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My mood's all messed up and my thoughts are in a whirl.


Results were back.Didn't do well,it was extremely bad in fact. Got into the car,got lectured by mum almost immediately...but later on somehow she decided to give me a really really long talk which sent me thinking a little. Now i have no idea to do this or that.To give up or not to give up? Then my dad called home, i told him how i fared and from the his voice,i could tell everything.It made me feel even worse.Something that happened later on just broke the limits.

Today,my eyelids were extremely heavy.I wanted to sleep. My eyes looked abnormally weird today.Jiamin asked where my double eyelids went to.Haha,i must say she's extremely observant=)Some said i looked pale while others commented i looked very tired...in fact,i'm just sick and tired of many many things.Shan't elaborate.

Aces workout went fine,of course it did!^.^

I didn't manage to go back to gmps today.I wanted to see how my primary school mates had changed and so on,it's like so interesting!Sadly,not many 6 charitians'04 went back,mostly the boys i heard from Thomas. Oh well,another time perhaps...when there's more of us there =) but huiwen and i managed to see some of our batch mates from 6diligence and it was very refreshing.Some changed a lot,some of which on the other hand are still the same.



We got back our results from the university of new south wales.My result was totally unexpected and surprising. A distinction with a score of 30/35.Many others did extremely well too =) Finally something to be satisfied about...

Life isn't a bed of roses.Never will,will never be.

This is XJ. Well this smart little girl did something really really great today. I handed her the doughnuts i bought from munchy doughnuts and asked her to hold it for me.Guess what she did?This silly girl headed over to the dustbin and threw it away,thinking i said"throw it for me".I was speechless and so was belinda, $5+ of doughnuts gone like that. At first i thought she was fooling around when she hung the plastic bag over the dustbin but when she dropped it into the bin,omg...Moral of the incident, NEVER NEVER ask xiaojia to hold anything when she's listening to her Mp3,she can't exactly listen to what you say. This has got to be the most interesting hilarious event of the day,thanks xiaojia! =.=''


I've been pretty extremely upset over some matters. After that day,i knew things wouldn't be exactly the same as before.I've wrote a ""story "when i was really really down one night,hopefully...i wouldn't have the chance to post it up here because it will then mark the end of everything.

Today's a good day. I haven't laughed this much in a long long while,I'll elaborate along the way =)

Add maths lecture was as usual but Fiona was pretty unusual on the other hand.In what way? Her spastic actions were totally hilarious.You should haven seen and listen to how she used the calculator,gosh =,=''

PE got both Cheryls a little excited ^^ Want to know why? Bleah xD,don't tell you!

Physics after recess...I've got to admit,it was a bore. My eyelids were getting heavier by the minute and we had 80 minutes to endure? Endurance was extremely crucial at this point of time,=p.


Add maths! We really had to freshen ourselves up but i don't think the splashing of water on our faces really helped a lot. BUT! Omg, today's add math lessons rocked. Okay i don't know how everything started but the people around me and of course,myself started digressing a little.Hmm,maybe a little is an understatement,we actually digressed A LOT. Yingcong's gross,out-of-tune perfect =) singing sent the whole lot of us laughing our hearts' out and we laughed so hard that tears were almost streaming out of our eyes ^^ He was singing the song from high school musical-'we're all in this together'.Simply great, i bet it woke all of us from drowsy sleepy spells.


Sadly,this only lasted through add math lessons. When it came to geography,i don't think i actually thought of anything else but my pillow. I really wanted sleep and so did Fiona.ZZzzZ

After school, we had extra E maths lesson. I've got to salute jiamin seriously=)

Hmm,my dad called home and i indirectly told him i did badly for the common tests.Perhaps i only had the guts to tell him over the phone and not face-to-face. But whatever it is, he was understanding enough to tell me not to be disheartened and demoralised. I know he'll never see this (which i hope he never ever finds this blog or else...) but,thanks dad...i needed that encouragement , BADLY.

It's been a relatively quiet day so far.

I just found out that my dad's going for some overseas trip tomorrow and will be back only in a week's time. I think it's gonna be even quieter the next few days.Gah. I don't want to imagine when my elder brother leaves for NS next year and if my dad goes on trips overseas, then it'll be my mum and i left at home and omg, it's the o level's next year.Oh crap.

Sometimes I wished I had an older older brother which means having 2 elder brothers. I think it'll be so cool,I've always wanted that but,too bad.It's never coming true. Actually an older sister isn't too bad either, if she's nice enough,she could be my confidante!And perhaps,we could go shopping together too^^ Why older siblings and not younger ones you might ask...well because i like the feeling of being pampered by your older siblings when you're the youngest =) & being the youngest somehow entitles you to be able to irritate your older siblings but i don't do that =p i don't wish to get killed so early,thank you.


On on another hand,I think the year's passing WAY WAY TOO FAST. It's passing even faster than last year T.T and it'll be our last year in secondary school next year. I think being in a secondary school rocks far more than being in a primary school.Seriously,i don't think i had this much fun in primary school.

I used to be quite naive when i was younger. I used to think a working life was so much easier than schooling because when i see my dad coming back from work,there's nothing else left to do...like there's obviously no HOMEWORK and major tests or exams to study for and life seemed so calm and non-stressful. But the truth was a far cry from that. As i grew older and more matured, i saw more pains of a working person. The working industry is more sophisticated than it seems and although there's no homework,everyday is actually a test. A test against time and everything else. You don't produce the results,you get either sacked or reprimanded by your superiors.& i don't actually think there's such thing called as true friendship when you're working,each man works and fends for himself. Maybe you may want to call this the working life reality?

Thus in a nutshell, i think schooling in a secondary school is one of the best spent time in one's life,at least i think it was/will be for me.Treasure the remaining time guys! =)

It's been a really sad sad week,for me at least.

Firstly, I would like to say sorry to some of my closest friends. I never had the intentions to make you guys worry over me. I'm sorry if my mood or actions for the past few days had made all of you upset in any way...I know i haven't been talking a lot and I'm not like my usual crappy self and yes, I'm sorry if i tend to not reply or respond to questions when asked. I'm sorry cause i somehow scared all of you with my current moody-self. I'll try to concentrate on cheering up like what you said but then again,like i said...no promises,because i know there'll be another round of such stupid stuffs next week. Then again,no worries...I'll be fine,rest assured.You'll see the same old me soon.


Secondly,thanks to my dearest classmates!=) I think you guys rock...the spastic and hilarious acts would never fail to make me smile.

Erm,by the way...all these weren't meant to be emo.

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On the brighter side...


We had our humans enrichment class on Wednesday and i think it went great.I thought the 4 hours would bore me to death but who knew time past really really fast. So,what made it so fun?My hilarious fun-loving classmates=)

We did a couple of group works and all were great.My group members were fantastic! ^ The above photo shows one of our group work being presented and well,that tall tall guy there was our instructor.

I'M SICK OF IT.

You don't even know what I'm going through and there you are making every single DAMN thing worst for me. Don't put the freaking blame on me when i was not at fault,i don't feel sorry for ANYTHING. I have no idea why i'm even here,so why am i here?

I did what i could do,at least i think I've done my best but what's the freaking use.

Don't tell me that life's good,because it isn't.

My day didn't start off smoothly. Reached school like when the music was already playing but i still wanted to go back to class , the MaMas waited for me and xiaojia...and in the end,we were one of the last few sec threes left walking down so had to kinda run and rush down. =,=''

Weehee!! PE-aces day workout practice... (^.^)

Chinese lesson. We received back our common test paper. Haha,i think our teacher rocks. I thought it was good start but later,everything just went downhill =( I don't want to elaborate.

Half way through physics, fiona and i got called down by the nurse in that cool caravan(dentalclinic). Met cheryl ann there. Slacked there in the aircon ^^

Addmaths lessons were crap.

Geography on the other hand,so-so...thank god.

After school lessons was okay,but lunch was fun.Kinda cheered me up a lot,thanks to my bunch of friends. Well,there were around 7 of us there at the canteen. We were happily eating lunch when we decided to talk about someone who once found a cockroach in his/her food. Huiwen decided to become paranoid when she saw something suspicious in my plate of lunch=,='' and before i could go closer to like check that thing out ,she screamed.Rofl...argh,you should have been there to watch but nevermind.Anyway,that suspicious looking thingy wasn't a cockroach,phew.

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In the end,i was stressed over nothing. Why bother next time because even when i do,everything still turns out the same.

Hello.

& so, our last minute 2B'06 clique's bbq went okay i would say. Just read on,i'll elaborate with the pictures.
We(yansiang,yiguan,myself and tiffany) kinda rushed back from band to tiffany's house for the bbq.We reached about 7pm and waited for the rest to arrive. Cleaned the area up and tiffany's dad helped to set up the fire.LOL.He did it much much faster than yingcong who tried to set the fire up the last time round.Not much blowing into the fire required,unlike yingcong who blew until he felt kinda giddy =.=''. Hence,presenting tiffany's father in the above picture!Haha,so cute la,actually wanted to bluff the rest and tell them the four of us were the ones who set the fire up but when they arrived,tiffany's father immediately told them he was the one who set the fire up in a rather cute way =p

Phew.We can all sit back and relax now,like finally? But i've got to be honest,it feels awfully weird being not pressed for time and to not do anything related to the textbooks or notes.Though common tests are over, the collecting of results wouldn't be pleasant,i know it. Gah,i should get mentally prepared.

So,the common tests had drained me out by A LOT. I felt extremely tired while taking the tests today. I almost "died" in the last two periods of english. With the air condition in the auditorium, it was making my already very sleepy eyes to become err....very"dry" in that sense thus also making me yearn more for sleep.Yeah, but sleep wasn't on its way because there was band practice in the afternoon.

OOOHH! We saw a rainbow after band today,it was pretty=) I've been wanting to see one for the longest time but my wish has been fulfilled now^^

HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY WANYIN !!!

I seriously hope things would work out and get better and then we can all go back to where we were once.

MUGGING TIME...

It's been mentally tiring for me for the past few days...once again,i feel so hardworking all of a sudden. At least i'm disciplined enough to rush home and start on serious 'business'. Monday's mugging session was the craziest.2 Humans paper + 1 math paper= RETARDED. Why can't the school like space out all papers,are they so pressed for time?ZzzZz...

I think everything is so screwed up now.

& I don't know....but i think depression's on its way...

Life freaking sucks at times like this.

I really shouldn't be blogging right now but argh,heck.

Yesterday we all had loads of fun i guess. Well, i met up with xiaojia first before heading off to suntec to meet the rest.ZzzZ, we took the wrong bus i suppose and ended up somewhere else instead of suntec. Yea,simply great.No panic though, i think we're pretty good in our sense of direction and well...we figured out way to suntec by foot.We've crossed the river kwai and we still didn't know why we were not there.LOL,kidding. We didn't crossed any rivers but we did cross the bridge on the highway...yea and yipee,soon we got there =)

As soon as we got to suntec,we went to find tiffany and kangwei who were patiently queuing for doughnuts outside doughnut factory.The queue's pretty short by the way,THANK GOD. I wouldn't queue for hours just to buy rings of dough,never! I've got better time to waste at.But oh well,i must say those rings of dough are pretty delicious.

Next stop,the supermarket.Uhuh,we've got to buy our snacks to enjoy later=) Nothing much to elaborate but we were all starving because we didn't have lunch...T.T . My feet were already killing me and so were tiffany's in her new shoes =p We decided to head back to where we were supposed to go and rest there.Finding our way there was pretty....erm,puzzling and WARM. We got there through the carpark and as you know...it's warm there =,=' We took awhile,turning here and there...going in between cars and looking at those deceiving sign boards which were supposed to lead us to our destination...anyway,to our relief,we got through the obstacle and got to comfort pretty soon ^^

Tadah! Here we were!We were going to watch the NDP parade from this room...make a guess where we were =p

Phew.It's been a long day.

Woke up at like 5.15am since we had to fall in at 6.45am in school.=,= At 6.20 am,i reached school and this has got to be the earliest timing you'll ever find me in school cause normally i reach at 7.20am?

It was extremely warm being in our uniforms. Performed in our school's internal flag ceremony thingy.....and off we went to perform externally.Argh,skip the performance details.Aww,we missed all the fun in school=(

After band and everything, the 6 of us went out together=) We shopped,talked and ate. Woa,and all 6 of us bought ourselves each a jacket ^^....yea,all six of us!Tomorrow...the nation's birthday...HAPPY BIRTHDAY S'PORE! I think we might have plans for tomorrow as well...^^

Hmm...and i think it's your birthday tomorrow as well,or is it today?I don't know...but nevertheless,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU TOO^^...8 months had flew past,just like that.

tata~

This has got to be one of the worst week ever.I'm on the same boat as you Tiffany=p I read your blog girl,but don't ask how...i've got my ways now! =)

Yea,so this week we kinda received all our papers back and i screwed up most of them. Since last friday actually, my mood was going down bit by bit as each day passed by. I was thinking,would i break down once i see all my results...but nah,didn't. I just became as what my friends would like to call me always,"emo". However, i wasn't really 'emo-ing',i just felt really really upset and disappointed with myself...and at times like this,i wouldn't want to actually talk to anyone. But anyway,thanks fiona for those encouraging letters you tried sneaking under my table or between my foolscap pad=) 3 letters in a week. Maybe i really should thank my classmates one day, their hilarious acts,fooling and joking around actually do lift my mood up at times.Not to mention, those who are trying to help me...yea.

Sister's back.& she could immediately 'sense' that something wasn't right with me though i didn't tell and we were talking online....cool eh,telepathy!Argh,not to mention phang phang....and wanwan(see,i'm not bias!I mention one,i mention all)...thanks for being there this week^^

One week till common test starts. Well, we've been busy with loads of rehearsals for performances recently...one of which is tomorrow.Gah. Long weekend next week,starting from wednesday!Nothing much to be happy about actually,i should actually start studying and panicking now?Yea,i should.Damn it.

Side track.

A personal experience from someone and he shared it with us. Apparently this person was in japan and he hasn't tried sushi in his entire life.He saw some green stuff on the table (wasabi) and thought it was some spread meant for sushi,and hence he went to spread it all over his sushi.You should more or less know what the outcome is.Omg,who would actually spread wasabi on sushi as if he was spreading kaya on his bread la!zZzzZz,nice experience anyway =)


Guess i should get going now...

Five in a row.

What have i done?I guess I've broke my past records...