sidegate just to lepak and crap and laugh for like, one and a half hours. (:


Hmm, I know so many people's like mentally and physically exhausted already. Tests, long school hours and everything. Jiayou people =D Don't give up ya!


Now i wonder how life's going to be like when it's my turn.

Love you people! <3

Yesterday, I was on some high mode. & I know the reason why(: Life's simplest pleasures. I like that kinda feeling and why I'm feeling that way =X Don't want it to fade away! Sometimes though, I wish certain things could change.

"Sometimes the feelings we start to have again, are the same feelings that never really went away."

Sometimes it sucks to not know what lies ahead.

"At this age, everything is changing. Day by day we don’t notice, but just look back over the past year and you will realize everything has. People you thought that were going to be there forever aren’t, and people you never imagined you’d be speaking to are now some of your closest friends. Life makes little sense, and the more we grow the less sense it will make. So make the most of now, before it all changes once again, because in the near future, all of this is only going to be memories."

Went to school today feeling a little :(

Was pretty tired too. GP for 2 hours, no joke man. We were watching some video concerning the equality of men and women in certain communities around the world. Quite an eye opener to know how some culture works. Ha, however, barely 15 minutes into the video and my eyes were already on the verge of closing. Occassional laughters from everyone woke me up.

Chem for 2 hours was also not very fun. The beginning of the lesson was funny though. The whole class greeted the teacher like, 3 times?! Each time someone came in late, we have to re-greet the teacher...-.- Plus other stuffs.


Sighhhhhhhhh.

"There's always that one person who will make you want to go to school each morning when you wake up" (:

Second day since school reopened.
Not feeling well.Stomache flu, got MC.
AWESOMEEEEEE.

Do you remember?

First day back at school, only one word to describe it all: Sigh


"Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass, it is about learning to dance in the rain."




Can you guide me through?

Well, 1 am now. School technically reopens tomorrow and my biological clock seems kinda screwed, considering the fact that I sleep at odd timings each night. It's like, I'm becoming sort of nocturnal.

Today was GREAT (:

Was supposeto finish up some homework( Keywork: Suppose ) but ended up doing everything else but finish my homework up. :( Oh great and school reopens on Monday. Whatever.

Heh today i'm kinda happy.

1) I got to see some of my awesome classmates. So long never see Rachel and Beat!
2) It was raining in the morning, so tennis session cancelled. LOL! Not that I don't like to go for tennis of course. Just that, I was super tired this morning and was kinda lazy to get out of bed =X
3)Received heart-warming smses!

Had heart to heart talk with Rach and Beat. We were like chatting happily away until Rachel turned to me and said(roughly),

" Quek... you've changed."

You know, I kinda hate to hear this sentence ever since last year. Maybe not hate but more of, afraid. Cause last year, when people said this to me...it wasn't a good thing and it made them worry.

So I asked, " Err....is it a good thing or a bad thing?"
In which she replied, " It's a good thing! You sound so much more cheerful now!Stay this way!"

Kinda relieved to hear that. Like I said in my previous post, I could now say things that I couldn't last time. Things I used to not be able to accept, I'm slowly coming to terms with it.But I really can't confirm it at the same time, not until when, reality truly sets in. Until I finally experience it, I'll tell you how I feel again. But as of now, like since this year has begun, I sense something different. I didn't know the people around me could feel the change as well. I think...the old Cheryl maybe coming back bit by bit. (: Hopefully if it does, it'll be here to stay and not be like, a temporary thing?

I really think, the previous year has kinda made me grow up, made me stronger. (: Learnt so many valuable lessons, see so many things I've never been able to see and made me treasure the people around me even more, especially close friends.

Close friends are really hard to come by and so if they do, don't let them slip away! More often then not, they'll be the ones that will help you through the darkest periods of your life. I've experienced it! So yea! Sometimes it's really tiring to be the one only wanting a friendship to work out cause it takes two hands to clap. Haha so, sms your close friends now! Say 'Hi' or something or whatever...just do it!


So sad, Bangs left early and my "Wife" fell sick and couldn't come and Russ dao my call :(Tifffffffany(: 5 years + 7 days and counting!


Hehe, my twin kinda asked me to be brave and go cut bangs yesterday. But...I didn't. BOO! Cannot lah, what if the haircut turns out bad...I swear I won't wanna go back to school even more.

My mum's the best. I cut my hair yesterday right? She asked me this morning,

"Do you need to go have a haircut since school's reopening soon?"
"Huh, but I just cut yesterday! You cannot tell !?"
" Oh."

T.T Heart pain,haha annie knows why.

How many I've told you's
And start overs and shoulders
Have you cried on before
How many promises be honest girl
How many tears have you let hit the floor
How many bags you'd packed
Just to take em' back, tell me that
How many either or's

I'm glad, I can now confidently say things I couldn't last year (:

Why do holidays pass like so fast but when we're schooling, time crawls by? As the reopening of school draws closer and closer, I'm actually getting quite scared already.

Gonna treasure all the time that's left!


Cause' you left me, police scenes, chalk lines
Tequila shots in the dark scene of the crime

& so, school reopens tomorrow.....for most students, besides the JC people. You know, in Secondary school, though you kinda dread to go to school when school reopens, it's mainly because you don't wanna face all the work and the new syallabus and stuff? Now, when school reopens in JC, I don't wanna go back to school for every single possible reason that exists. School would be the place I would want to stay furthest away from. Especially this freakin' school. GAHH!

Oh god, my new year's day just got awesomer.

Countdown this year was well, pretty okay. Spent the first day of the year with a bunch of people I love so much (: Wooooyeah.

& most importantly, I LOVE MY DAD (:


I know I kinda made my dad very sad and worried last year :( My bad. Actually last year, at one point of time, I was so angry with my dad over certain reasons, but seeing how he supported me till the end of everything, I guess it's kinda my fault.This year I'll try my best not to. I've got the most awesome dad in the world! A dad who's more of like a friend who you can crap with, a dad which none of my friends are afraid to talk to or crap with, a dad who's got good patience, a dad who's more than willing to go shopping with his daughter, a dad who supports me no matter how disappointed he is, basically a dad that...is so great that I'll never want to exchange dads with anyone! HAHA (: Though sometimes naggy and well, would often talk about things I don't wanna listen to...but oh well, if my dad could tolerate all my nonsense for the past 17 years, what more can I say?


Hmm.I can't actually believe it's already 2010, a new year...and hopefully a new beginning. Last year felt so, unreal. Like, I was living in some kinda dream or rather...a nightmare. Maybe due to the fact that half of the time, I was like just going through the motions of everything just for the sake of doing so and not realising what I was actually doing. I don't think you'll understand what I mean. Maybe I was stuck in time as well, stuck in some past. But yeah, bottomline is : I can't believe one year has passed and yet another has just begun.



Ain't going to be an easy year, definitely. Highly likely to hear or see things I don't want to, could be done intentionally or unintentionally, but I should really just learn how not to care and bother about such things because certain things and feelings, you wouldn't understand unless you're the person experiencing it. They're not me, so whatever. It's also a year to test the strength of friendships. Won't elaborate why. Someone told me something yesterday and it kinda struck me that yeah,I should get myself mentally prepared. I'm quite scared actually, like you don't know how things are going to be like, all the uncertainty and possibilities that may occur but whatever it is, I've got to stay strong, got to keep the faith.

" When you feel like giving up, recall why you held on so tightly in the beginnning"

New year's resolution! I made like one last year, I remember. But, it didn't come true or rather, it wasn't fulfilled. This year, hopefully...this time, it'll be better.

Okay so here's wishing everyone A HAPPY NEW YEAR, may 2010 be a happy one for all.

365 days since then.