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Posting...
Okay.Whatever.Expected.


A month.
Will you even...at least,try?

You don't have to read this if you don't want to.Cause it's really long.After reading this,you may go..." emo again". ZZZ,but whatever? I'm telling you I'm not now, so don't assume.=D

Hmm. Tomorrow's the day. I don't know how I'll feel...it's like I'm prepared yet I'm not.Okay,my heart's beating super fast now,thanks to a lot of people. They're making me more nervous about tomorrow.I think I'm not holding too much hopes?The higher it is,the greater the fall.Oh crap,saying it is easier than it being done man!


So,here we go all over again tomorrow. It's been almost like hell for the past two weeks,having to deal with everything ... mostly on my own. So many problems...all at one go. It was seriously suffocating and oh god...the emotional turmoil. Hmm.





But thank god, thank god I had like a lot of people to talk to me to keep me occupied and stop my thoughts from straying. Though I couldnt say anything much, still they just talked and entertained me!(: Thanks Geng & Fiona. They both sound like...so alike! Their advice, their comments, their everything...all same! Omg. " Don't think too much okay?=D"Lol. I think I see this practically everyday!But thanks a lot.Shigeng wants me to thank him also for the super super super long paragraph he wrote just now to enlighten and encourage me... so here's a big THANK YOU to him. Haha.




Then there was Bao, XiaoJia and Jessica. My life savers. Most of the time,they kept my mind occupied,kept me occupied.We just kinda,hung out a lot...and did different stuffs. I think it was mainly because of them, I kinda got out of everything,got out of the crap,stopped thinking about everything,giving myself a freaking break from everything which I so freaking deserve. It helped so much, so much that I even forgot that tomorrow's the day of the posting.MAMAs are the <3! Next was Wanyin and Ryan. Wanyin, haha...woman of quite few words. But whenever I needed her,she was there<3. Ryan on the other hand, hmm...he accompanied me online that night when I was super down. I couldn't sleep, cause i don't know...everything that I was bothered about came to bother me. My coucilors and darlings were all by that time, already asleep...so he agreed to stay to keep me occupied. Thanks Ryan...












Spastic to the max la. The sword and shield Vs the hammer plus 1 onlooker standing around,digging her nose.LOL!Makes no sense.But we still did it anyway,HAHA!Omg.


Warning: Do not try this at home.Like,obviously it's real? not real lah! lol.Camera trick camera trick!Lol belinda look so cute right? And jessica looks like she's enjoying herself faking this photo,LOL! xD For goodness sake,do yourself a big favour, don't be a retard and go try this for real at home okay?-.-

MAMAs(:

& finally,the short one...for once, is taller than all of us.

Lastly, thanks Tiffany for the Birthday and Christmas present! Love it! Haha, still...she knows what I like best! (:

Whatever the result maybe tomorrow, let's hope for the best. I don't know if I'll have the mood to blog or not...we'll see.



Three words.

CNY in a few days...not looking forward to it.
But anyway,Happy advance CNY everyone.



Saw this on someone's pm.
''What do you do when the only person that can stop you from crying, was the one who made you cry?"
What will you do?

I'm really tired.
Not physically I guess, but emotionally.

& something's wrong with like,everyone. Maybe wrong is not the right word to use. But something's amiss.Seriously. Everyone's like so moody. I can talk to 5 people,and 4 are moody. Some,given. I know why. Some...I don't know why.

Cheeeeeeer up,people (:

The new year has been crappy so far. After the first day,everything else went wrong.


I really really need...
as in REALLY?

Haha, it's interesting to know what comments people have of you,their perception and everything.Especially those really unexpected and random kind?(Like what Fiona's brother thinks of me.ZZZ.) I know the usual comments I hear from people all around me(: Two of which are three-letter words. Think you can figure it out on your own.


Actually I did type the reasons why I seem to be like that, but then again...I don't really have to explain it for you to know why. If you know me,you'll know why? All I can say is, I may seem like those three-letter words but actually I'm not?At times yes, at times no? Blah. Whatever.


I'm sorry?
Never ever intended it to be this way.

The feeling of frustration when you can't say what you want to and what you really need to.
The feeling of frustration when things change.
The feeling of frustration when everything else goes wrong.
The feeling of frustration when you just don't get it.
The feeling of frustration when you feel like history's gonna repeat it's damnself again.
The feeling of frustration when you just don't know what to do or say.
The feeling of frustration when you just don't seem to care anymore.

This isn't what I intended?

Well, and there's no need for you to guess what i'm referring to.


Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings?

Another great day out with the homies(: Thanks for celebrating huiwen's + my 17th birthday!

Must thank Fiona for bringing the swensens ice-cream cake all the way to marina square!Thanks Fiona!



Yummy!
Actually, I wanted to take an a picture with my twin only but as you can see, the two behind are posing for the picture too. -.- EXTRA.

AGAIN.-.-


Okay! Now they've got their own photo.Haha.
Soon.
Fiona and saiful with my bag =X



Well,thanks for everything guys. Great day, great company, good food, nice cake, nice memories(:

If only.

I didn't really enjoy this day only because, .

But thanks to those who remembered my birthday, those who wished me and for those birthday presents. They meant a lot.



Foolish.

Today wasn't that bad because i was out with THEM. (:

The last few days have been like crap,seriously. At first the feeling was okay, but when reality started to settle in,I finally felt it.It's so freaking tough to make 12 choices and stick to it. For me, I've just submitted my registration and damn, I was afraid to press the freaking 'submit' button. So my fate's kinda sealed now. Shan't think about it, if that's even possible.


& so,there's one last thing bothering me now. Oh god. I don't know what to do anymore? I'm trying.It makes it even harder to go through all the registration crap,it makes it even harder for me to sleep in peace for a night,it makes it even harder for me not to think about anything else but this,it makes it even harder for me to be happy at all. Sigh. I can't do this, I can't do that either so what am I suppose to do?Keeping everything in is like,so torturous but...I don't want to make things worst as well?The after effect of voicing it out made it even more crappier.ARGH.I'm trying.Really trying.I've got my own limits too?Argh. This wasn't what I expected just days before my...nevermind. What I want is kinda simple. All I want is... ...


Anyway, there've been several people who have been of great help to me in the past few days.
All are of equal importance.Thanks to:

1)Youshouldknowwhoyouare- You rock!Keep rocking on my dear (: Will be supporting you always. Prove the others wrong. Even if you don't have the other two, i'll be here.

2)MAMAs-The ones that were there first (: Thanks for everything. They kept my mind off everything on the first day. Love them!

3)F.C.H.H- For the constant support and encouragement, thanks a lot (: Oh and for tuesday,when i needed to escape from -.-... Must thank my twinnie too!(:

4)SG-Been ranting a lot everytime,recently...I know =X Sorry...ha,but thanks a lot! I know you'll be reading this right!(:

5)Cong's sister- She's friendly. She kinda enlightened me and explained to me a couple of stuffs (:

6)Cong- For everything la.Ha. Though I still chose the other path,but...=/ yea.

I think I should kinda thank my dad too. He's the best dad ever (: Though I don't tell him this but yea, thank god I have a dad like that.

Okay. I don't know how to sleep now.

Oh,and happy birthday Ryan!=D



Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no

Tough.



I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away

It wouldn't be the best birthday this year.

Oh crap,2 days more.=/





Been thinking about tons of stuffs recently. They were frustrating. Thankfully, to get that whole lot of crap off my mind I was kept occupied with happier stuffs. I'm being constantly reminded to by my 'counsellors' anyway,haha!(:



By about this time tomorrow night, I should start freaking out. Oh no.





Once,twice,thrice...

Why not?

An ideal result would be my best birthday present ever this year.


It's been so long.

New Year Celebration was ... interesting.


Well,there was no fireworks in sight,just an empty road with with some cars passing by infront of us and then the time came,so we started wishing each other(: Haha!

Then off to huihoon's house xD We did nothing much but it was still enjoyable with your friends around. Watched a movie till about 4am before I left for home.=X


Yesterday when I was on my way out, I saw a bunch of school kids coming down from the bus and in my mind I was like, " Poor thing,it's the holidays and they still must go back to school." Then after while, I realised...school reopened already! oh my. Shouldn't I be in school too xD Nah.


Normally about this time, I would probably go like," Oh crap,have you done all your holiday homework?No?! Eh,me too!Hi-five!Let's die together."(: Aww,I miss those days.


My new year resolution would be to...