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Gah,i'm currently using my mum's computer to blog because my laptop 'DIED' on one of the most screwed up day of my life(26.7.07). Damn it, what will happen to all my photos and my documents and my songs!!! I have no backup of all these,UNFORTUNATELY.Argh! My Japan trip photos....they contain sentimental memories T.T 2B'06 chalet photos too...MaMas outing photos...

Emelynn told me this afternoon that the worst case of depression was to be depressed over nothing and so,how about being depressed over something? I wouldn't say i'm depressed now...just greatly upset over many matters that happened recently.

Suddenly, i really miss 2B again...and i'm not the only one.

It's been really hard the last few days...really really hard.

It certainly wasn't a good day.

I was a little put off by stuffs before recess. It wasn't any better after recess as i got to know,well...i don't want to elaborate.I've been screwing up every single damn thing that comes my way recently though with my determination to get things right.

English oral was freaking shitty. Mrs Koh was my tester...Why do i always get the HODs to test me on oral? Right.So i fully utilised my 10 min preparation time,i read the passage at least two times...and i did a nice plan out of the picture conversation but when i got there...everything just freaking screwed up when she started asking me on the general question of the picture. I didn't bring out what i initially planned to say....i hum and hawed and obviously mrs koh wasn't convinced at my explanations. Yeah and when she said " thank you" after i finished talking about the picture,i wanted to pick up my bag and leave and i actually forgot ALL ABOUT THE CONVERSATION ASPECT UNTIL...mrs koh reminded me.OMG,how far more can i actually screw up? See what i mean by I'm screwing up every single thing that comes my way...


I don't know what to do any longer...

it's been nothing but a bad day...

BOO!

Finally i feel like blogging again. I can't really remember what happened for the past two days. Well,i certainly love the weather.It's perfect and conducive enough to drift off to lalaland. It explains why i can never last through physics,math and language lessons in the past two days.

Today...eh,i don't know. What i can remember is the assembly's talk. Ha,it was pretty funny to sit through it.

Just in case you didn't know,mosquitoes fly-Said by principal =,='

Mr Koh was very funny too...so next time when you really feel like blabbering out the four letter word which starts with 'F', replace it with " good morning!". Oh and being exceptionally irritating can also be considered as bullying...HEARD THAT WYNNE!?!

Gah, i have a bad feeling i'm so gonna fail every single test i took recently. Yesterday's chemistry test was a flop,additional math...already gone case and further proved by ms wong.& i have a strong feeling that when i receive all papers back, i'm gonna be really.. .. .. .. .. ..


English oral tomorrow.Wish me luck...just when i thought i wouldn't have to face any oral in a long while,this had to come along...gah.

A long long way to go...

In the morning...well i came a little earlier to school to meet beatrice,jiamin and geraldine.& well,i got sabo-ed by someone=,='and and! he sabo-ed me with someone i didn't really know,imagine how awkward it'll be next time.When asked why i was the one being sabo-ed and not tiffany,he said i was more fun to make fun of.ARRRRRRGGGGHHHH!!??Like that also can=,= Also,talking and negotiating with him probably shortened my life by a couple of years because he kept making the situation more awkward although i kept pleading him to stop.


Anyway!We had a pretty fun time yesterday night. We were all busy preparing for the event in the afternoon....

Yep,quite a number of people came.Let the pictures do some of the talking yea?

The tables were nicely decorated with music scores =)

Hello people =)

It's racial harmony day! Let's all leave in happiness and peace as one big family ^^ okay ... so anyway, it's been a relatively fine day today i guess. Started helping out the sec ones with their tile design at the basketball court with the others. Later,had to "tour" the sec2 level with shuwen to supposedly help out if needed but they had teachers there to do so,whee! Lastly,we helped out in the arts amazing race...i was the trail guide of 3A,yep.

Maths test was...T.T I'm gonna let down those who had tried to help me the past few days. Yingcong would probably faint when my paper's being returned.He's been helping me to understand the topic better the past few days...fiona had helped too and so were many others.Sorry friends...

Don't worry, i won't give up on myself. I was worst off last year and i still pulled through didn't i? I've already made a bet with wynne,wanyin and rachel for the common tests =) Gosh,i love them so much^^ though they can be irritating at times ,HAHA. For example,i scratched wynne's arm several times yesterday because she deserved it,muahaha.

After the test in the afternoon, jiamin and i quickly finished up what we had to do with the help of geraldine and indah.Actually many people had helped us recently...well,you should have seen a whole lot of us at the assembly area yesterday afternoon.Making citation cords ROCK!Really really!Thanks people =) After we were done, the four of us proceeded to PP to shop! Geraldine and indah helped jiamin and i to look for nice clothes^^ After some time,we finally found what we liked.At a point of time, jiamin and i wanted to buy the same thing to wear...it'll be so fun!In the end,we both bought similar ones =D Thanks Geraldine and Indah!

Oh and two of my juniors thought i was angry at them today...and they said i looked emo. Well, i wasn't angry...and i wasn't emoing.Just that when i have earphones in my ears and a song is playing,i TEND to look emo but i'm not emo-ing. & well, like 80% of the time when i have nothing better to do, i can't live without music...so yea,you might think i'm emoing the whole day long but in fact,i might just be stoning. Serve you two right,for spanking me like HOW MANY TIMES when i couldn't defend myself because i was carrying stuffs. Guilty conscience right....no wonder both of you thought i was angry.Good to scare you two for a little while =)

Yep yep,tomorrow's gonna be along day. TK band's 40th anniversary dinner @ school =)Loads of alumni coming down...all the way back from the 1960s till recent years ^^

I'm so flunking today's geography test.

Like wth. I stayed up till late at night and woke up early to study but yet, nothing went in. And all i could talk about rivers was about having lesser velocity due to more friction and vice versa. Had no idea how to do the last question hence i left it blank,8 marks gone*faints* Uhh, social studies on the other hand was okay....this should be the second geography test in my secondary school life that i'm so confident of failing,whee!

The day didn't start off too good...shan't elaborate. Anyway i think DM's a nice person =)

So, 3 tests down, 3 more to go.

Physics
Geog elect
Social studies
English
E maths
A maths

Suddenly i recall those moments all over again.
It's been 7 months.
The best i've ever seen...

STRESSED UP. I think i'm going crazy soon.

Physics test.Social studies test.Geography elective test.English test.E maths test.Additional maths test...All coming up real soon.

For now, i've got to settle doing some stupid argumentative essay due tomorrow, maths homework,study for tomorrow's physics test......ARGH!!

Life will never be a bed or roses.
If only you were here...

I wasn't actually planning to blog but after what my mum showed me...i decided to.

Just yesterday, my mum and dad found this card(shown below) in my grandfather's cupboard. Well....never did i expect it actually came from me and my brother. I can't even remember passing this card to my grandfather or worst still,since when do we actually buy birthday cards for our grandfather?We don't usually do that,the norm was to bring my grandfather out for dinner to celebrate each and every year.

Below shows the contents of what's inside the card. Looking at my very own signature on the card,my handwriting...i reckon this card was given to my grandfather when i was about primary5? That was about 4 years ago?

I went to xiaojia's house while waiting for my mum after band yesterday. Look at the dog that's temporarily staying at her house...SO CUTE!! & it's so hyper! Oh by the way, i had loads of fun yesterday at band.Gosh,i shan't reveal the details....i don't want to die early.*private and confidential*

WOOHOO!

I want to scream,i want to shout...i just want to say...CHINESE OLEVEL ORAL is finally OVER!!Finally,after days of worrying...my nightmare's over & i guess i won't be facing any more chinese orals any time soon =)


We were held in the COE room whereby it was freakishly cold even though i had a jacket with me.I LOVE RACHEL AND WYNNE! Probably without them,i would have died. We kinda joked and crapped to relax our nervous-selves till it was our turn. Rachel was up first,then i went in...and Wynne next.

My examiners were...okay?A guy and a woman. I started off reading the passage rather roughly,all thanks to my crazy alien-like accent. It's like...I'm speaking Chinese and yet it doesn't sound like it,yea that kind of thing. The conversational topic was on school initiated punishment,like public caning. I managed to say something but the thing is i got prompted by that male teacher after every 1-2 sentences =,=''I was looking at him most of time...not that he's handsome la...(obviously =,=') I was barely in there for 10 minutes i think and i was out.Good or bad,i have no idea.However,it seems like the others were also prompted many times by that male teacher,hmm.Oh well,what's over is over...not gonna dwell on it.

Now for pictures!

Argh!!

i don't want to go to school tomorrow! Imagine having to face not one but TWO examiners...and to make my agony worst,i'm one of the last few to be tested. Oh my...

panic panic!

I'm so tired...i feel like sleeping right now =,= ZzzZzzzZ

I'm heartbrokened. My phone's screen has got this small little crack or scratch on it....Damn it,why must something ALWAYS happen to all my handphones' screens within 2-3 months of their arrival?! T.T

Lessons were...okay?I almost K.O-ed during physics though which was after recess. The only thing i like about today is having geography for the last two lessons.GEOGRAPHY ROCKS!

After school additional maths lessons were not bad...because i had fun laughing at all the lame jokes cracked by friends. Yingcong and Saiful got tricked by Jeremy and they couldn't figure out what fiona and i were actually laughing at,so sad. Tried it on Ms Wong but she was on her guard,ms wong's pretty smart ^^

Chinese oral practice with weilaoshi was as usual...it was very disastrous for me.Panic panic! O level oral's on wednesday...though he said i've made improvement,i kinda doubt so.I think he's like only trying to get me not to give up on it at this point of time...

Wish me luck,i seriously don't know what else i can do and what would happen on wednesday T.T I realised i am actually pretty stressed up over school work and stuffs recently.To be exact,i only realised after a few friends came asking me,i think it's a good sign.At least i hope i'm taking things more seriously now...

Save the Earth people! (=

Today's 7th july 2007,in another words 07/07/2007. Nice date eh? So,woke up to a brand new day with a sky blanketed with gloomy clouds accompanied by claps of thunder and rain.

Nothing much to blog about...maybe i should just go to sleep.

See you!

The five of us just sat there talking about loads of stuff and even got really emo at times...and some went crazy whenever advertisement on korea flashed across the screen. After three hours, i was still reading through that very same page of my notes =,=

School was a bore.English lessons almost sent me off to dreamland.Chinese lessons were superb slack this week...as usual he was testing some peeps on oral while wanyin and I went to nap.It felt as though only 10 mins passed but it was already 12.40pm and the thing is, the 2 of us never really slept,weird eh...


anw,happy birthday bro! that is,if he ever finds this blog...lol.

I'm GLAD that everything that happened over the past few days has finally ENDED. Phew, what a emotional ride. Must say those 2 very brave...because they kinda started the whole thing going . The first one came over during lunch yesterday with her usual spastic-looking smile and it almost made me choke on my drink just by looking at her =,='. Second one...haha,happened today...but i can't remember what she did.Anyway, kw was superb schizo today,for god knows what reason.

Today...i think i was happier and crazier than usual. Haha,even jeremy asked why i wasn't my usual emo-self...lol,i don't know! Everything seems so unusual to me today.Somehow, i was hooked onto the readers' digest book...i was actually pretty engrossed in two featured articles in the book.How often does that actually happen?Like once in a blue moon?Well...you should read the article on how this stupid,heartless,idiotic guy killed his wife for money and and! this article on how this girl took her first Ecstasy pill from a friend and died from it.Poor thing,she was like what...12-13 years old?

Chemistry lessons after school was...okay...but but! i kept having the urge to laugh. See, i don't know what's wrong with me today. After lessons,beatrice,jiamin and i went around to collect "debts" from people. They say at our age,it's sort of the 'rebellious' stage currently and i think i totally agree.Rebelling is fun,but of course not over the limits. I felt so much like rebelling against 2 people this evening.Nincompoops! But okay okay...i'm listening to sis's advice =)


whee~

HAPPY BELATED YOUTH DAY?!

Stay cheerful and young!


Credits: sarah Wait wait,should i even call it credits?? Sarah,you wait. You're gonna get killed by jessica,michelle and myself tomorrow. I'm so not horny lah! =p

The " I love you" hand sign.Guess whose hands are these ^^Why does jessica's hand look so manly in this photo? & her finger looks exceptionally long too...

Exactly one year ago, on the 1st of july 2006, we won the best display band tittle.How time flies eh? & 364 days later, we were back on that very same field doing the things we used to do.It felt great.


Things went smoothly until ...... I don't want to elaborate because i don't even know what happened.After our performances were done,we were allowed to watch the football match for a little while. I didn't. You could hear the whole stadium roaring with cheers for whichever football team that scored a goal or lost one.

Went back to school around 9+ and we managed to catch a glimpse of the fireworks from our school's field =) Heart-shaped firework <3

Sec4s officially steps down. Kinda saddening to see them go. Several juniors and seniors broke down,arh...we'll miss you guys!

Clarinet sec4 seniors:

-Michelle Ann Kwara!!
-Peixuan!!
-Hilma!!
-JiaJun!!

Thanks for everything you've done for all of us =)

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Everything that happened later just spoilt my mood thoroughly. They probably never realise it because it's the best thing they do everytime that i'm so effing used to it already. Just by looking at the facial expressions and all, the sarcasm in the words....i can't be even effing bothered to reply or say anything.What's the freaking use? You guys don't even understand.

& maybe that's the reason i never really wanted you guys to be there,because you guys will never ever appreciate other than showing your displeasure.And soon enough you will bring things up about me not being happy because of this.WTF!?Tell me,who in this world will be happy after going through all these time after time?Man,speak for yourself!

You know what, i guess i won't further elaborate anything else to you. Afterall,would you even care?