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Rainy days are simply not for me. I don't like dark, gloomy days though it's like the perfect weather to bury yourself under the comfort of a blanket and then drift far far away to lalaland. But then again what's the point when you're stuck in school for a long freaking day. Dark gloomy days,especially within this few days, just not the right time.

One by one, I see so many things change. Is it really that hard for things to remain where it was once? Then I compare myself to others, I seem to be in a better off situation. If they had the courage to do it, then I think I should too yea?

Past nights got me to do some thinking. Hung out with the awesome bitch yesterday after school, I guess, really thank god for a friend like that. We've almost got the same kinda situation. We face the same kinda problem. No matter what's been done, we still feel that way.

I know these things take time, lotsa lotsa time. But haven't it been far too long already? At first, I thought I was doing fine. Then suddenly everything came back. Damn. When will it be gone, for good?

Was talking to ME that day, & something ME said really struck me

ME: " Quek, I noticed something about you. You kinda hang on to the past, a lot."

" Uhhh....what do you mean?"

ME begins to elaborate an example, mainly using my group of friends.

" Oh yeah, so true.''

ME:" So do you think it's a good thing or a bad thing?''

" Bad lah, I think..."

I guess yea, so true. I hang on to the past a lot, because it gives me a sense of familiarity. To be honest, I'm not comfortable with changes at all. I don't embrace changes, seriously. To new environments, I take quite some time to adapt to them. To new friends, I needs loads of 'warm-up' time to actually 'open-up' to them. May seem quiet at first but...later...

" Cheryl, I finally see your true colours already. Omg..." HAHAHAH! Like today. PE, 1/2 hour break and then followed by 3 hours of consecutive lessons of all my H2 subjects, no joke. Kept disturbing V who was sitting next to me to keep myself entertained and awake (: But then, died again during choir -.-

Sighhhhhh. Alright, got to go get some work done.
Life sucks, take drugs but at least there's half day off school tomorrow -.- ( which is only like 2 hours off my normal timetble?big deal!)

Crash and burn

Everytime I see such posts, my heart skips a beat.
Honestly, I don't quite like this feeling.

Maybe that's the reason why I'm so afraid to let go of it now. It's like a form of, hope.
I don't wanna go back to the point where I left.
Really don't.


Sigh.
And my fringe is still screwed. Fml.
First thing my 'wife' asked me when she saw me today,' what's with your fringe today? It really looks damn screwed. At least yesterday it was still okay'
My 'wife' is so direct, break my heart.
LOl, okay lame. Bye.

now all our memories are haunted

Alright.

I'm a little depressed today. Because my fringe looks screwed :( It wasn't suppose to look like bangs but apparently some people said it looks like it. FML.

Grow fringe, grow!

Perhaps that was why my dad's jaw dropped open when he first saw me on Saturday when he came to fetch me up in the evening.

Gets into car,

Me: What?Why are you giving me that shocked look?
Dad: Did you went to cut your hair?
Me: OH~ you finally realised! The past few times you couldn't even tell the difference.
Dad: That's because the past few times whether you cut or not it didn't seem to make any difference

-.-Fine.

Okay, off to emo over screwed fringe.
Bye bye.

Maths, my nightmare.
It's like ruining my life.

Why do the weekends pass like super quickly! Sigh, and seems like going to the Universal Studios next week won't come true with so many of the rides closing recently. To think I was so excited! :( Oh well, got to find something else to do then.

I don't know why but I just don't feel like going back to school tomorrow.
Where. Is. My. Motivation????????? :(

Anyway, yesterday was great! Simple afternoon doing simple things that makes me happpppppy (: Was suppose to back to see the band, but cause they were going out of school for practice so didn't manage to catch them. :( But anyway, the last time I was back, the band seemed to have transformed so much. Now that I've heard so many things have changed, it's pretty saddening. Like where's the band we used to be, used to know? Sigh. Oh well. Still, I can't wait for SYF. Hope the band kicks our rivals' asses and get our title back. The image of the whole band crying 2 years back still stays etched to my mind. Playing our last run-through while crying wasn't a nice feeling, at all. 2 more weeks. Hahaha, i also remember us working our asses off whenever it was this near the competition. Band pracs practically everyday, oh god. How did we ever manages to pull through then I wonder now.

Something though, I don't think the batch of 06 SYF will ever forget. It was the last and final run through on TK's field before the day of the competition whereby we ended brilliantly that day and our alumni telling us, " HOW TO LOSE?!" We were so confident then that we were surely going to kick some ass on our competition day. (: FOND MEMORIES MAN.

if it was just an illusion, it wouldn't have hurt that badly right?

& so school reopens tomorrow. :( How times flies during the holidays.
Good luck to everyone taking SA tomorrow.

Suddenly, I feel lke going to the airport.
Actually, i miss studying at the airport.

Truth is, it hasn't change.
Still the one.

I hate waking up to mornings seeing dark gloomy clouds. Spoils my mood,like seriously. Anyway, been thinking about certain stuffs. Guess yea, I'm just tired maintaining things that aren't going to be the same anymore. So yea, whatever. Probably not going to do anything much from now on.

Things change, people change, some leave.
Shouldn't be anything surprising.

Also, days like these remind me of something...that I probably shouldn't be reminded of. Sigh :(

in the end, there's no reason to pretend.

4E'08 Homies (:

The last time I saw you, you turned away
I couldn't see you with the Sun shining in my eyes
I said "Hello" but you kept on walking
I'm going deaf from the sound of the freeway

The Last time I saw you, you turned away
I couldn't hear you with your voice ringing in my ears
Do you remember where we used to sleep at night?
I couldn't feel you, your always so far away

The first time I saw you, you turned away
I couldn't see you with the smoke getting in my eyes
I said "Hello" but you kept on walking
I'm going deaf from the sound of the DJ

The first time I saw you, you turned away
I couldn't hear with the noise ringing in my ears
Do you remember where we used to sleep at night?
I couldn't feel you, your always so far away

I don't, don't wanna take you home
Please don't, don't make me sleep alone
If I could, I'd only want to make you smile
If you would stay with me a while

The next time I see you, you'll turn away
I'll say "Hello" but you'll keep on walking
The next time you see me, i'll turn away
Do you remember where we used to sleep at night,
I couldn't feel you, your always too far away.

I don't, don't wanna take you home
Please don't, don't make me sleep alone
If I could, I'd only want to make you smile
If you would stay with me a while

I don't, don't wanna take you home
Please don't, don't make me sleep alone
If I could, I'd only want to make you smile
If you would stay with me a while

The next time I see you, you'll turn away
I'll say "Hello" but you'll keep on walking
The next time you see me, i'll turn away
Do you remember where we used to sleep at night,
I couldn't feel you, your always too far away.

I don't, don't wanna take you home
Please don't, don't make me sleep alone
If I could, I'd only want to make you smile
If you would stay with me a while

I don't, don't wanna take you home
Please don't, don't make me sleep alone
If I could, I'd only want to make you smile
If you would stay with me a while

Hearing this song once again, kinda brought me back to the upper sec school days where some of us were so hooked onto this song. Awesome song anyway (: Brings back lotsa memories. Just like you know, at a certain point of time you were hooked onto a certain song, you play it over and over again, so now when you hear the song, it reminds you of a certain time period of your life, and it's like ...you've actually been brought back in time.

The next time you see me, I'll turn away.

MAMAs (: CHAPTER 123456.

Wahahahha.
At lunch today, I had a strong feeling that ______________. & turns out I really did ________________. AWESOME (: Motivation yoooo! Sigh, I think i'm becoming more and more like ME, oh dear.

Such small little things.
It made my day =D

& stupid bear has warned me to stop my nonsense and highness online now or else I'm dead :( cause I just spammed the convo with some meaningful lyrics^^My friends are so hard to please. When I'm high, they think I'm crazy, they think I'm on drugs and they assume that I've got way too much sleep the previous night or they know I _______ WHAHAHAHHAAHA. When I'm low,strangely quiet or pretty lifeless they'll try to get me to be high and they assume that I do not have enough sleep the previous night or that I didn't _________ Awwwwwww :(

Fill in the blanks. 100 marks. ( obv dont fill it up here,text me the correct answers,i'll give you sweeeeeeeeeeets! )
HAHAAH (:

Edit/So far, 100 marks goes to my stupid bear =D HAHAHHAHAHAH. The answers given sent me laughing my ass off! (:

Deep inside it was rush, what a rush.

Last year, at about this time, during orientation camp I remember a silly classmate of mine asking me hell loads of random ( yet seemingly hit-the-jackpot) kinda questions and I was lost for words. I didn't know what to reply because I didn't have the exact answer. & at that time, I remember I was clearly feeling super down and I remember wishing for something right about that time. Life was honestly a drag then. But this year, right now...I get the same kinda feeling but a totally different thing =D Am I making any sense? Probably not to you.


Heh.

Alright. Have a fabulous holiday everyone! Somehow I'm wishing I could go overseas like right now, perhaps Australia or something. Hmm.



Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

Mood now : Super PMS.

Will 'kill' anyone who decides to piss me off further now -.-

Okay, bye.


They say come what may.
But I can't let you fall for every line

Today's an awesome awesome day, both in and out of school. School because.... (: And outside school because I got to have lunch with one of the most awesomest person in my life ( hehehe, eh honoured not! ) Thanks for the really belated birthday present, I love it like loads! I swear I'm gonna treasure it! & thanks for giving me the surprise I wanted you to crack your head to think about. Some would have just forgo the surprise part!

I love surprises ( pleasant ones ), no matter how small,so long you meant it from your heart!=D

You're one of the best man!(:

So touched that you even remembered that my ears were sensitive to certain kinds of earrings,depending on the kind of metal used. I don't remember me teling you that! ( Actually i think i tell people a lot of things that i don't even remember ) Wheeeeee~!

Sumpah, I will remember your favourite singer till the day I die, lol! (: & also...

1) Her name all in caps
2) Another of your favourite singer's birthday is today, 9th march.
3) Won't forget your birthday! This, defnitely!

=D

Sometimes, friendships are so hard to maintain. What used to be, you don't quite see anymore. What changed? Or well, who changed exactly? It's quite hard to say for sure. Why is it so hard to stay where things once used to be? Isn't it quite saddening, when you had friends you used to be so, so close to but now the only words you could utter to them when you see them are just,' oh hi '...and perhaps, ' yea, bye.' And in some cases, they seem like complete strangers to you, you'd probably walk past each other without even noticing. Tragic ain't it?

The people by your side currently that have sworn to be by you when you need them, would they still be there say, 2 years later? Well, beats me. Clueless too. Who's here to stay and who's not?I guess we'll just have to figure it out along the way (:


But for now, just treasure everything you've got now for you wouldn't know when they'd become history,mere memories and a past for you to look back on. ^^

Alright, off to sleep.
Posted this just because I felt like it, not that anything major happened.
Goodnight, have a great week ahead everybody! =D


We were seventeen
But everything
Still seems so clear to me
Whispering, and watching falling stars
From my beat up car
(I was falling, falling, I was falling)

In the parking lot,
Almost ten o' clock
We went for one last walk
I couldn't stop,
Thinking if I should try,
A kiss goodbye
(I was falling, falling, I was falling)

I just ended a conversation which probably shortened my life by quite a bit. -.- Stupid Russ, argues exactly like how Ryan does -.- Sometimes talk to both of them can die, seriously. I'd rather talk to my wall at times like these -.- I think both Sandra and I almost died just now. Know why? Read below.

Russell (OMY) says:
i changed my mind
not going.

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
SLAP YOU AH
dont care you la, you alrdy said goign
just now. and i alrdy said fullstop just now, cannot change!

Russell (OMY) says:
reverse.
reflect
and you cannot do any
crap.

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
LOL WALAO. YOU STILL SEC 2 AH BASKET
REVERSE
REFLECT UR HEAD LUH
REFRACT AH!

Russell (OMY) says:
refract isnt exactly the same as reflect

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
dont care lah
SAMA SAMA

Russell (OMY) says:
though both are science terminologies

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
ok
whatever

Russell (OMY) says:
it's different

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
JUST GO LAH OKAY.
EH WALAO

Russell (OMY) says:
refract is to bend at an angle

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
DONT KNOW WHO JUST NOW SAY DONT WANT PANGSEH
SIA

Russell (OMY) says:
reflect is directly back

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
okok your chem zai

Russell (OMY) says:
refract is a subset of reflect

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
-.- I think you too stress now is it -.-

Russell (OMY) says:
and refract isnt used in this way as refract is used
for light rays
words cannot be refracted
as they cannot be bent at an
angle
but words can be reflected across a mirror
hence

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
-.-

Russell (OMY) says:
refract is not reflect,
5 marks.

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
ZZZ OKAY YOU WIN LAH OKAY -.- wa... pekcek.

Russell (OMY) says:
lah is not an english word
lah is a singlish
word
but singlish is a subset of english
2 marks

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
TOMORROW I WILL GO TO SCHOOL AND SLAP YOU IF YOU
CONTINUE BEING LAME, THIS PART YOU UNDERSTAND? WHICH PART NOT CLEAR, I
EXPLAIN
TOMORROW, IS THE DAY AFTER TODAY
SCHOOL IS A PLACE WE BOTH GO TO
STUDY
SLAP, IS AN ACTION. AN ACTION THAT CAUSES PAIN ON THE FACE.

Russell (OMY) says:
tomorrow is the day after today which is exactly 1
hr 35 mins from now
1 mark.

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
LAME= ME ROLLING MY EYES AT YOUR CURRENT
ACTIONS
ENGLISH, 10 MARKS.

Russell (OMY) says:
such definitions are not from the dictionary
slap
is an action that can cause pain or not cause pain as it depends on the amount
of energy used

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
EH , YOU GO BANG WALL LAH OKAY. ZZZ
I DONT WANNA
ARGUE WITH YOU

Russell (OMY) says:
force is determined by mass x distance
therefore
if you said it causes pain
the assumption is that the mass and distance of
the slap are both large
hence pain is experienced.
lame on the other hand
has many meaning
to a youth lame is being dumb and retarded
however
the other meaning
is that lame is not being able to walk
or crippled
in
the above context

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
LOL YOU ARE BEING RETARDED NOW, THANKS FOR DEFINING
YOURSELF.

Russell (OMY) says:
you assume lame is being retarded

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
NOT ASSUME,
IN YOUR CASE ITS TRUE

Russell (OMY) says:
however you did not state the literal and figurative
meaning of the word 'lame'
hence no marks are awarded
furthermore, a 10
marks qn is an essay qn
you have not stated your stand
and have no intro
body or conclusion
hence your overall marks obtain is only L1-1

[[-Cheryl-]] Russ, just go bang the wall la okay, i lazy argue with you!
ZZZ. YOU BETTER GO. says:
zzz
pek cek ah PEK CEK
read my
nick
thanks.

Russell (OMY) says:
pek cek is not an english word but a hokkien
word
it is a dialect that originates from fu jian
however it cannot be
used in a proper english sentence as pek cek can only be used verbally
hence
your statement is incorrect
and no marks are awarded

Russell (OMY) says:
the pain that you say will cause comes from the
overall energy that you generate from your body
however, in order to increase
the energy
you need to have a greater distance and mass

[[-Cheryl-]] Russ, just go bang the wall la okay, i lazy argue with you!
ZZZ. YOU BETTER GO. says:
EH RUSSELL
FREAK YOU LAH

Russell (OMY) says:
otherwise the pain caused would not be known as
pain,
HAHA
OK LA
GIVE YOU CHANCE
NOW YOU KNOW
DONT ANNOY
ME
ALSO
LOLS
i win,.

[[-Cheryl-]] Russ, just go bang the wall la okay, i lazy argue with you!
ZZZ. YOU BETTER GO. says:
WTSHIT, LIKE THAT ALSO CAN.

"Ten years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t
do than by the things you did."

Alright. I'm kinda hesitating to go for two upcoming events with two different groups of friends. One of which...it's just kinda weird to go for it but they've been asking me to go and demand that I must go. I really want to spend that time with them as well, while we still can because time's just gonna eventually get lesser and lesser and I do wanna treasure each and every friendship I share with all of them. But, RAR! It's just weird. However, looking at the quote from above...I guess, yeah. Ten years down the road, I don't wanna look back and go, "Damn, I should have went.". Ten years down the road, I would wanna look back and say, " Thank God for the experience and for the wonderful memories because I went." (: The other... well, it's more of like it's going to be hard to convince my parents to let me go. Second wasted chance. Once in Sec 4...and probably another, now. Oh well! It's okay(:

Dear friends, please pyscho me some more along the way because I tend to get pretty fickle minded at times, thank you.

I'm still trying to convince myself. Sigh.

I'm dead tired from school, I don't like online assignments and I don't like to write essays. With many small tests, CAs coming, tutorials piling up, it's getting stressful. Okay, bye.

A warm cheerful smile this morning kinda started my day off well (:
Such small things.

Maths maths maths maths.


I officially <3 tuesdays! (: Know why? Heheheh.

HAHA. I just finished doing this personaliy test that I learned from May Ern this afternoon. I did it on Xiaojia and well, I had a good laugh. Suppose to think of 3 animals and their characteristics to somewhat find out what your personality is really like. Read below,



[[-Cheryl-]] says:
the second one, is what people think of you
what did u put?

★XiaoJia says:
uh rabbit

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
characteristic?

★XiaoJia says:
quite timid
LOLS

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
LOL LOL LOLL
LMAO
omg

★XiaoJia says:
its not working
lols

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
ok
then the last one is who you really are

★XiaoJia says:
zzzz dog
f

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
c'mon what animal and characteristic
dog? then?noisy ah?
HAHAHAHHAHA

★XiaoJia says:
nooooo
faithful

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
LOL!

★XiaoJia says:
loyal
lols

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
PUIIII

★XiaoJia says:
oi
dont mean ah

[[-Cheryl-]] says:
okay, personality test fail
LOL

★XiaoJia says:
idiot sia you

I conclude, this personality test only works for some people, not all. =X Okay, actually it's quite accurate lah come to think of it. Go try it yah! At least mine was quite accurate, right May Ern? right Sandra? (:

Anyway...gah I'm so tired! Alright, short post. Off to do work.

won't tell anybody,
won't tell anybody.