Tuesday, May 31, 2011
How?So many things to do but so little time.
dont think i forgot
It was me and you against the world @ 8:56 PM
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Don't wanna lose myselfIn the midst of so many things, sometimes I feel like I'm like, losing myself? Sometimes I really hate the situation I'm in. I try hard to keep my original self intact, I try hard to stay out of things I firmly believe is not right to do or comment on, because hey not everyone's perfect. I'm afraid I've changed but thankfully close friends still say I'm the...( and I quote) "retarded and gullible" old me.
I'm not a strong opinionated person, for those who know. I don't comment much or say much unless I'm asked to or when I really have to. Normally I go with the flow because I think it's easier that way, everyone's happier that way. I don't know why but it's just in me to think ( most of the time) how my actions or decisions will affect others. Though I know I've got so many people coming to tell me,' you can't try to please everyone'. True, I know that but it's just in me, I can't take it away.
Maybe it's because I'm so busy and tired nowadays, it's as if I really stopped caring too much for anyone or anything around me. & perhaps, it's also because I've already given up 'chasing' after some people, so done with this 'over-treasuring' thing ,I have literally stopped trying to take the effort to try to find out about their lives. It's sad to see these people drift away but I know I tried enough, they've got my number, if they want to contact me, they will in time to come.
Of course, I still try my best to be there for the people who need me. I just wanna say, to those facing a hard time right now ( especially closer ones ), for whatever reasons, I know that, anyone and everyone can try to tell you that,' hey things are gonna be alright, cheer up!' or whatever that may seem appropriate to say but in the end, you've still got to overcome all the obstacles by yourself. I can confidently say that, no matter how hard your friends try to understand the situation you are in, they will never ever feel the same exact ( shitty) way as you do, you would still feel alone somehow. Too familiar with this, considering the many times I felt this way last year ( for those who know what I mean...) Just got to be strong for yourself, pick yourself up and move on. Sure, easier said than done right? Again, trust that someday it will come true.
Long and tough journey ahead. Like I said, I don't know whether to be glad that the June (so-called) holiday is finally here. ( Oh god, anyway this week was such a drag, kinda unpleasant at some point of time too). But anyway, one thing's for sure this ' holidays'- tons of work to catch up on.
It was me and you against the world @ 12:00 AM
Saturday, May 21, 2011
From this moment on
5 more month. It's really scary.
Making sacrifices seem to be the 'norm' now. Saying ' Sorry I can't' becomes so increasingly often. Imagine, people I used to see so frequently are also now the people who I only see like, after approximately 2 months? Sounds a tat ridiculous, everyone's so busy leading their own lives. But, everytime I receive texts asking for a meet up, I'm actually contented my close friends didn't forget about me despite the situation i'm in! Was itching to attend today's BBQ/steamboat at D's place but decided to opt out of it, who's proud of me? (: Been adapting to adjusting my priorities ( for now) right.
Anyway, I guess it's my turn to give up ( not on myself of course!). Honestly, I've been trying for so long already and I think I did put in my best effort everytime I tried. Sadly time after time I'm being proven that my efforts have gone to waste or my effort is not treasured or needed. Tiring, drained, disappointed enough. So, it's my turn to let this go.
Something totally not related to the para above-Recently, the adults have been telling me I seem very happy-go-lucky and that they should start stressing me more. Honestly, I don't whether to take it as a compliment or should I be upset. Just because I'm almost always chirpy and talking nonsense infront of them doesn't mean i'm not stressed. I've got so much work that I don't even know how to complete them. I come to a point where I seem to be always doing something at a point of time but when I reach say, Sunday night and I realise I've still got so much work left uncompleted, I kinda become puzzled. What exactly have I been doing for the past week? Time just never seem to be enough. :(
Sigh. On the brighter side, June 'Holidays' about to begin in a week's time. I actually rather it not come. Kay, enough said. Have a pleasant week ahead everyone! (:
won't just hang around.
It was me and you against the world @ 1:52 PM
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Actually happened 4-6 months ago.
Wasnt my initial intention to blog about this, had something else in mind. Maybe another time.
& my heart heart heart is so jetlagged.
It was me and you against the world @ 9:19 PM
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Friday Nights.Nothing beats spending time over a simple dinner with your old friends.
Another week gone. No idea what to exactly elaborate on. Recently, I've been listening a lot, to people's problems. Some of them, especially from one particular person kinda made my heart sink a little each time a story is told. I know I'm probably old enough to share this 'burden' with him, like how he shared mine for the past nineteen years but I kinda not know what to do as well.
Anyway it made me further conclude, no matter how strong a person may appear to be, sometimes he/she still needs a listening ear and a shoulder to lean on at times. And I really want to be there for all my friends, for all my loved ones when they need me. I know I wont be able to do much but I would definitely lend a shoulder or a listening ear or anything that's within my means.
Blah, something's been bugging me for the longest time but I'm slowly letting go, slowly giving up. So, anyway, I'm totally enjoying my 4 day work week! School should be like this forever!
It was me and you against the world @ 9:38 AM
Sunday, May 08, 2011
Sports Meet (: 
We came in third for the 12x100 relay run, slashing our previous record timings by 7 seconds ( which we never did previously. Could only reduce it by 2-3 seconds everytime) Kinda awesome. During heats, we were second best in the whole cohort. We were fast, just that others were faster but it's okay! Did our best, even Mr Chua was happy since he was the one who trained us.
Because XY drew this on everyone's arm, after the whole event ended, I went to wash the paint off but only to find out my sunburnt skin had the outlines of the numbers XY drew. Kinda epic. Could feel so many people looking at me on the bus home that day, like puzzled why I had such a weird tanline probably.
So anyway, majority of my guy friends have enlisted into the army already! Felt a tinge of sadness, like everyone's separated from one another now, making it even harder to have meet-ups and all. BUT, I believe if a group of friends are sincere in wanting to keep their friendships going, they would make an effort to contact each other right! Hopefully. Close friends are so hard to find, don't wanna lose any.
Oh and just wanna say, GE 2011 was super exciting. Eye opener, really. & who says youngers these days are ignorant about the country's matters, they're getting more and more involved! You should have seen twitter yesterday night!
Alright,stopping here!
-Quote.
once or twice was enough and it was all in vain.
It was me and you against the world @ 12:40 PM
Monday, May 02, 2011
Impromptu Fun
Experiment Fierce Facial Expression : FAIL
It's important to have whacky friends to spice up your life. Even doing the simplest things together makes me happy. Had my fun laughing my ass off listening to the guys sing Karaoke, I think Russ should have joined choir, be in Sopranos like me. Honestly never thought I would see this side of the guys and girls, it was cool (: At first, we were supposed to go to the beach and suddenly one phone call changed everything, we were heading to town, in beach wear and flip flops. Impromptu much? But still,it was enjoyable and I love these people so much!
The night before, yet again had another impromptu dinner date. Had a heart to heart talk, like we always do. I think I'm honestly a great listener, haha! It's like, come come, talk to aunt agony once more but I really suck at giving out advice and for that...I really feel apologetic. :(
Anyway! I'm totally loving all the long weekends.
No Monday blues yo! (:
Sick of all the insincere.
It was me and you against the world @ 12:22 PM
