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Tired.




Why does time pass so slowly?! The first month in school is not even over yet & i'm super exhausted already.Think many people are too. Tutorials tutorials tutorials. Sickening.



Road Run yesterday was fine. My twin and I had a nice private time,way behind the rest. After everything was done with, we went back to TK to visit some teachers and well,return my instrument. I miss TK,a lot. So many memories there.

Corridor outside 4E(:We used to walk this path practically everyday, we used to spend so much time together, playing,making a nuisance of ourselves,studying=/ and just enjoying ourselves with one another...i miss those times.

Was reading my past posts, 2007's to be exact. It took merely three days, for 3E'07 to open up and start making a hell lot of noise that pissed so many teachers off. I forgot how long I took to settle into 3E. I don't know how long will I take to settle into this new class of mine,this new environment, with a whole lot of new friends, new teachers...new everything.

Blah.

Anyway, so cool. Just yesterday, after watching a movie with Fiona,Soon,Geng and twin...we saw a rainbow! And before that it rained! So does this somehow prove that every after storm/rain, there'll be a rainbow?

I hope so. I'm still waiting to see my rainbow,no matter how short-lasting it may be.

Will the truth even matter,right now?'

So my parents sensed it. So did my brother. But I can't say anything besides,'nothing'.

Like BenSoon told me last monday,

"Quek, there'll always be a rainbow after a storm....," (sounds so encouraging and comforting right...)

...& then he continued...

"but, the rainbow will last really really short" =.=!!! Everyone at the table was like,"Walao Soon! zzz!" In most circumstances,you wouldn't add on something like that to an encoragement if you're trying to cheer someone up,but...aiyah,it's Soon. LOL!But, after this somewhat "inspiring" thing Soon said, i can't help but smile and laugh. Spastic can. It did cheer me up,definitely.


I guess, I really thank god I have the four of them in my school. Fiona, Twin, Geng and Soon. Hmm,though they're totally clueless and probably, bewildered when they saw how I was like last monday, they made the day more bearable...and the days that came...and even now. In a totally new environment,at times like this, what you need are....such people to help you pull through the day! (: Yeah, love them. <3

Oh, and lol,i'm totally fine with Soon now. We no longer have' problems 'with one another.HAHA! Ps: we don't actually have problems with one another la,just joking around with one another only...(:but now he has 'problems' with Fiona =/ Here we go again~ ha.

Can I not go for road run tomorrow? -.-

If only time could rewind.
There are so many things, that I wish I could undo and redo.


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Tag replies

Alison: Neopets got such thing?Ha...okay.
Shuhan: Lol,thanks...yea I got in.Surprisingly.Yea,the stage walk was like...-.- argh!
Twinnie: ______ practice was fine. Lol.
Pls enter a nick: Hmm,first and foremost,thanks? But who are you?May I know?
Alsing: Lol,no longer a secret =X Funny though.
Jeremy:Aiyah, your reaction is normal.Cause most of my other friends also have the same reaction as you -.- Sing like duck,cool what. xD
Abigail: Haha!Glad we're the same CG too.

Hmm.
WILL BE AWAY AT CAMP.


Iswhynky... can I...?

Because I trusted.




& all she needs right now,
is a shoulder to cry on.

Argh!I'm super tired.There's practice later,my throat kinda hurt a little now. Those who knows why, SSSSHHHHH.=X

Okay,but have to thank some people first before I go to my dreamland.

Thanks Edmund and Yingcong for the super belated birthday gift!(: It's damn sweet of them to do this kind of thing,it definitely surprised me!

So,once again,thanks to Edmund for folding the stars until your fingers hurt,and to Yingcong for learning how to fold the stars too. Will treasure the gift (:

Oh oh,and and! Happy Valentine's Day people .

It's tough faking smiles and putting on a brave front.

These 2 days were,hmm...okay?

Today was...no-slack day!

Shigeng and I had like, 4 lectures to attend to ( including CME). First was maths. I wanted to faint,like seriously. They were going through all the graphs and everything,everything we learnt in A maths,turning points,maxiumum points,graph shapes,graph formula...Amaths...omg, A maths!?I gave everything back to Ms Chen already luh.

Then came CME. Went to class,met my civics group...and my civics tutor. Guess what,my civics tutor(form teacher in another words) is a chinese teacher and hence, she will be speaking and will be communicating to us in chinese from now on.Not that I'm against it,it's just something very new to me. Then Russell and David were like,"imagine all our CME lessons in chinese...omg..." But I think the Chinese teacher looks kinda nice,very friendly but the two of them are like,lol...-.-'' <--- like this. Okay, for myself, I can't communicate in chinese for nuts...I think,if there's those one to one interact sessions with the teacher,I'll just be like Soon, " wo shi shi wu sui" (:

Finally a break!We played UNO! Super funny at the beginning la. So it's like this,we were sitting at a round table, going anti-clockwise,Soon,Fiona,Me,Anne,Shigeng.Fiona,Anne and I wanted to sabo Geng,by putting all the 'draw two/draw four' cards...but annie didn't have such a card,so i tried to pass her a card from my side via under the table.LOL!Then sadly,we got caught by Shigeng and started laughing our asses off. Afterwhich,Soon and Geng also started cheating...zzz.They hid cards here and there,and somehow...they suddenly had many of those 'draw two/draw four' cards in their stack of cards. =.=

GP was like,blah. Felt sleepy. Argh,had to stay in the audi for like two hours,cause after GP we had Chem.It was freezing cold in the audi! After school,lunched out with Geng,Fiona and Soon at some nearby Macs. We kinda wanted to explore the places around our school. Soon was as usual funny la,in a spastic way -.-I can't exactly explain how funny,you should just be there to see and experience it for yourself.Soon got really paranoid after Shigeng said his hair looks damn weird. Haha! He was asking us to rate his hair upon ten and even on the bus,when i was bus-ing home with him...he kept asking me if his hair looked like a disaster.=X

Blah...I don't wanna go to school...argh!


Can't breathe.
Need distraction.
Need to scream my frustrations out.
Need to ____ & ____ _____.

Not a good day. Sigh

Anyway, it was soon's first day with us. Got to take a glance at the people in my class and my CG tutor. Surprise surprise, I see my primary 6 classmate in the same class. Hmm.

First lesson up! Econs.-.- Since the four of them didn't have to go for econs, I went with Angie,Russell and David. Sigh...somehow I felt really sleepy after econs lecture. I don't know why.

Break. Next,the other four had to go for physics lecture,so I'm left with Alex and Russell to stone at the cafe for another hour or so. Sigh. Russell somehow made me kinda stressed up after listening to him talk and everything...rar. Somehow,after coming to this school, I've started talking to tksians that I've never really talked to before. Not that it's bad,it's good(:

Stoned and then stoned somemore. Lastly,geography lecture. I wondered if I was in somekind of social etiquette class or was I in a geography class. My teacher was telling us how to sit,how to speak properly..bla bla bla...a lot on social etiquette.Can't blame her,she was a social etiquette trainer before.Good thing is,she's kinda funny.

Oh god, I can't help but laugh everytime Soon starts smiling at me because of THAT. Shigeng also! ZZZZZZZ. Then Soon will ask why I keep smiling to myself...zzz! I'm not smiling to myself,I'm trying to control my laughter by not looking at him...cause he will remind me of THAT.ZZZ (: Haha.


Homies met up after school (:

Somehow,I'm starting to dread school. I don't know why.

I just can't do it

Edited.

Okay. My brother's talking to me on facebook currently as I type this. "Why talk on facebook!?"you may ask. He's in camp, you see. I think he's super random cause he's talking to me over this,

Bro:You so free,can come online?Go study la!
Me:I just came back from studying?!
Bro:Aiyah,study more wont die one what
Me:Huh! Now what time already!? (I typed this at 11.15pm)
Me: Study too much my braincells will die! ( Lol,excuses...)
Bro: Now...11.17pm.Aiyah now just start only,how to die...
Bro:Eh,you got a friend called Fiona Chia is it?
Me: Yah,haha...why?
Bro: I know her meh?She suddenly add me on facebook.
Me:HAHA,i also don't know why she added you...maybe because you know,your sister so nice,so maybe she think you'll be a nice person too?=X HAHA
Bro:........... yah keep telling yourself that.-.-

Haha! Okay, self praise is bad. =X =X I don't know why Fiona added him,think she's just being random. -.-

Today, met up with soon,saiful,twinnie and Chia. Supposed to do some revision, did some...and then..... ....and then.... lol. You go figure.

Dinner time was fun! We kept playing this game called 'fuzzy wuzzy'. I took damn freaking long to figure out how to play this game,only Saiful and Twinnie knew how to play and they couldn't tell us how to play it,we had to figure out on our own.Then there was another game called,"black magic' Well.Relax,there's no real black magic involved of course. It's just this really lame game...that again,I took damn freaking long to figure out how to play until Soon, had to give Chia and I really obvious hints.HAHA! =X


Hmm,I kinda miss all those times spent with the homies doing such lame stuffs together.=/ And btw, Soon's our fifth musketeer (: WHEE~


Memory Lane.


Listen to me hear what I say,
I don't wanna feel,
the way that i do,
I just wanna be,
... ...
...
..

=(

WHEE~!

I'm happy! I was praying very very very very very hard, that I would be posted to a class with at least two people who I know and guess what! God granted me my wish! After one week in school, I've only found out two people taking the exact same combination as me. 1) Russell. 2) David. So guess what! We're all in the same class! (: (: (: I know both of them, all ex-classmates,ex-schoolmates. Woa, will be in the same school as David for 12 years! And Russell for 6 years. =D =D =D Weird thing is,my class has a mixture of people taking H1 Bio and H1 Geog, I think every class has a mixture. Oh well.

The sad thing is, Fiona, Shigeng and twinnie all talking the same combi as each other but different from me!!=( So we'll be in different blocks I think. Well,most of us at least have one tksian in our class...so it isn't that bad.=D

Super tired today. CCA trials are like,bleah -.-

The next thing I wish for would be, I hope my classmates are all a fun batch of people!!Something like 4E please (: (:


Miss everything.

I'm practically blogging everyday about the activitives we do. If you're not interested,you don't have to read it (:

Today, I was supposed to go for only Econs and Maths lecture but in the end, I decided to sneak myself into some lectures with Fiona,Shigeng and Cheryl. So, after morning assembly, the four of us settled ourselves at the cafe area again and I slacked until about 9am before I went to the Auditorium for Econs. Econs is...hmm,a little like geography I guess. The lecture lasted for about one hour.

Next up, I waited for Cheryl and Shigeng for Chinese lecture! Fiona went for PE. Haha,I didn't want to do nothing for an hour without them,so yeah...might as well go and see what Chinese is like in JC. You know what, I so thank god that I passed higher chinese =/cause the chinese syllabus seem so tough,tougher than higher chinese in secondary school. Shigeng must be cursing and swearing at me now if he happens to read this,LOL! During the whole time we were there, Twinnie and I just kept making fun of Shigeng. I was like,purposely gloating over the fact I didn't have to take chinese anymore while he has to =X =X =X but i know he wont be angry lah,right...Shigeng! Lol!I can't help but laugh everytime when we're at this. It's okay! I'm sure Fiona and I will give Shigeng and my twinnie moral support!(: Time passed really fast,because the chinese lecturer was funny and well,twinnie and I did have lots of fun poking fun at Shigeng.HAHA!=D

Afterwhich,we had another break.

Next up,Physics lecture! Wasn't supposed to go again,but I really wanted to see what physics was going to be like in. I've totally forgotten everything and you bet, I was damn lost. Now I finally understand why Ms Goh's so pro in changing all the different units here and there and everywhere while teaching us. So phew, luckily no physics for me...unless they post me to my second choice!=X


Maths lecture time! Shigeng's,Cheryl's and my lecture slot was scheduled today...and Fiona's tomorrow. We wanted to leave and attend tomorrow's...since we reckoned no attendance taking would be taken and so we could all go home at 1pm. Just when we wanted to leave, the teacher showed the first slide. It was on compulsory attendance and how important it was I think.-.- God's will. So we stayed on-.- & therefore! Guess what, Fiona will be totally free from lessons tomorrrow!ZzzZ!Haha...she can practically slack all the way till dismissal time.Anyway,this was how we were at maths:

"you know what is he talking about?"
"No"
"I don't even know what is he saying"
"you know how to do the questions?"
"Eh,how to do ah..."
"Huh?"

So it was something like that,a compilation of everything. -.-


Supposed to meet Soon after school today. We wanted to walk out from the side gate until we saw like some,media crew or i don't know where those people were from. They had a camera, and the woman was holding a microphone in her hands. So,we didn't dare to go out,in case they wanted to interview us or something. So we waited,for others to try. Another group of students came, they too,saw the crew and turned back.HAHA! Then came a senior. We waited for her. She too, stopped...and turned back when she saw the crew. It was kinda funny,if you were to see everyone's reaction. (: In the end,some brave soul led the way...so we got out.Haha.Nothing happened.

Lalal~ Chem and PE lecture tomorrow....dang -.-


it'll be so wonderful.

Okay, I think I'll just die tomorrow. Shuhan's appeal has been successful(congrats to her =D) and omg, so I don't have her in my orientation group anymore. I so do not want to imagine what life will be like in my OG for the next 2 days at least.

So,I screwed up. Kinda badly. The feeling of screwing up it's like, so sucky but then the feeling of knowing maybe I won't be able to get in was like, okay...so be it? Weird huh. I guess, most of us are just like, fine with our school already. Hmm, thankfully got the whole gang there to accompany me...or else,I think I'll just die there or back out of the freaking audition.Wasn't exactly emo-ing on the way home la, was just very tired and hmm,thinking about stuffs.But just when I was listening to my "best friend",wanting to hear some high,enthusiastic songs,my "bestfriend" decided to turn to the song 'who will I run to',like one of the emo-est song in my mp3...yeah right,who will I run to...Hmm.


Anyway,our OGLs are fun people, mass dance was cool,learnt the school song...HAHA. And what the hell, ShuHan and I got like,sabo-ed by our OGLs to go up to stage to do some cat walk infront of a whole lot of people. Catwalk plus,do three poses.WTH!? So embarassing...I so wanted to find a hole on the stage ground or something to hide my face.Haha...and omg,Gabriel took the video of us doing all that,argh! HAHA,and and and,i didnt make it to choir. I told you I can't sing for nuts,believe me now? xD

After school, we slacked. Wanted to for intro lecture on geography, but...haha...decided to go white sands to meet them instead. On the way there, we saw my darling bao!She was on some orientation tour or something,out of school...what a coincidence!=D Argh,after reaching our destination...i was already like super sleepy.


Then at the other school, I saw my other darling xj! Omg. She stayed with me to help me practise. =D The other homies also were there, so we had like loads of the homies there to like,support me and huihoon (:


So,hmm. That's all for today?


I really wanted to, but...because I remembered that 6 words you said.

Okay,I promised some to update them on orientation. So...

First day of school was like,okay...I woke up, being doubtful of how the day would go like. Then I arrived at school,and couldnt find SG and Fiona though we were on the phone talking to one another. So lost. Finally, before entering the hall, saw a whole group of tksians...and of course, the other 3 musketeers. However,all of us are in different orientation groups. 40 groups in all -.-.Great.Lucky for me, Shuhan is in the same group and so it did help. Orientation group leaders seem like fun people,so that's good.

Then,the day started off with talks. Boring. Yawned a lot...luckily had people to sms.Haha. Very little ice breakers so far,since it's not our exact orientation yet-.-. Tomorrow,Fiona,twin and I have to go for choir auditions...-.-I can't sing for nuts?But what if I get in?Zomg!But the three of us already have something else in mind to join >.<

Well,the college is quite big. Easy to get lost,with two almost identical buildings in the school.After school, the four of us just toured around the whole school...waiting for the intro lecture on physics to start. I'm so not going to take physics! Haha. Interestingly, the cohort in the auditorium seem really enthusiastic. When the teacher flashed the tittles of the physics textbooks,loads of people took out their pen and paper to write the tittles down when we weren't asked to copy, but four of us sitting right at the back,didn't at all.Slackers!Ha. Fiona still went," Wa,everyone so on ah!" -.-

Then school ended. Headed to meet soon and saiful for awhile before heading home.So,that's all for today! All of us are like,so tired. Yawn. Tomorrow's gonna be another boring day,and omg...tomorrow's the day.

So nervous and scared =S My heart's beating super fast now,imagine tomorrow. No, I don't want to imagine.Sigh, I'm in no mood for practice,but...no choice I guess...


Afraid...
=(

I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and runaway yeah
I just want to fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and runaway yeah



But I can't.

Tomorrow...
New school...New friends...Life without friends you are familiar with...and life without... ...
I wonder how it'll feel like.

Well,like what my twinnie said, haha...tomorrow,the four of us will meet first in the morning and then,the four musketeers can go conquer our school.

Two and a half months of holidays,gone just like that. I think, I did fully utilise this holiday, to spend time with close friends.So yea,no regrets....Okay,or maybe...a few. I wish I could ...



knew it would hurt,but didn't know it would hurt this bad.
The thing I need most would be, .